Atsushi Making Jokes About Trauma He Forgot To Tell The ADA Is So Real And True To Me

Kunikida, walking into his house: Hello, people who do not live here. Atsushi: Hey. Kyoka: Hi. Dazai: Hello. Kenji: Hey! Kunikida: I gave you the key to my place for emergencies only! Ranpo: We were out of Doritos.

one time atsushi came to the office (mayhaps after not sleeping well/at all for a few days), noticed that everyone was cooing over a cat that looked suspiciously like his tiger form and thought he was being replaced and cried himself to sleep that night

dazai: hey atsushi look at what-

atsushi, already crying: how could u

dazai:

the agency:

(on the other hand if he sees akutagawa with a cat replica of him he coos and teases — a man of duality)

(atsushi when the agency looks at someone/something like him: oh so this is what akutagawa feels like so this is heartbreak and betrayal. love nothing because everything only ends. they have found a better version i am just the prototype everyone will forget

 atsushi when akutagawa breathes in the general direction of something/someone like him: lmao what r u? obsessed with me?? are u in love with me akutagawa is that it?? ha.)

go white boy goooo

Odasaku, Sasaki, and the orphanage headmaster are all buried in the same cemetery.

So Kunikida, Atsushi, and Dazai all run into each other grave visiting regularly and politely pretend they don’t. They never acknowledge the meaning behind the bouquets brought, even if all of them know the others know flower language. They never acknowledge the tear streaks down Atsushi’s face, or the solemn look on Kunikida’s. Atsushi never points out how the scent of whiskey is always a bit stronger on Dazai’s coat. They never acknowledge the location of their accidental meetings.

Sometimes Kunikida might offer to take them to get food, or Atsushi will offer a random hard candy from his pocket, on colder days Dazai might lend his coat. None of them are really themselves when faced with grief, and none of them will to hold it against each other.

PLZ tell me some chuuatsu headcanons I love collecting themmmmmm

Also I totally agree with everything you said on their dynamic-- I've recently been exposed to way too many new ships (chuuatsu, kunichuu, kunichuuzai... etc etc), and I have fallen in love with chuuatsu and kunichuu bro😭 they have my HEART.

That's so real, BSD ships overall slay the majority of the time. Kunichuu is also a good one! Overall, I need Chuuya to be more in BSD; he needs to meet more people, smh.

But going over to the headcanons I have 👀

They technically don’t argue a lot, but they bicker constantly, specifically when Chuuya’s temper flares up and Atsushi doesn’t back down once he’s pushed too far (although it is more of a playful and sassy fight rather than actual arguments between them). They don’t hold grudges specifically because of that, as it is playful or, in the end, leads to breakthroughs in their own relationship.

They're very much "the opposites attract." Atsushi’s quiet and reflective nature overall often calms Chuuya down, while Chuuya’s boldness pushes Atsushi out of his comfort zone. They’re chaotic together, but it does balance out nicely.

Nicknames. Just nicknames. Chuuya has a horrendous habit of giving Atsushi the worst nicknames ever, and Atsushi pretends to hate it (even whining about it), but he does secretly find it endearing.

Sass everywhere. Sometimes it feels like a sass battle between the two, as Chuuya DOES use sarcastic and sassy remarks, which Atsushi isn’t scared to push back against with his own.

Chuuya wants to treat Atsushi to expensive dinners for dates. It never works. Atsushi’s simplistic nature means that while Chuuya plans for expensive dates, Atsushi always manages to get them to eat something cheap but delicious at the end of the day. The older can’t complain, though, as he does, in the end, enjoy it and even finds it endearing. Not that he’s about to admit it to anybody else.

If they live together, or Atsushi stays over for the night, Chuuya is usually a "morning grump," while Atsushi is always functional in the morning (waking up at 5 a.m. is wild, but at the same time, I get you, Atsushi... I used to have to stand up that early too a few years back). Atsushi loves to tease Chuuya about his bed head and his refusal to even speak before he drinks something.

They actually have tea times. Especially since, after some time, Atsushi developed a habit of brewing tea when Chuuya is stressed, so it became somewhat of a bonding ritual for them.

It’s not often they have missions together, but with the whole PM and ADA alliance still intact, it does happen on very rare occasions. After those missions, Chuuya sometimes drapes his jacket over Atsushi’s shoulders without really saying a word, while the other wordlessly sits beside him, offering a hand for him to hold if Chuuya looks upset.

While Atsushi is still too young to drink for now, he does somewhat pick up on Chuuya’s drinking habits. He doesn’t drink actual alcohol, usually settling on something like a soda or sparkling juice, sitting with Chuuya during his wine-drinking nights just so he can keep him company. Chuuya, in fact, appreciates the gesture a lot more than he’s willing to admit.

Atsushi isn’t stupid. He knows full well about Chuuya’s insecurities, which is why he subtly compliments Chuuya during casual conversations when he can tell Chuuya is feeling down on a particular day.

They both adopted a stray cat. It’s not to Chuuya’s ideals, as he did want a dog, but he will settle on a stray cat, which Atsushi just brings one day into the apartment... It then happens a few more times, so now they have 2–3 stray cats. Chuuya acts annoyed about it, but he does end up spoiling them with fancy treats and cozy beds.

So yeah! That’s them haha.

the posts on my dash are talking to each other

something gouged from deep inside, never to be taken back

🤣anyone else hear that ominous bell tolling???🤣🤣🤣no?? just me??????😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

Life series 🔛🔝

Can we all just take a minute to think about and recognize Dazai’s reaction if Atsushi is the one transfered to the port mafia?

All I’ve been able to think about recently is how much Dazai would blame himself. He’s failed another one of his mentees. He didn’t really save another orphan for Oda. The only thing he did was prolong the inevitable.

I think in a way, it might also force Dazai to start to re-assign where he places his own allegiance and who he remains loyal to after those he trusts and cares for all move so far away from him.

He’s already failed Akutagawa, something which Dazai undoubtedly has mixed feelings about given how loyal Akutagawa has remained to Dazai through all their years, and now the person he was using as a form of redemption has left him.

I also think it’ll all be worse if Dazai were ever to see Atsushi kill, or if Atsushi’s introductory clothing item was a coat like Akutagawa. In that way, I think it’d be a sort of final bell informing Dazai that he had properly and totally failed. That his redemption was worth nothing because he couldn’t even save one person he cared about from the mafia.

He might even see a bit of himself in Atsushi, depending on how the weretiger’s early months and years in the mafia go.

It’ll all just be so much worse for Dazai because at the end of the day it never really mattered.

Analysis of the day: Day 3