“Put A Gun To My Head And Paint The Walls With My Brain”

Id give up all the world to go back, before I fucked everything up...

But now that you hate me..

And its over

I just wanna hold you.

..I gotta try to live with the mistakes i made..

And im having a hard time living with myself today.... 💔

God, i feel like such a fucking burden. Why can’t i just shut up and deal with it myself.  i’m sure that no one wants to hear me whine about how fucking repulsive i am… i wish i could just stop being so fucking annoying.  i always do the same fucking shit of getting bad again every few months like an absolute fucking idiot and slitting myself all over and just. being so fucking disgusting. i’m sure that at this point everyone’s so fucking done of me complaining about it. i don’t even know why i bring it up… they’re clearly so fucking tired of me.

why wouldn’t they be?

Can my body just stop functioning so I can die?

*goes from fine to actively suicidal in 30 seconds flat* 

Ok but same.

sometimes i wish my scars on my left arm where much “worse”. Cause now my mom knows i sh and she would notice new scars. sh on other places never gives me the same release as on my left arm and I hate it.

Have you ever cried so hard that you want to just scream? You just want to scream and cry because you genuinely hate yourself so much for things you can’t change about yourself?

BAHAHAHAHAH SAME

"fuck you my child is completely fine"

Your child has 8 pencil sharpeners yet none of them have the blades in them and wears hoodies in the summer

It's me I'm the child

i hate how much i’ve shared with people. i want to take everything back

It's still self harm.

Made a promise i wouldn’t cut again to two different people… Does it count if I got really angry at myself and scratched too hard…more than once…

There’s no blood…the skin is just a little broke… Y'know