It’s Crazy
It’s crazy
All this awareness is incredible
And I love that education is being pushed
But it’s also triggering
For some reason I feel like I want to share this information
But I don’t want to be an advocate because it feels like I’m advocating myself as a victim
as a person who has a storie
As a survivor
The awareness of sexual assault is triggering
I want to help someone
And yet I don’t want to advertise that I can help because I’ve had my own experiences too
I don’t want you to wonder about me
I don’t want you to ask me questions
I’ve been trying to figure out how to heal on my own
Sometimes if I need to I talk about it
Sometimes if I’m the confidant , then I’ll share my experience for the both of us to find peace
But idky posting a flyer is nerve racking
Idky having my art be apart of an awareness exhibition is odd
My art came from a place of pain
My art is therapeutic
And I took a chance to submit my piece and now that I’ve been selected
I feel weird
I was assaulted numerous times by numerous people and I still don’t know how to talk about it
I’ve recently discovered that sometimes the art I make resembles artwork of other survivors
Why does pain look the same
How can I not explain my feelings but my art can
And why does displaying my art feel like I’m displaying my trauma and asking people to be proud of me ? Or to analyze ? And ask questions??
Idky this gives me so much panic
It feels paradoxical
I feel trapped all over again
I want to help
I don’t want this to happen to anyone else
Ever
But I also don’t want to talk about it publicly
Idk how
“Go Away”
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When did my face look like this
How did I get to my 20s
When did I grow up
How much more growing do I have left?
When will I notice next
What I will notice next
I’m not okay
I quit my job because a brand new employee made a racist comment and I was sexually harassed as in the same day.
I quit because I was made uncomfortable. Because I do not want to live in fear. I want to be safe.
I made an announcement about it because I wanted other people to know that this was happening and this was not okay.
Everyone told me how proud they were and what steps I should take next to deal with it .
But no one asked if I was okay.
And actually I think one or two people did and my response was yes!
Because I handled it and everyone was proud of me.
But no I am not okay.
I didn’t need to be reminded of every other assault or harassment I was subjected to.
I didn’t need my ptsd to kick in
I didn’t need to be reminded that not everyone sees me as a human and I should be aware of my facticity.
Yea I did the right thing but it shouldn’t have happened in the first place.
And it still happened.
Treat everyone you meet as if they are god in drag
Ram Dass
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“The most precious gift we can offer anyone is our attention. When mindfulness embraces those we love, they will bloom like flowers.” - Thich Nhat Hanh
Talks at Google: Alice Walker
I’m gonna sub coffee for water and throw In a song and dance.
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I was not having the best day
So I called my mom on Facebook messenger
Because I knew I wanted to see her
And she talked me up with filters
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The Truth Will set you Free
If the truth is God
and God is the word
Then the word is truth
And truth will set you free
Then you must know the word to know the truth
You must know the word to know God
And you must know God to know the truth
And if God is Love
And Love is God
And God is truth
Then Love is truth
And Love will Set you free
To Know God is to know Love
And to know Love is to know the truth
That the truth is Love is God
And God, as Love, will Free you, with Love.
