Concept: Atsushi Having The Most Terrifying Reputation Outside Of The Agency.

If Atsushi gets sent to the Port Mafia after this good luck to them.

Honestly I don’t think anyone is equipped for this except maybe Kouyou because of Chuuya. And Hirotsu because he’s Hirotsu.

Everyone would be expecting the strong sassy weretiger that takes no shit and regularly fights one of their higher ups.

They’re gonna get a broken boy who wants just wants to go home. A shell of who he was because everything died with the Agency.

Mori pauses mid speech because Atsushi’s just looking at him with blank empty eyes that feel all too familiar. But even those eyes were cold, there was life in them.

Dazai walked those halls with purpose and an ill fitting coat. While Atsushi wanders like a lost soul.

Akutagawa stays firmly at his side. He doesn’t fight him even if he does try to stir up their old banter. He didn’t fight Atsushi the day the Headmaster died and he won’t now.

He just hopes Atsushi doesn’t become like the lost boy from the slums.

One of the rare times Atsushi speaks its to ask Akutagawa why wait 6 months? Akutagawa simply shakes his head saying he won’t go back on his word.

Which is true but also because he would gain nothing from fighting a man who wants to die. And maybe he doesn’t want to kill Atsushi after all.

Atsushi who takes whatever he’s given without a word. He hugs his old clothes like a plushi as he sleeps in the back of the linen closest. Because he refuses to use the room they provided him. It’s not his so he won’t act like it.

He fights on autopilot but he’s never put on a major job. Probably because they’re afraid of what he might do.

Q taunts him but Atsushi doesn’t bat an eye because there’s nothing Q can show him that’s worse than what he’s seen. All he can do is taunt Atsushi with things his mind already does.

The only hope Atsushi has that he clings onto is that he can save them.

No one in the Port Mafia will ever forget the day some dared to insult the Agency in Atsushi’s presence. No ons saw him move. No one saw him activate his ability. Everyone heard the scream and the sound of claws digging into flesh.

Even Akutagawa was taken aback. This made the Shibusawa fight look almost peaceful in comparison.

‘Talk about my friends again, and the next time I won’t miss.’ Hisses Atsushi coldly. He throws the person to the ground like rubbish and walks out the door.

His hands are shaking as blood trickles down his claws.

I had a vision

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I can’t think about pre-Agency Atsushi without bawling my eyes out.

In every single flashback we see Atsushi scared, berated and abused.

There was not a point in his life where he has ever felt safe or loved and cared about. No one cared if Atsushi lived or died.

No one has shown him a shred of kindness for 18 years.

Atsushi wasn’t allowed to own anything. Nothing has ever belonged to him and the one thing that did they tried to take from him anyway.

And he’s so small…he’s so small and frail and sure all the other kids do but he’s so much smaller than them.

He’s the runt of the litter. The one who gets starved on a regular basis and everyone may hate each other but they all hate him together.

You just see him and he’s practically shaking with fear. He’s yelled at for simply existing. Beaten and told well it doesn’t matter because you’ve had worse.

And he knows he’s had worse.

And it’s all Atsushi’s ever known and by some fucking miracle he still clings to life with both hands.

He’s the living embodiment of resilience, of grit and determination because he grew up full of light in a place of darkness.

Atsushi was raised in hell and it cultivated a strong will but it doesn’t change that he was raised in hell.

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Fanfic idea  - Jealous drunken Chuuya x Drunken cat Atsushi

Prompt: As described Atsushi and Chuuya get drunk and comedy ensues

Actual idea- 

So I’m imagining thats its sometime in the future during a cherry blossom viewing.

Everyone is getting drunk and having a great time but cue Atsushi and Chuuya getting drunk.

Turns out a drunken Atsushi acts really silly, like everyone keeps referring to him as a cat and asks him to bring out his tail and ears. Ya know silly stuff but at some point drunken Atsushi just starts acting like complete cat and starts cuddling up to people he likes. You know partially cause he’s drunk and he’s just instinctually scent marking people like an actual cat. 

This all comes to a point where he starts cuddling up to Dazai which triggers the next event.

