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I miss me

It’s been a long job.

I’m getting calls because my friends and family have forgotten that a few weeks ago I told them how busy and broke I’d be.

And even though they understood my missing presence, I must be leaving a larger hole than expected.

While I’ve been off learning,

I’ve also been missing me.

My routines have been broken and forgotten

My learned habits have become memories

And my forgotten habits feel like new toys in a goodwill window

Reminding me how nice they were and yet I have to remind myself why I gave them up in the first place.

The job is almost over and I’ll be emerging a new person.

Worn and in need of rest

In need of an uplift

A cry

And then another blast of energy to keep me going.

I miss me

But I’m never the same

Day after day

I keep growing

And I need to learn how to take care of me

Day after day

Learn my needs for each day and work with them

Care for them

I need to learn to hear myself more then anyone else

A Ramble

jay z and Beyoncé confession tapes .. how they went

Should we change the world

Or

Should we separate and be happy

Should we talk about how jay z manipulated the fuck out of Beyoncé’s career

And how Beyoncé had to suffer because he was right

he treated her like shit but so did her parents and everyone who manipulated her molded her To be Beyoncé

And now Beyoncé is fucking Beyoncé

She has to be Beyoncé

For everyone else

Jay z can’t kill his ego

His ego helped him get what he wanted

He can admit his wrongs

He can grow

But he can’t not be jay z

Jay z is leaving a legacy

The carters are putting roots in America

They are helping to build black America

They know what effect they have

They know what good they can do

They can be people

But these people

Are Beyoncé and Jay Z

And Beyoncé and Jay Z

are people who can change the world

People who can leave ripples

People who’s ripples are starting to make waves

Beyoncé and Jay Z

Have to be Beyoncé and Jay Z

I think they are fulfilling their purpose in life by starting the new mold for black America

They are the beginning of the era

Look at the waves they already made

Lemonade and 4:44

All about acknowledging the pain and expressing that we’re people

It hurts

We hurt

We have feelings

Those feelings are valid

But then we have a choice

What do we do with those feelings ?

Do we get revenge

Do we seek help

Do we suppress and forget

Or do we accept

Do we forgive

Do we choose to try again

What can we do differently with our situation

Well we can use ourselves

Said Beyoncé and Jay Z

And be the people we needed to see

We should break the cycle

We should be real

We should set an example

We should be a strong black family

They said

We should be better

The obamas took office

And the carters prepared to take over

The elections are over

The first family of black America

The Carters

They started a wave.

Beyoncé made being a black women

Iconic

She had people shook when she reminded them she was black

Jay z is out here trying to remold the black man

He told us it was cool to be a real man

A dad

A role model for your family

Your community

Be the strong manly figure your dad tried to make you

Men are also victims of the patriarchy

And Jay z is trying to change that

He has Chris rock

Anthony

Will Smith

All out here trying to own up

To acknowledge their wrongs

And talk about the future

How to have black economies

How to have black joy

How to have a black family

How to love

How to love yourself

Love your blackness

Love love love love love love love love love love love

Black America

It’s coming

It’s basically here

Just follow the leader

Follow our leaders

They were people too

They are people too

We can be a happy thriving community

In the country we were produced in

If we’re here

Let’s take root

Let’s be here

Love. Accept. Repeat.

Briana Gause

A family

Asthetic

Ft.

A photobomb

“Never apologize for burning too brightly or collapsing into yourself every night. That is how galaxies are made.”

—

The Energry Shift from top of the day To the bottom

The art of life

My purpose is bigger then my feelings

My art will live longer then me

What I create is important

What I do is important

My existence

My experience

All reflect themselves

In my art

In my words

In my smile

In my walk

My presence

My life reflects through me

Through my pores

Through my finger tips

It has lasting implications

Whatever I leave here

Someone else may one day find

If it’s my kids

My friends

Or a stranger

My something

Will hold value

In another’s hands

Eyes

Ears

Heart

And mind

My life matters

Because it effects others

Your life matters

because it effects others

Life is valuable

Life is not lived alone

You are never truly alone

You are constantly surrounded by the presence of other

In the clothes you wear

To the streets you walk across

You move

You breathe

The same matter

That someone else once did

You stand because someone made it so

You have a path to travel because it was paved for you

The footsteps you leave will guide the next person

The steps you leave will let someone know you were there

We matter

Our futures matter

We are futures

Just as we will be past

My Summer in the Library 📚