Streetlight Spotlight

Our Love Has More Power

When your emails

Got replaced with college’s attempting to get in my league

You were my first home run

You got me in the sweet spot at the right time

Classroom peeking

Our love has more power over us than the authorities do

No police can keep us safe

No jailers will ever get a piece of our lonely hearts

Should I begin this over again?

I wouldn’t mind someone who was big and cozy

You are boney and nosey

Should I go through?

When you jokingly say

That sitting next to you in the cafe is my favorite part of the day

Should I continue?

Watching my future heart die

I'm not sure I'm ready to let it retry

Or should I stay open and ready,

For my knight in shining armor?

The one who will charm her

Should I start this all over?

Just for another taste of happiness that’s so sweet

Knowing the end will hurt more than it does now; Raw endings are not something I want to meet

I couldn’t be normal for you

It’s not allowed with me

But someday we will escape

And we shall be the idiots that we didn’t get to be

I'm not afraid to lose myself

I know you will always find me

Let’s add insult to injury to all the authorities of our life

They deserve it

A Pound of Rocks

Fallen, struck, and forgotten

I am ready for the fight

Hear me out

I will win the war of being particular

The only difference between me and you

Is that, despite the war, I want you

I knew that when we met

You were a doll

With your appearance of a revolutionary uniform

You seemed like an ice cold bitch

At first you made my blood go cold

Oh but Mary, you will live on

My heart feels like its full of a pound of rocks rather than

A pound of feathers

Feelings are not always accurate

Worried and hurried

My heart is bound to you

With the simplest of things that you left me with

On account of that

My heart takes flight

And my tears dried themselves

I'm my own hero

Though I do

Imagine that it’s you

Dominos

After I goof for one night

Just for delight

All the dominoes started to fall

After I grew them so tall

I can't stop them from falling

Even after all the other times its still appalling

They continue

Like they have sinew

Until I get up and face it

I still don't have a permit

By then it's too late

The dominoes I try to berate

I must start building from the bottom up

Dear depression, just shut up

It seems like I finally got my dominoes straight

I lost my marbles then stepped on one, how great?!

They fall down like words from my brain right to the page

Spreading like bacteriophage

The world seems to be running out of words

We're not moving forwards

They get used up as they fall

Some I can't recall

It's all my fault that one fell

Should I tell?

Everyone thinks that all of them falling was my fault

But there's some left over words in the vault

It was just one goof night

Just for delight

If there was more space they wouldn't have fell

Turns out I didn't tell

What do you expect from a curious 16 year old?

Especially one who doesn't like fitting the mold

Lately I have had steady hands near the domino line

That was divine

Now all I can hear is the dominoes falling with that smooth ticking

The ones left standing you can find me kicking

As the white contrast with the black dots turn grey

What in the world will I say?

It was one goof night,

Full of delight

They are falling so speedily, I am unable to rack up the dots

All I see is flashing spots

I need a partner in crime

They could help me keep my black and white straight in time

The only thing left for me to do is sit back and stair

If the polka dotted towers had more air they might not have flared

I plead that it was just one goof night

That was full of delight

Don't Ever

Too good to be true

In the back of my head I knew

Do you really have a freshman crush?

You're still keeping hush

You're a chicken

You're heart is too alive and kick’n

You fall in love to easy

In my world it’s cold and breezy

You loved me

Please

Just tell me how come you don’t want me anymore?

I thought you wouldn't walk out the door

I see how you're just going to leave me like this

Without my first kiss

I was so ready

I won’t believe you if you ever ask me to go steady

Don’t you even dream about coming back!

Intelligence is what you lack

You're kissing a golden one goodbye!

I can’t wait for you to move in four months, I'm not going to lie

Broke my heart without even touching it

You need to teach yours how to heel and sit

I remember when I was still…

I was chewing the idea of you and I over and over like a sweet jolly rancher in my mouth

You're such a hot head you have to move south

Why don’t you just tell me?

Don’t break me slowly while you get to flee

That rumor I heard

It hurt, I now see you as a wimpy little turd

Do you want to change that?

Or are you just going to keep on hiding under your uninterested mat?

The weather is angry

I'm all strangely

Come near me at your own risk

Permanently scratched your video game disk

Oh I can be bitch!

I'm that annoying out of your league back itch

So you don’t want to love this blue eyed mess?

Boy, I'll make you confess

Straight to my face

I'll beat you at the end of the race

You'll want be back after

When that happens I'll be the one making all of the laughter

Cold

I'm so cold

I won't be able to sleep tight

I'm not done with this fight

I'm so clammy cold

I need time

And for that person who has a crush

I can't make a decision my brain is mush

If only I had time

I need something in my side

I was just a silly goose

But then all hell broke loose

Someone to help guide

Too stressed

I can't think

Staring at the wall I refuse to blink

I can't function my best

A cure for the cold would be a warm hug

But not for this grinning little punk

A hug would not fix a heart that has already sunk

Too late, too bad you're a slug

How can someone help me?

