Mediocrity Is My Biggest Fear

HOW TO STOP SELF SABOTAGING + DOUBTING

MAKE YOUR GOALS/HABITS AN IDENTITY. Your lifestyle makes up who you are, quite literally. If you want to wake up early, then start identifying yourself as an early bird. If you want to get good grades, then start identifying yourself as a studious student. And so on. 

This helps with feeling more accountable and committed to our goals and habits. However, don’t use this as a reason to overexert yourself. 

THERE IS SOMETHING UNDERNEATH CERTAIN BEHAVIOURS. All of your bad habits stem from your subconscious. This is why mentally healthy people tend to think more about their physical health. 

The best way to recognise patterns beneath your bad habits is just to talk to yourself. In any way or any form. Identify it, see what might’ve caused this subconscious thought and then work towards a way to replace the feeling that these bad habits give with a good one. 

DETACH FROM THE OUTCOME. The more you fixate on the long-term results, the more longer, strenuous and exhausting your journey is going to be, especially because you’re going to want to give up as soon as results don’t appear. Focus on the short-term results. 

You exercised? Now you feel good inside. You studied hard and understood everything? Great job for being so productive. You did that one really scary thing? What a great start!

THE PART OF YOU THAT DOES BAD HABITS IS NOT BAD. It is the complete opposite of bad. It loves you and wants to keep you safe, so it refrains you from doing anything ‘scary’ (which is typically new things in our lives) and makes you fall back on ‘safe’ habits which are a coping mechanism. 

So, instead of berating that part of you that participates in bad habits even if you know it’s bad, understand it. As these coping mechanisms usually stem from our childhoods, we turn to these habits when we feel stressed, anxious or depressed. 

Being high maintence is my form of protection

High maintenance? Absolutely. And let me tell you, it’s a title I wear with pride. I’m not here to settle for average, and I’m certainly not going to make myself smaller just to make other people comfortable. I know what I deserve, and I expect nothing less than the best in every area of my life.

From the people I surround myself with to the way I treat myself—nothing is ever ‘good enough’ unless it’s top-tier. I’ve worked too hard, sacrificed too much, and leveled up too many times to accept anything that doesn’t meet my standards. If that makes me high maintenance, then so be it.

I don’t just want luxury—I demand it. I don’t just want respect—I command it. And if someone can’t give me the quality I expect, then they simply don’t get access to me. I’m not here to be anyone’s second choice or a ‘maybe.’ I’m the gold standard, and if you’re not willing to meet me there, you don’t belong in my world.

Being high maintenance isn’t about being picky—it’s about knowing your worth and refusing to lower your standards for anyone. The right people will appreciate that about you. The wrong ones? Well, they’ll watch you from the sidelines while you keep winning.

So, yes. I’m high maintenance. But in my world, that’s exactly how it should be.

prepping for the next year⋆.ೃ࿔*:･🫧

welcome to a brief guide on prepping for the next year in ur life to be fruitful <333

REFLECT - take the time to look at where u are right now, look at the habits that you've picked up and engrained into ur life, then depending on where u wanna be, decide which habits to keep and which habits to get rid of. make a list if u want a visual representation

start HABIT STACKING. habit stacking is a technique that was mentioned in the book "atomic habits" which i highly highly recommend. so basically the concept behind it is starting a habit that'll trigger a domino effect of positive habits. "a technique where u form new habits by pairing a new desired behavioral change with an already existing behavior you routinely do"

EXAMPLE : in the morning the first thing i do is i brush my teeth, my brain knows that as soon as i've finished brushing my teeth, i'll reach for my head-band and cleanser and begin to wash my face. the action of brushing my teeth created a domino effect because ik that after brushing my teeth -> i wash my face

GOAL SETTING - think about ur dream life, how it feels, looks etc u already know how to manifest, if ur on my blog or around this side of tumblr chances are u probably know about law of assumption and how it works. take some time to learn and apply it so that u can manifest ur dream life. and who you wanna be (build that SELF CONCEPT)

DAY-TO-DAY - make sure that ur prioritizing ur health above all and knowing what will you be doing on the day-to-day basis? what do u want it to be like, what is ur ideal quality of life? think about habits that'd align with it. for example if something u wanna experience in ur day-to-day life is energy in surplus then you'd look at ur habits and think "am i sleeping enough" or "whats my diet look like"

YOUR CIRCLE - take a look at the people that u surround urself with, their characters, their aspirations and habits and if that aligns with the life that u want for urself. for example if ur constantly surrounding urself with someone who is lazy or toxic, you'll subconsciously be influenced by their laziness and toxicity. the saying "you are who u surround urself with" is so true! surround urself with like-minded people or people that you'd want to be with in ur dream life.

some things to practice to improve urself :

self discipline (its like a muscle, the more u exercise it the stronger it becomes)

hydration (drink some water <333)

gratitude

thinking consciously (thinking from the wish fulfilled = ur manifestation coming into fruition)

reading (or listening to audio-books if reading isn't ur cup of tea)

