PLEASE SOMEONE DRAW THIS AS ATSUSHI AND KUNIKIDA IT WOULD BE SO FUCKING FUNNY

go white boy goooo

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Concept: Atsushi with looser morals.

Atsushi was raised in an environment where the kind die first. A place where he was taught the only person you can trust is yourself.

Atsushi learned how to survive a point system that never rewarded him. He would do other kids chores, take their punishments in exchange for food.

He was raised in hell and it meant that he learned to survive by any means necessary.

Atsushi stops Junichiro and passes his entrance exam because Dazai and Kunikida were kind to him. They gave him food, shelter and saved him when no one else ever has.

He doesn’t get involved until they’re put in danger. In his eyes he was paying them back for it and the job was completely unexpected.

Obviously Atsushi accepts because where else was he gonna go with no qualifications and an ability he can’t control.

He does pay Kunikida back for the 30 bowls of tea on rice even if the other says he doesn’t need too.

As if not paying his debts ever felt like an option to him.

Atsushi doesn’t think he’s a good person. He follows the law because the Agency (sometimes) does. He helps protect the city because the Agency does.

And working with the Agency gives him shelter and money so that he can eat and thus live.

Atsushi doesn’t think he belongs with them. He’s a coward and in the end he only really looks out for himself. In his eyes he’s not a good person.

Definitely not someone worth their kindness nor their belief and trust.

When the Port Mafia comes for his bounty he runs off without a second thought. He only comes back because Kunikida calls him to come help with the clean up.

Atsushi just silently sweeps up debris dodging the questions demanding to know where he was.

He doesn’t get why they don’t just sell him out. Sure they can clearly handle the Port Mafia but the bounty would be useful to them all.

It’s not like he’s worth keeping around. Certainly not for Dazai to let himself get kidnapped for.

He’s just another ungrateful mouth to feed as the Heasmaster would call him.

And he’s not wrong because Atsushis whole life has been spent trying to survive to his next day that actually being able to live his life feels weird to him.

He doesn’t really know how too. He had no dreams ot aspirations. He never thought he’d live long enough to escape the orphanage.

Maybe he should just hand himself over? Take the cash and dip while the others use his wage for something far more useful.

Maybe find someone worth keeping around.

But Atsushi doesn’t.

Because as times go on he starts to realise that not only does the Agency care about him. But that he cares for them too.

He likes watching Dazai and Kunikida bicker. He feels a sense of comfort when Yosano asks if he’s okay. When Ranpo tells him that he did a good job.

But the real kicker is when Atsushi meets Kyouka because all his instincts scream that he should run.

But he doesn’t.

Because Yosano is counting on him to protect the trains civilians. And he doesn’t want to let her down.

Kyouka Izumi is not a civilian.

Kyouka Izumi has a bomb strapped to her chest and has killed 35 people and will probably kill him too.

The Agency might be disappointed if he took her out but they’d understand.

But Atsushi has no reason to save her, for god’s sake he can’t even save himself how can he possibly help her?

So why does he look into her eyes and see himself. He sees a survivor, he sees someone who won’t fight him back because living was never an option for her.

Well who decides that?

Who decides whether or not if a person deserves to live or die? He didn’t think he deserved too and yet he was saved.

To live your whole life thinking such a thing…isn’t living at all. Atsushi wouldn’t wish such a thing even on his worst enemy.

“I don’t want to kill anyone else”

He moves without a second thought and the next thing he knows is he’s in the Agencies infirmary.

“Why did you bring her here?”

“I don’t know! Because you told me that we help people. And she…she needed help.”

He can barely understand it himself and yet the look Kunikida gives him is both exasperated and proud.

“So you finally admit it then. Hmm, I’ll speak to the President and we’ll go from there.”

“Admit what?”

“That you’re a member of the Armed Detective Agency. You’ve finally accepted that you’re one of us.”

Oh.

Oh he did, didn’t he?

And it felt right.

And so Atsushi makes himself a promise.

That if the Agency wants him to be kind then he’ll be kind. If the Agency wants him to fight then he’ll give it everything he’s got.

If the Agency wants him to sacrifice his life he’ll do so without question.

Because Atsushi doesn’t know how to live for himself so he’ll live for them.

And if they care for this city and all those within it then he’ll treasure it.

hoping and praying that it’s just my browser

okay since obviously ive gotten to into catifying atsushi i forgot he was a tiger - as u guys pointed out

this is how a beach episode would ACTUALLY play out in my head - kunikida, dazai, and atsushi focus

kunikida: are you not gonna go swimming dazai?

dazai: nope! i think today im just going to relax in the sand! maybe i'll try and drown myself later tho... what about you?

kunikida: im not swimming either

dazai: awww why not

kunikida: for some reason i dont feel safe getting in the ocean w/ u here

dazai, snickering: aww~ how could you say that~ im so hurt

atsushi, in the background, trying to secretly run away:

dazai: aww atsushi-kun why are you sneaking away

atsushi, startled: me? running away? haha... no i wouldn't

kunikida: atsushi, is everything all right? don't tell me you've decided to not participate in a company wide vacation?