They can't, my problems of empty love are ungratefully big

I'll tell you everything when there are flying, majestic pigs

Through me, it feels like you can see

I'm stuck

And you can't do much

For you can't touch

I'm afraid you seriously can't help,yuck!

I'll live my life cold

At least I get to live

The downside is I'll have nothing to give

Nothing lasts not even a heart of gold

A Crack In My Self Loathing

I accidentally just fell in love with myself

It was a crack in my self loathing that will soon be mended

It was the messy hair

That was still messy despite the ponytail

Despite my favorite hat containing it

It was my blue eyes

Looking at me

In my baggy hand-me-down shirt

That makes me feel

Comfortable

It was knowing that I had clay all over me

A mess

But that's exactly what I am

And I know its a flaw

But sometimes

It's the one style I know how to rock

Part mess and part artist

I wasn't trying to love myself in this moment

It just happened

When I looked in the mirror

Because I was about to brush my teeth for the night

Brokenhearted

I left brokenhearted

I guess that’s what growing up is like

Even though I never really seem to grow up

And I guess that’s the problem

How do you grow up?

Why do you grow up?

If I can keep it from being my fault

I don’t want to become one with the boring adults

With them, time has run its course and mellowed

Time wears you smooth like sea glass

And it doesn’t stop for anyone, anything

From our minds it can go fast and slow

I don’t want to mellow

I will not fall in love with classical music, I’ll stick with 2CELLOS

Why stop rocking out?

Why stop having sharp edges?

I'm already getting jealous of young age

At the same time being jealous of an older age

But not quite jealous of death,

No, not quite

Is it better than being in pain?

Is it better being lonely?

It’s not very funny

When you run out of living money

I am jealous of how my generation gets put into stereotypes

When they say we’re all going to lose our hearing

Then you ask what type of stereo we like

And I’ll say I don’t like any!

Don’t put us in groups

You seem to like talking in stiff loops

Why should we respect you when you don’t respect us?

Do you think respect is a one way street?

Groups of stupid, lazy, unhealthy

I'm going about to turn the tables; this is actually all your fault

Thanks for handing us our high school diplomas with a nice finishing touch, debt

You could have tried to hand us a nice life

Do you think we are happy in our hellish lives?

Do you think we all fit into one singular standard?

Some of us are working hard so we might have a glimpse at a small chance,

With a lonely, painful, brokenhearted romance

Bang Bang

My heart is made of gold

And it's oh so heavy it hurts

With every bang, bang Today

My broken is showing I don't think

I was supposed to be here It's like this isn't my life

I belong in a different one My life is at an advanced placement level

While my brain is at special education level

I'm too sensitive

And too weak They were right

About me after all Bang, Bang

Marble

Our time is 5:07

It's my heaven

Don't you ever doubt that you are my friend

Shall I make you say it again?

You know what I mean

Please spill the beans

I’ve heard that before but I don't know where

Sorry, but I don't dare

I can't hurt you, I won't sugarcoat it with extra fluff

You've already been hurt enough

I like writing misery, you like science

But 5:07 is our compliance

I refuse to lose my marble

This one is really garbled

Garbled and hard to understand, without a doubt

I like it when you freak out

It means you care

My tall teddy bear

Now you know that I can't even sneeze

And all you could say was, "oh jeez"

Oh but that guy, Brad

She's mad

To make her day

She wishes that certain people would get out of the way

She's befuddled

I'm befuddled

When she smiles

I sit back and watch for awhile

For you I will never stop

Until I'm at the top

That rock wall, for you I will climb

Because 5:07 is our time

It's Working

Head spinning

Head winning

Heart cruising

Heart losing

Brain barely working

Brain thoughts lurking

Feet walking

Feet stalking

Knees yell

Knees swell

Shoulders weak

Shoulders seek

Forehead sweat

Better yet

Befuddled

Everything is muddled

Hands shake

Fingers break

I'm so dependent

I sure am happy I sent it

You make me loose

I am a really silly goose!

When you disappear I miss you

I don't have a clue

I trust this one

Half the battle with you has been won

How and why is what I ask

What if you are wearing a mask?

I'm stuck with a bad case of the what if's

Those two words leave me hanging off cliffs

I will let you slither into my shoe, you already know it's a slipper

You understand fart rippers

Head no longer twirling

Heart won, happily whirling