Closer : Soundtrack To Us (Beginning)

I'm imaginary. Tonight I'll forgive me those seconds I thought I'd become real.

It is I

This is how it felt, inside, when we ate on the floor.

Nadarin Meets Jellyfish.  Current soundtrack work.

Miento

miento no te necesito cuando camino a medianoche, cerca a la parada, pienso en otra persona cuando tomo mi jugo en la mañana, mi vista se fija en otro lugar del piso nunca he resentido que hayas tirado todo al a-quién-le-importa viejo siempre se me olvidan los detalles y las palabras exactas de nuestros diálogos no te mereces tanta importancia esto pasa todo el tiempo fue algo casual pienso que soy lo más brillante y genial que ha existido pienso que eres lo más genial y brillante que ha existido el jardín que en mi crecía para tí no se quemó hasta la ceniza las rarísimas especies refulgen más fuertes que nunca soltar tu mano antes de saltar al acantilado es lo máximo no creo que los besos sean como luces no creo en “la luz que brilla sobre ti, brilla por siempre” creo que Dios escucha celebro a cada momento haberte enseñado sólo el primero de los fuegos artificiales celebro desaparecer (por fin mago) celebro mil veces al día el papel dramático que juego en la obra imagino que todo es peor sin ti donde todo es el yo que funciona, quizás no el que siente. quiero decir, lo contrario.

-- H.A & A 2010

Twirls

Actor: Hey kid, I need you to lock this door for real

PA: I'm ... I'm just a PA, uh

Actor: Just do it

*Action!*

Actor: [takes out real tools]

Actor: [intense]

*Cut!*

Director: wtf, Brian?

Actor: look, I need to do this

Director: it's already open, Brifus, just do the little lock-picking twitches with the props and open the fucking door like the pro you're supposed to be portra-

Actor: One. MORE.

Director:

Director:

*Action!!*

Actor: [sweat beads]

Actor:

*Cuuut!!*

Director: ffs you're making my tonsils explode, Brian. We're already behind schedule.

Actor: just one more, Bill. I've been watching you tubes, I got this... i wanna.. this year I mean, my acting going upnexeveljustonemore

Director: No, fuck you. Frederick, open the goddam prop doorlock from the inside, let's get this scene and move on.

Actor: no no i can

*Action!!*

Actor: [looks to camera, grabs handle opens door and sets lock for real, closes it]

Actor: [get's back into character, crouching, knee to floor. Desperation. Sweat beads. Concentration.]

Actor:

Director: [roundhouse kicking chair]

Director: [about to yell cut]

*click*

*door is lock-picked open*

Director:

Director: [barely audible] Cut!!

Director: [deep breathing] [crushing script page into a ball] [walks to office]

Everyone: umm

Actor: [turns on his fully functional in-ear walkie talkie spy prop] don't know what you're mad about, Bill. We got a helluva scene; I'm telling ya, this is the year, it's all abou-

Director: don't know what I'm mad about? Hell of a sceeene?!

[loud bangs, lamp trashing heard room next door]

Director: hell of a scene, Brifuck? It's useless!! Uussseeeelleeesssssss aaaaahh

Actor: useless? Whatdoya mean useless?! I gave you gold, sweetchums. The real deal! I fucking lock-picked that door for you. It's not even that difficult, there's this youtube ch-

Director: [high pitch laughter breaking up] you framed all surprised, moran! When it opens we see you almost smile and jump and get relief! Your asinine character is supposed to be super tense and has done this almost every episode.

Actor: ... Well, edit the surprise out. Why are you acting like a big baby? I'll give you some more of the smooth entry if that's what you need...

Director: [walking back on set] oh so you're telling me how to shoot this now

Actor: YOU are telling me how to act this out all Fakey and Lame, this-

Director: THAT's MY JOB! [bane breaks the back of a lighting stand, throws the two pieces every which way] aaaaaa

Actor: And mine is to act out the best way possible for this scene, dog gone it.

Producer: [walking in, raises ray bans to look around] oh for Tiffany's sake, light that fireplace and queue the soft funk. Get to the scenes that pay the billssss

[finger twirls]

Best of early morning sights. 2012, this is going to work.

Because someone doesn’t love you how you want them to, doesn’t mean they don’t love you with all they have.

Anonymous.  Found on some random Tumblr.

Azul Do (lyrics)

No con cualquier luz sale

la bestia azul

que vive en mi propia, sombra.

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No fue casualidad que

tu tinta azul

dibujara corcheas, corcheas secretas...

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No concibo

explicarte

todo el ron

que últimamente me seca, toda la sed...

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Cumple años

hoy denuevo

nadie sabe

lo que quiero

Voy descalzo

voy entero

en los idiotas

voy primero

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Sin conquistar lunares

Sin, conquistas lunares

Sin tu tinta azul,

dond el hilo eleva,

  cometas

  cometas

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No por casualidades

No con cualquier luz sale

la bestia azul.

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In fariness, you warned me.  In fairness, hanging by a thread, felt more like walking an epic plank to board a pirate ship (of fun).