HOW I MANIFESTED MY DREAM APPEARANCE

Okayyy so I used to have lots of limiting thoughts but TODAYYY I was standing on BUSINESSS with affirming,visualizing and persisting and LET ME TELL YOU I LITERALLY MANIFESTED MY DESIRED FACE, DESIRED BODY, CLEAR SKIN, LONG SILKY CURLY HAIR, AMBER EYES LONG EYELAHES,BEING FINE ASFFF BEING SNATCHED, AND BEING 5’10

THIS PROVES THAT MANIFESTING IS EASY AND THE INLY PERSON THATS STOPING YOU IS YOU, SO SWITCH THAT MINDSET AND MANIFEST INSTANTLY

I love hello kitty 🎀🍭

⎯⎯ The New Me 2k25 project 🌸🩰 ⎯⎯⎯

✮ Healthy whole foods mostly (not always!!) - no added sugar, no unhealthy fats, no oil, no ultra-processed food

✮ No food restrictions, just mindfulness

✮ Hitting the protein goal daily (70g)

✮ Chosen sport 2 times per week

✮ Working out at home/running 3-4 times per week

✮ Drinking 2l of water

✮ In bed by 10 PM, up at 6:30

✮ AM and PM skincare every day

✮ Getting homework done the day it is assigned

✮ Studying and practicing at least 2 hrs

✮ Max. 2 hours screen time

✮ Reading at least 50 pages per day

✮ Language learning every day

✮ Spending time with myself

✮ Taking it easy. I'm not working against myself, but with myself. I am confident and positive and the physical and mental improvements will appear in no time. I am glowing up!!

next time if you ever feel like falling back to old habits just remember this

personally, there's no better motivation than remembering that there's probably many people out there who don't want me to succeed.

You don’t need motivation, you need self discipline.

1.Start small,Focus on one discipline building habit at a time to avoid getting overwhelmed and end up not following through.

Gradually increase your commitments little by little. They will soon become part of your routine instead of it being "work".

2.Get rid of distractions that hinder your focus (e.g., unhealthy relationships,social media).

3. HAVE SOME SELF CONTROL!! delay instant gratification, when you don’t feel like doing something, do little more than you want, commit to showing up for YOURSELF even when you don’t feel like it.

4. Create a daily schedule that prioritizes most important items on the list. Keep it consistent to form habits over time.

5. last but not least, stay consistent. Discipline is built by sticking to your commitments daily,and give yourself kudos for your gains and failures without judgement , it takes time and effort so be nice to yourself.

Start planning 2025

Make a list of all the emotions you want to feel at the end of 2025.

Now work backwards and write down all the tasks you need to do in order to feel that way.

Make a separate list of all the “gaps” - what do you currently not have in order to do those tasks to make you feel the way you want?

And lastly, write down how you can fill those gaps. Do you need a gym membership to become fit to feel good about your yourself? Do you need to learn how to cook better meals in order to feel healthy and energised? Do you need to start applying to jobs, in order to secure one, in order to feel financially safe? Do you need to buy an old school alarm clock that’s going to wake up your entire apartment building in order to wake up early? what do you need to DO?

also, make a list of all the things that worked out for you in 2024. Learn to celebrate and appreciate, even the smallest of wins.

For the next two months start the trial and error process of this program. Let’s say you decide that you want to work out 7 days a week in order to feel good about your body. Now halfway through November you realise that 7 days is probably too much, and 5 days would be better for your schedule. Or you decide to read 3 books a week, but realistically, maybe a chapter a day is better.

November and December are your trial months. By the time January starts, be ready with a program that is built for you, works for you, and can be completed by you.

Don’t forget about keeping a reward mechanism. If you complete your daily tasks for 1 month straight, buy that little purse you were eyeing, or take yourself to a spa. Reward yourself in ways you like so that :

a) you’re not in an endless cycle of never being satisfied

b) you don’t drop everything for a man or a friend who shows you the slightest bit of affection because you won’t show it to yourself

c) it encourages you to work harder for yourself.

Girly Comfort Movies

Little collection of my favourite comfort movies (take with a grain of salt lol) <3

Legally Blonde (1 and 2)

the devil wears Prada

The Princess Diaries (1 and 2)

Little Woman

Clueless

Mean Girls (1 and 2)

Pride & Prejudice

Roman Holiday

Uptown girls

Marie-Antoinette

The Virgin Suicide

10 things I hate about you

Lady Bird

Jennifer’s Body

how to lose a guy in 10 days

American Psycho

A Cinderella Storie

Emma

Watching the detectives

La La Land

Peters to Juliette

Bling Ring

Fight Club

13 going 30

The Notebook

Breakfast at Tiffanys

Sex and the city

Dear John

The breakfast club

Mamma Mia

Monte Carlo

Black Swan

Girl Interrupted

Pearl

If you guys have any more suggestions and/or recommendations (maybe some shows and series as well!!), please feel free to share them with me in the comments!! <33