Nova-rose-greene - Nova Rose

It’s crazy

All this awareness is incredible

And I love that education is being pushed

But it’s also triggering

For some reason I feel like I want to share this information

But I don’t want to be an advocate because it feels like I’m advocating myself as a victim

as a person who has a storie

As a survivor

The awareness of sexual assault is triggering

I want to help someone

And yet I don’t want to advertise that I can help because I’ve had my own experiences too

I don’t want you to wonder about me

I don’t want you to ask me questions

I’ve been trying to figure out how to heal on my own

Sometimes if I need to I talk about it

Sometimes if I’m the confidant , then I’ll share my experience for the both of us to find peace

But idky posting a flyer is nerve racking

Idky having my art be apart of an awareness exhibition is odd

My art came from a place of pain

My art is therapeutic

And I took a chance to submit my piece and now that I’ve been selected

I feel weird

I was assaulted numerous times by numerous people and I still don’t know how to talk about it

I’ve recently discovered that sometimes the art I make resembles artwork of other survivors

Why does pain look the same

How can I not explain my feelings but my art can

And why does displaying my art feel like I’m displaying my trauma and asking people to be proud of me ? Or to analyze ? And ask questions??

Idky this gives me so much panic

It feels paradoxical

I feel trapped all over again

I want to help

I don’t want this to happen to anyone else

Ever

But I also don’t want to talk about it publicly

Idk how

“Go Away”

There they go again 🖤✌🏾

The plight of a paradoxical artist— wanting your work to “speak for itself” but never wanting to be misunderstood.

Image

Image

What you see

What others see

What you present

A representation

A symbol of the real thing

A 2-D idea of a 4D concept

A representation

an idea

something we put on

something others put on us

a representation of what we think we are

what we want people to see

 what people see

what is seen

something that can be manipulated

something that can be misinterpreted

a face

something to be interpreted

something that may or may not need an explanation

a glimpse

a peek 

of something

of nothing

a small dimension

a visual

something to be projected

something to project

a starting point

a midpoint

an endpoint

a snapshot

a thought

?

Why do we care about our images

why do other people care about the images they surround themselves with

how do we let images effect us

what do images invoke

what images do we evoke

how does my existence coincide with my image

what does my image say

what do I want my image to say

how does it make you feel

how does it make me feel

does it matter

why do we think it matters

why do we make people think it matters

what matters

the balance or the imbalance 

the presentation or the thing

why does the idea matter more than the truth

does it

to whom does it speak to

to whom does it matter

me or you

why

?

image

likeness

resemblance

depiction

a representation of an external form of a person or thing in art

A Ramble

jay z and Beyoncé confession tapes .. how they went

Should we change the world

Or

Should we separate and be happy

Should we talk about how jay z manipulated the fuck out of Beyoncé’s career

And how Beyoncé had to suffer because he was right

he treated her like shit but so did her parents and everyone who manipulated her molded her To be Beyoncé

And now Beyoncé is fucking Beyoncé

She has to be Beyoncé

For everyone else

Jay z can’t kill his ego

His ego helped him get what he wanted

He can admit his wrongs

He can grow

But he can’t not be jay z

Jay z is leaving a legacy

The carters are putting roots in America

They are helping to build black America

They know what effect they have

They know what good they can do

They can be people

But these people

Are Beyoncé and Jay Z

And Beyoncé and Jay Z

are people who can change the world

People who can leave ripples

People who’s ripples are starting to make waves

Beyoncé and Jay Z

Have to be Beyoncé and Jay Z

I think they are fulfilling their purpose in life by starting the new mold for black America

They are the beginning of the era

Look at the waves they already made

Lemonade and 4:44

All about acknowledging the pain and expressing that we’re people

It hurts

We hurt

We have feelings

Those feelings are valid

But then we have a choice

What do we do with those feelings ?

Do we get revenge

Do we seek help

Do we suppress and forget

Or do we accept

Do we forgive

Do we choose to try again

What can we do differently with our situation

Well we can use ourselves

Said Beyoncé and Jay Z

And be the people we needed to see

We should break the cycle

We should be real

We should set an example

We should be a strong black family

They said

We should be better

The obamas took office

And the carters prepared to take over

The elections are over

The first family of black America

The Carters

They started a wave.

Beyoncé made being a black women

Iconic

She had people shook when she reminded them she was black

Jay z is out here trying to remold the black man

He told us it was cool to be a real man

A dad

A role model for your family

Your community

Be the strong manly figure your dad tried to make you

Men are also victims of the patriarchy

And Jay z is trying to change that

He has Chris rock

Anthony

Will Smith

All out here trying to own up

To acknowledge their wrongs

And talk about the future

How to have black economies

How to have black joy

How to have a black family

How to love

How to love yourself

Love your blackness

Love love love love love love love love love love love

Black America

It’s coming

It’s basically here

Just follow the leader

Follow our leaders

They were people too

They are people too

We can be a happy thriving community

In the country we were produced in

If we’re here

Let’s take root

Let’s be here