atsushi: no! it's not that

dazai: you cant swim? but you fish me out all the time

atsushi: i know how to swim! i just... i don't really like water

dazai: is it becuz you're a cat?

kunikida and atsushi: he's/im a tiger

kunikida: atsushi don't tigers usually like water

atsushi: well... im not really a tiger... it's just my ability

kunikida: is it becuz dazai's here?he is a rather unsafe person to be near when you're also near wtaer

dazai: how cruel~ atsushi-kun i pinky promise i wont drown you~

atsushi:

atsushi, shyly: you really promise?

dazai, who was just joking: ?????????

kunikida, also flabbergasted: ?????????? did you think one of us would-

atsushi: no! i mean obviously not haha... but you promise...?

dazai:

kunikida:

dazai: of course! we promise not to drown you

kunikida: and to get you out of the water if you're in trouble

atsushi: oh... but didn't you not want to swim

kunikida dazai, professional dgaslighters: that never happened

atsushi: ...oh okay... then i think i'll try to swim... you'll be there?

dazai and kunikida: of course

*later*

dazai: atsushi-kun you really...

kunikida: atsushi, please, it's been 7 hours come back out

atsushi, having the time of his life, eyes sparkling, tail wagging: five more minutes!!

kunikida: you said that last time too...

dazai: atsushi-kun sure likes water

kunikida, fixing his glasses: we have to just grab him and run off quickly

dazai: ooh~ kunikida wants to kidnap someone~? how despciable

kunikida: its not kidnapping its for his own good

dazai: if that helps you sleep at night :3

I brainrotted and I got more coming

🩰⃝⃝ Atsushi Nakajima Headcanons

• Constantly bites the skin around his nails.

• Is really jealous of Dazai because he can whistle but Atsushi can't.

• Poor baby (grown ass man) gets taunted everyday. 😔

• Half his wardrobe consists of the other agency members don't wear anymore/don't fit them.

• Sensitive teeth.

• Cannot eat anything super cold without wincing.

• Craves attention but prefers to be alone.

• Drools and chuffs in his sleep.

• Kunikida keeps tissues on his desk to wipe down his face after he takes a nap.

• Can't do anything without explicit permission and clear instructions.

• Constant victim of "your mum" jokes.

• Everyone sits in awkward silence after. 

• Will remind others how good they're being even in the midst of chaos.

• He's like a broken record of admiration for those he looks up to.

• He gets really attached to his possessions because growing up in the orphanage he didn't really have anything that was his and only his.

• Lowkey a hoarder.

• Will never use something because he feels he has to save it for the perfect situation and that if he uses it at the wrong moments he will be wasting it.

• Smells like soap and apple scented shampoo.

• Was gifted shampoo for Christmas a year into working at the agency.

• Up untill that point he had just been using plain bar soap for his entire body.

• Chronically cold feet.

• Kunikida makes him wear fluffy socks and slippers every morning/night.

• Scrunches his nose alot.

• Rambles when scared or anxious.

• His love language is gift giving.

• Stomps his foot when he's mad.

• Really big handwriting if you know what i mean.

• Like everything he writes is biig.

• Can't wink.

• Dazai once winked at him to tease him and he just froze, squeezed his eyes shut and wrinkled his nose.

• This became a recurring way for Dazai to tease him.

He does not get a break.

• Will binge on whatever food is infront of him because he's scared it will disappear and he will miss the opportunity to eat.

Chapter 15

Happy valentine's day!! :9

I like to hc that some kids in the Orphanage, maybe the older ones, were kind to Atsushi.

That they'd take the fall if they could knowing they'd get off way easier than him.

They all hate that they can recognise Atsushi from his screams alone.

They were warned, of course they were from the Headmaster and other staff.

That boy is no good.

But they'd all nod politely and shake their heads once alone.

Because the Headmaster was wrong.

Atsushi was a sweet kid. They'd make room for him to sit down, slipping a piece of bread into his shaking hands.

The staff never bothered to teach him even though they made him sit in all the lessons.

These kids would cobble their notes together and teach him how to read and write.

They were the only people to ever see his smile, to hear him laugh.

Those small moments of light kept Atsushi going.

And the day those kids left, having aged out the system they would gave him their numbers, sneak letters to him which kept him going.

Unfortunately because the Headmaster had adopted Atsushi, they couldn't take him with them which they would all regret.

But they'd never realise just how much they helped Atsushi.

The first thing he did when Dazai gave him his phone was call them.

Atsushi who tears up in suprise snd and overhelming relief and joy when every single one of them remember his name.

Atsushi remembers the abuse of the Orphanage, the cruelty of the Headmaster that's scarred him in ways even Byakko can't heal.

But he also remembers the kids who showed him kindness.

The people who looked at him and saw he was worth saving, worth love and support.

And Atsushi vowed he'd be that person to others, be the light in their darkness.

Because no one deserved to suffer alone.

Dead apple but everyone is still in their pajamas

I think it would be funny if everyone collectively just didnt care to change in to their work clothes for the plot of dead apple cause imagine Chuuya fighting that big ass dragon still in his dog themed pajama pants 🐶