Do You Think Beast Atsushi Has Nightmares Of Akutagawa With His Neck Slashed Open

Can we all just take a minute to think about and recognize Dazai’s reaction if Atsushi is the one transfered to the port mafia?

All I’ve been able to think about recently is how much Dazai would blame himself. He’s failed another one of his mentees. He didn’t really save another orphan for Oda. The only thing he did was prolong the inevitable.

I think in a way, it might also force Dazai to start to re-assign where he places his own allegiance and who he remains loyal to after those he trusts and cares for all move so far away from him.

He’s already failed Akutagawa, something which Dazai undoubtedly has mixed feelings about given how loyal Akutagawa has remained to Dazai through all their years, and now the person he was using as a form of redemption has left him.

I also think it’ll all be worse if Dazai were ever to see Atsushi kill, or if Atsushi’s introductory clothing item was a coat like Akutagawa. In that way, I think it’d be a sort of final bell informing Dazai that he had properly and totally failed. That his redemption was worth nothing because he couldn’t even save one person he cared about from the mafia.

He might even see a bit of himself in Atsushi, depending on how the weretiger’s early months and years in the mafia go.

It’ll all just be so much worse for Dazai because at the end of the day it never really mattered.

Analysis of the day: Day 3

i get why people were criminals back in the day. if i was running from the cops in the thirties and i turned around and saw three horses and a model t id probably slow down to a light jog

I MADE UP MY MIND. ATSUSHI IS GENDERFLUID [projection heavy]

When they start to gain weight, his breasts increase in size too. Their immediate reaction is "Oh!...oh...". At first it's neat but the next second he realizes they'll make him really dysphoric at times. They think "what if I removed them and then regenerated when I felt like it?". And Yosano tells him "Please just bind. Mastectomy every Friday is a little counterproductive".

Also they'd go by all pronouns tbh

atsushi: ryuu :(

akutagawa: what

atsushi: have u seen my shirt? my favorite one? i cant find it - my jackets gone too

akutagawa, wrapped tightly in a blanket: why would i know

atsushi: i mean u borrow them every now and then-

akutagawa: i've done no such thing

atsushi:

akutagawa:

atsushi: ryuu take off the blanket

akutagawa: no

i’m still obsessed with my hc that it’s tiring for atsushi to keep his tiger features hidden so they tend to pop out at home and it’s not uncommon to come home to an atsushi with paws ears a tail and whiskers <3 and sometimes you even open the door to see an entire tiger curled up in your bed

For those of you who may not be too familiar with the manga, during ch39: Portrait of a Father, Akutagawa shows up, as Dazai's informant, to give Atsushi documents about who the orphanage headmaster was and what happened to him.

At that moment, Akutagawa shows an uncharacteristic clemency towards Atsushi, saying that "Atsushi's master died today", and compares this to his own relationship with Dazai.

This was a long time ago now, and a lot has happened since. The Cannibalism arc is right after this, where they are very antagonistic towards each other, and includes this scene:

Akutagawa, despite his bitterness towards Atsushi for who he is to Dazai, has seen how similar they are in this sense. Atsushi hasn't, because his gratefulness towards Dazai prevents him from seeing that Akutagawa's experience was completely different with this same person. (he's also not given any time by the narrative to wonder about it)

but then just came along chapter 122!!!

Atsushi gets to see, 1:1, the relationship between Akutagawa and Dazai. For the first time, Akutagawa is relatable to him.

And of course, at the end, Atsushi calls out the illusion as being the headmaster wearing Dazai's face because we are closing this loop! We are forcing Atsushi to see Akutagawa the same way Akutagawa has been seeing him!

so anyway i found my moms xfiles fanfiction from the 90′s

the idea of atsushi just casually jumping like 7 ft up to get something off a real tall shelf is very good and canon to me. people ask him to get things down for them to watch him do the cat crouch before he springs up.

jpsekai vs ensekai

I wanna beeeeeee famoussssss

Cleo gets two versions bcs I am NOT used to seeing humancleo rather than zombiecleo. I based the confessionals off of random moments from various seasons 😼