I Caught A Rabbit~

Saturdays concert was a lot of firsts for me:

It was my first ever concert

It was the first time I wore full fem in public

It was the first time I explicitly wore a pride flag

It was the first time someone I knew called me Jocie in public

It was the first time I got genuine compliments from strangers

It was the first time I went into the women’s bathroom (so much more comfortable btw)

It was the first time I didn’t feel a shred of anxiety

It was truly a magical experience, not only to see my lifelong favorite band good kid, but to be my full true self without restrictions. I felt like I could finally breathe for the first time in forever. The whole thing was so just congenial and I loved it.

This marks a new era in my transition, I’ve been through discovery, I’ve been through yearning and dreaming, this year I think I’m going to be craving. This will be toughest fight yet, but if things go well I’ll make it out hotter then I did before.

Things just made so much more sense on Saturday, my actions felt way more natural. I knew that I wasn’t doing things wrong for the first time in my life.

I want that back. I want to have that, and to be that, I want to smile like I smiled, I want to move like I moved, I want to talk like I talked, I want to go where I went.

I’m tired of the claustrophobic feeling I get everyday. I’m tired of my heart and windpipes being crushed 24/7. I’m tired of dreading every interaction I have. I tired of having anxiety attacks whenever I see a girl wearing something cute, and being filled with intense envy that I’m not allowed to quench. I’m tired of entering the boys bathroom and immediately feeling like I’m being observed and that I’m in danger. I’m tired of making up lies to protect my siblings from the hate that my coming out will definitely put on them; I can take the heat, but they never could. I’m tired of being uninspired when choose my clothes from such a dull pallet. I’m tired.

I’m craving something I just got a sample of.

You can’t keep it from me forever.

under transfem supremacist communism the sleepy tgirls will be placed into enormous cuddle piles where everyone will be held and loved and petted and praised

Saw this in my local park this morning

made a specific brush to do them leaves

Haiiii everyone, I'm new here, I'm Kali, im 18, im a trainsgirl, I've got AuDHD, I'm also a w(b)itch in an engi college trying to get by through the bullshit life throws at me, i love shows like the owl house, dead boy detectives and helluva boss/hazbin (i do NOT support Vivianne though, i pirate all her episodes, do tell her i wanna see her bitch about it on twitter uwu) im also incredibly weird, and yeah haiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii :333

(also i might do free spells if you want me to hex your abusive ex or abusive mom/dad whatever yada yada yada)

I hid for so long, eager to be found.

The first time I saw myself in the mirror.

Avelyn and Elizabeth.

I think the sky is trying to say something? 🤔 👀 🏳️‍⚧️

uh awkward

@justjade @vomega505

plz guys im begging i need my tits to be bigger 🥺