Which is a jealous drunken Chuuya.

You know in my head Chuuya already found Atsushi to be really cute at the beginning of the night before the tiger ears and tail came out. 

Atusshi is just adorable and Chuuya immediately wants to get to know him more but denies himself since he doesn’t want Dazai to be an ass about it.

Well a few hours later drunken Chuuya gets jealous that the cute weretiger is cuddling up to Dazai. 

Cause ya know Dazai is the worst and in Chuuya’s mind doesn’t deserve to have an adorable creature cuddling up to him and being affectionate. 

So in his drunken jealous wisdom Chuuya thinks its a great idea to go over there and just grab Atsushi and say that Dazai doesn’t deserve to have a cute cat before walking back over to the port mafia side while a confused but still drunk Atsushi just kinda shrugs and continues to act like a cat. 

Just ya know:

Angry drunken Chuuya (clutching Atsushi like a child would a plush toy): “O-oi this cat is mine now! F-fuck off  you Shitty Mackrel!”

Atsushi (who is now slightly confused but unbothered just makes chuffing sounds before cuddling into this new persons neck and nuzzling their cheek like an overly affectionate cat.) 

one time i dreamt that teen dazai was living with oda for some reason and oda was like ‘hey u can bring/buy anything’ and he meant like things for his room maybe even a pet if dazai really wanted one but dazai was walking around and found a little white cat but it ran away from him so he kept looking until he met a little orphan who looked like the cat to him so he brought him home and thats how oda met atsushi

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The thing is Fyodor could’ve had Atsushi in his grasp before the series even began.

That’s without question no one else knew who or where Atsushi was until he showed up in Yokohama at 18 years old. While Fyodor has known about Atsushi, his ability and his location at minimum since he was 12. Because that’s when Fyodor sends Shibusawa to him.

And even when Fyodor is actively having Atsushi hunted down for through things like his bounty and the Guild’s incineration plot, it feels more like a test that anything else. It’s like he’s continuing where Shibusawa left off, setting these events and observing how Atsushi will fare through them.

Ironically in a way similar to a cat playing with it’s pray.

Like I don’t think for 5 minutes that Nathaniel Hawthorne showing up on the sky casino was supposed to be a legitimate threat. Especially knowing Lucy was there and allowing himself to get caught without even fighting back.

But I don’t think he was just randomly there, he had a purpose and it was to tie a string of blood to Atsushi. In order to keep a track of him.

A moment that stands out to me is during the Hunting dogs arc when Nikolai’s fighting Atsushi and tells him ‘you’re not one of the murder targets." Because it implies to me that Atsushi’s role is different to everyone else’s. He should be with the Agency, getting framed and then going on the run but he’s not. Atsushi is down underground fighting Nikolai who just leaves him there.

And yeah Kyouka shows up to help him but the people who came to inspect that area weren’t guards or soilders but the forensics team. Meaning that Atsushi wasn’t in any real danger and for a plot like this where the Agency should have nowhere safe left to go to that is rather odd.

The only exception to this I feel is the stuff with Fukuchi because he did originally plan to kill Atsushi. The only reason he didn’t was because Akutugawa showed up but even then he tried to have him kill Atsushi. Only reason Fukuchi didn’t go after Atsushi after was because it would’ve complicated the timeline.

Feels like an outlier because all Fyodor’s plans have involved trying to capture Atsushi. Even the Guild incineration plot had them keep him safe as a prisoner. And well, Fyodor kinda needs Atsushi alive for his plans.

Hell Fyodor was in the alleyway Atsushi was walking into in the Cannablism arc. You see him turn around at hearing Atsushi’s voice and he leaves to let Atsushi discover Dazai’s body. He just leaves him alone and carries on with his plan.

All of this just reads as "I need you but not yet." There’s a plan for Atsushi alright, there’s been one going for a long time but it hasn’t come to fruition yet. Much like how the book has specific parameters of when it can be used and its conditions, Fyodor is waiting until everything is put in place to enact his grand plan.

One in which Atsushi will be the centrepiece.

Mood: atsushi reaching for akutagawa as one of them dies