Why Did You Do This To Me?

Everybody around me has some kind of dreams, goals for the future.

When I look at the future, it's just an empty darkness.

— Albert Camus, The Possessed

doubting everyone's intentions because I was hurt the most and left by the people who said that they'd never do me like that.

[ID text — you knew what you were doing and you knew it would hurt me, but somehow that didn’t stop you]

I don’t always know if I’m my own self or pieces of the people from my past

D.W. Winnicott

i hope you heal from what your parents obviously haven't healed from yet