This Therapist Told Him To Think More Positive Thoughts.

guys im so sorry for posting angst on fiddleford friday but like... i have to talk about this can you imagine how stressful weirdmageddon was for him?? like dude. it would be like 15x as bad as during the construction of the portal. the entire town was counting on him to build this robot. not only does that include ford but probably most importantly tate. if he failed then his best friend and his kid would be trapped in stone forever, or destroyed, or whatever bill was going to do to them. and he wouldnt even get the chance to say goodbye or make up for his previous mistakes. if he was quintuple checking his equations for the portal, then imagine how many times he checked his equations when building the shack-a-tron. its also a really horrible loop because working on the thing made him stressed out about messing up, but building is also kind of his coping mechanism, so he builds to cope while stressing himself out even more. dude. give this man a hug. he should get a hug.

i think stan would wear a shirt that says "yeah. im bi. ✅sexual ✅gender ✅lingual ✅polar"

fiddtober day 7. i dont really have any comments for this one. the anatomy isn’t great but that’s ok

i need evil stan twins and i need it now not stan twins teaming up with bill. not reverse au or whatever it was. not whatever kind of evil stanley already kind of is. i want these two bastards to want to watch the world burn for absolutely no reason other than to watch it burn while also still wanting bill dead. theres no motivation or reason or anything they're just evil. is that so much to ask (yes it is) im picturing like. they both get hit with the weirdness wave or whatever during weirdmageddon and it just brings out the worst parts of both of them (like the WORST worst parts and probably also really exaggerated. like not just "oh stanleys greedy" or "oh fords really arrogant" no its like stanley is willing to do ANYTHING for his own gain, and ford would try to take down everything and everyone who's above him so he can be on top, including bill) until it's reversed somehow. you know what i mean??

me scrolling so cautiously and slowly because people are starting to get their books and i will be damned if i get spoiled before i get the thing in like. idk an hour or something thankfully people have been pretty good at tagging spoilers so. just scroll past.

i want to post something about ford and his relationship with bill (similar format to the mcgucket posts i made) but i feel like it wouldn't be worth it with the amount of disclaimer i would have to put. my idea of "billford" is very specific and i dont want to tag it as that nor have other people tag that because of the way other people perceive it. people do not scroll through the billford tag to see a "complex" analysis of how abusive their relationship was and how bill sees ford as a toy or pet to control and play with as a way to comfort himself and cope unhealthily. people scroll through the billford tag to see them kiss and be silly when that is not at all my intention. i dont know how i would word it on the actual post in a short format which discourages me from posting it at all because i dont want the wrong audience under a post like that. do you understand. please understand.

i’m very bored so uh

send in asks about my aus (cough cough dr ntl) or something. if i’m feeling nice and motivated i might draw something with it.

are u a billford shipper

ok im going to answer this in as simple terms as i can i accept the fact that they are were in a canonical ABUSIVE relationship. however i feel that by saying i "ship" them, it implies that i find them a good pair. i do not. calling billford "toxic yaoi" feels like its romanticizing the abuse, especially since i myself am someone who has gone through similar things as ford with someone who did similar things as bill. it makes me feel icky. i find closure in the fact that ford was able to move on, because that means i can too. but with people shipping ford and bill it just. it pains me. so much. because i know what it feels like to be on fords side of things and its not a cutesy dynamic between the two of them. ford is a victim and bill is his abuser. if you ship it i wont go out of my way to hate you i just. eugh.

tldr: yeah its probably canon. but its still abusive and icky and feels kinda invalidating towards my own experiences.

i will throw myself into a lake if i bite my tongue one more time i swear to god

stan sometimes has to get up at ungodly hours of the night in order to help soos with a simple problem. ford sometimes has to have uncomfortable conversations with tate in order to explain himself and apologize. but thats not what matters.

what matters is that theyre better than filbrick

and the fact that they broke the cycle.