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Views from the inflatable pool José on vocals Sara on guitar It’s the night of the fourth During the 6th month of the year We got off work Dripping and pouring w/ sweat And ended up in this lovely home Exactly where we should’ve been What a lovely mid summer moment

I’m starting to find myself thinking about what I’m suppose to do versus what I want to do.

If the spirit says move then I move

And sometimes I stop and think ... wait

Why did I do that let me go back

But now I’m coming to a point where I don’t question it

I just go

I may think upon what just happened

But no longer am I trying to make myself comfortable

Change is uncomfortable

Change is different

But if you wanted to be comfortable you didn’t want to change

If you wanted to different then you don’t want to be comfortable

Comfort will come in the end

As your reward for the success for all your hard work

But the end is not now

The end is near

So we gotta get all the work in that was assigned before dad comes home

I was suppose to take the chicken out the freezer 2 hours ago and now he’s down the street

Don’t wait.

Do what’s asked when it’s asked

Your only wasting time

Be obedient

And see the fruits you bare

Mr.Nobody

Today I watched a movie about a 9 year old who didn’t like to make decision unless he knew how it would change his life.

In this film I thought about myself

Naturally

And the unnatural parts about me

Like

And this is no joke

Sometimes I think I see the future

I use to say I could either see myself dying really young or really old and there was never any in between

I’ve seen my life with a boy

I’ve seen our family

I’ve seen the Christmas card

I’ve seen us taking over the world

I’ve seen myself with another boy

And us rocking in chairs together

Us laying in bed as the kids ran up and down the halls

I’ve seen us holding hands over breakfast

And bickering before bed

I’ve seen a life where I’m with a women

And she makes me the happiest I’ve ever been in my entire life

Never is there a moment that we don’t see the brighter side of things

We live in California I think

Because every time I think of us it’s always so sunny

Sometimes I see myself alone

I have a cat

And I mostly wear simple blacks and Denim

I work hard

My home has few plants

I get so much accomplished and I am really successful

But I’m alone

I’ve seen a life where I die at 27

With a white lighter in my hand

I lived an artsy life

I had enough stories for everyone to talk about st the funeral

But I was never truly myself

I was drowning in my obsession of chasing happiness

And one day I don’t make it

I’ve seen myself jump from many ledges

Crash the same car over and over

Crash someone else car

I’ve seen myself as an old lady who lives at the end of the culd es sac

I bake pies

And give piano lessons

I wave at the kids who board the bus for school

It’s actually just the house at the end of my block now

I’ve seen myself many different ways but which one is right

I don’t think I’ve decided yet

Sometimes I’ve seen myself on a path

And I know I could choose it

It’s clear as day what that life would be

But something says no

Something says this isn’t meant for me

And I listen

And I turn away

I may be left in known

But it’s my life to discover

I’ll figure it out

And each choice I make is always the right one

Even the choices I didn’t make

They were right too

Just for a different me

Or a me that doesn’t know it’s me

And sometimes

Things I didn’t choose now just weren’t meant for this moment

We can’t go back

Nothing with ever be the same

And time will always move forward regardless if we’re pushing it or standing still and it’s passing by

But whatever is meant to be will be

If I said no today maybe tomorrow it’ll be

If I said goodbye last week maybe in the next twenty years I’ll be ready for our next hello

Maybe I made a decision that made it easier for someone else to make another decision

Maybe I oberlooked something for someone else to find

Maybe I’m not the me I want to be

Maybe the me I didn’t choose is still waiting for me to discover her

Or them

Or him

But the me I am is the me I was meant to be

The me I will be was always meant for me

I’ll get there

Because I am me

I am me

I am

I

Do you feel me?

Do you see me?

I know you see me

But can you feel me?

What do you see?

What do you feel?

Does it match what I see?

What I feel?

Can you see what I feel?

Do I exude?

Do I absorb?

Do I reflect?

what if ..

Can you feel me?

Build relationships not memories of artificial presences

Relationship goals are images and ideas

Relationship goals are false things we share to create a fantasy

Relationships aren’t goals

A face is not a goal

An outfit is not the goal

A post is not a goal

The appearance is not the goal

Relationships are built when you know someone

Growth comes from the giving and taking shared being

Grow with someone

Know yourself

Get to mold yourself

Don’t be so quick to think of what you can do for one another

Allow yourselves to be and share experiences and allow each other’s presence in the experience to shape what you become

What you do next

Who you are next

Just be

Be

Allow yourself to be

And watch yourself become

…yeah you cute but are you good for my mental health

Accept.

Love. Accept. Repeat.

“Souls are funny things. They stay constant even when the outside changes, or when the heart makes mistakes. Souls don’t really care about good or bad, right or wrong — they’re just true.”

— Miranda July

Galaxies sparkle

They dance and shimmer

Slide and skate

Stars beam across worlds

Sharing their light

Their energy

Moving constantly

Somersaulting through voids of space

Like a child

Like a breeze

Like water

But it’s light

Energy

Felt but not seen

Corrupting darkness

Emulating

Illuminating

Exuding

Preciousness

The fragility and strength of that energy

Can build and destroy

Light that gives warmth to dust

Dust under pressure form rocks

Through manipulation

Intricate timing

And chance

Galaxies bear the the constant pleasure and pain of life.

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