are u a billford shipper
ok im going to answer this in as simple terms as i can i accept the fact that they are were in a canonical ABUSIVE relationship. however i feel that by saying i "ship" them, it implies that i find them a good pair. i do not. calling billford "toxic yaoi" feels like its romanticizing the abuse, especially since i myself am someone who has gone through similar things as ford with someone who did similar things as bill. it makes me feel icky. i find closure in the fact that ford was able to move on, because that means i can too. but with people shipping ford and bill it just. it pains me. so much. because i know what it feels like to be on fords side of things and its not a cutesy dynamic between the two of them. ford is a victim and bill is his abuser. if you ship it i wont go out of my way to hate you i just. eugh.
tldr: yeah its probably canon. but its still abusive and icky and feels kinda invalidating towards my own experiences.
i already posted for fiddleford friday but im thinking so hard right now im thinking about ford and dipper parallels. then it hits me. dude. fiddleford warned ford about the portal, and what did ford do? ignore him. and what happened? it almost caused the end of the world like he said it would. fiddleford warned dipper about the portal at the end of the northwest mansion mystery. what did dipper do? ignore him. what happened? the end of the world almost happened like he said it would. oh. my god. will someone just hear this man out for two god damn seconds. miscommunication must run in the pines family or something because what the fuck. and fiddleford probably didnt even remember the original portal situation yet at this point. imagine the weird feeling of deja vu he probably felt right then. but he couldnt really place where it was from. and like it was SO similar. both times he was warning the "smarter" person about the portal, and more specifically bill, and they both flat out ignored him despite how obvious the dangers really were. it kind of makes me wonder how NWHS would've turned out if someone actually fucking listened to fidds for once. maybe then stan wouldve had time to explain everything. maybe then fidds would have some amount of credibility. for being right. and its not like dipper ever apologizes to him for not listening?? at least not from what i remember lmao. fidds gets fucked over so badly at every turn. like what the fuck alex. what did the smart little hillbilly ever do to you.
picturing stan confronting bud gleeful except its just the opening to candy store from the heathers musical.
"spleens did you just make two (technically three if you include that ask) posts about stan pines having big tits in a row back to back in like two days time" and to that i say i plead the fifth.
i’m gonna boost this video of mine because 1. it looks cool 2. youtube destroyed the quality on it and 3. it got copyrighted so that’s. not good for reach.
here. you can have it.
this therapist told him to think more positive thoughts.
old man mcgucket stops playing his banjo at 8. nobody really knows why. all they know is that when it’s 8 o clock, he stops playing his banjo and goes inside to work on something else. and when i say “nobody” that includes fiddleford himself. he doesn’t really remember why he can’t play his banjo past 8, but what he does know is that it’s a firm rule. even if there’s nobody there to enforce it, he just knows within himself that he’s not supposed to. so he doesn’t.
sometimes fiddleford looks at his cubix cube. it’s solved, it always is, but something nags at him to check. it feels like it’s supposed to be scrambled, but it’s not. he doesn’t really want to scramble it himself but it’s like a step in the process is gone. he solves it. he leaves it alone. something happens? he comes back to it scrambled. he solves it. but now it just sits off to the side, untouched. it’s confusing.
sometimes fiddleford sees something interesting. he thinks that it would be a perfect gift for someone. but he doesn’t know who that someone is. it’s just a blank where their name should be. but he gets these things anyways. maybe someday he’ll remember who they are and be able to fill in the blanks. give them all of the gifts he’s collected over the years. finally understand who he used to be.
why is it that every time he makes gloves, whether it’s with crochet or leather, they end up with six fingers?
why is it that every time he finds something strange or out of the ordinary, he feels a sense of nostalgia?
why is it that every time he goes exploring into the forest, he feels a sense of something missing?
why is it that he just feels so alone?
the answer is simple.
old man mcgucket is just a crazy hillbilly.
the town kook.
he doesnt know anything.
he can’t be fixed.
just ignore him.
just don’t look at him.
just leave him alone.
whenever i'm picturing like. a scene in my head with a character i always try to picture their actual voice actors voices because then it feels like i can. idk feel whether its in character or not?? idk how to explain it but when i think of fiddauthor (which i do often). i actually cannot picture it because wholesome gay people comfort and j.k. simmons' voice just do not go together. i need to like train my brain in order to really get his character and his voice in my head