You Monster.

random things abt me

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~i get headaches when it storms

~i like to sew

~i’m a pisces

~i love the rain

~i love the woods

~once i love something i never stop, even if i grow out of it

~i forgive people too easy

~i used to hate sushi but now i love it

~i have a journal, i write in it less often then i should, but i do write in it

~creative writing is my favorite class right now

~i suck at math until i understand it, then i’m amazing at it

~i hate seaworld

~i’m in a band called attenuate

~every couple months i feel like a complete different person, when i look back at memories it doesn’t feel like me

~it’s hard for me to tell dreams from reality

~i lucid dream a lot!! (it’s fun)

~i procrastinate wayyyy too much

~i love the sims and have a few too many mods

~my biggest fear is getting old

~i get attached too easy

~i love creepypasta !!!!

~i want to be in love

~if i didn’t wear all black i think i’d wear all white, or maybe all pink!!!! but i like black :3

~i was recently at a really low point in my life, but life is starting to get better !!!

i’ll do a part 2 sometime :>

Here are some small actions you can take to protect the environment that aren't just "recycle more and drive less!"

The big environmental actions aren't always accessible for a lot of reasons, so here are some other ideas!

1. Pick up trash you see in ditches to prevent it from being washed into water sources!

2. Cut the straps of disposable masks you throw away so they don't get caught around animals necks!

3. Keep track of your pencils/chapstick/pens and use the same one for as long as you can!

4. Don't buy NFTs! Non-fungable tokens, or NFTs, are huge electricity wasters.

5. After Halloween, take your pumpkins to local forests/wildlife shelters and leave them for the deer to eat instead of throwing them out!

6. Collect rainwater! You don't need a huge rainbarrell or anything to do this! I use cups and after a few rainfalls I have enough water for my houseplants for the year!

7. Bring a reusable cup with you to coffee shops when possible! (Covid restrictions can make this tricky so be sure to check with the shop!)

8. When you go to beaches leave seashells where you find them, especially in areas where the tide will come in. Animals use those for protection from predators! Take all the seaglass you want though :)

9. If you have enough space for a clothesline, dry your clothes in the sun when possible!

10. Donate or sell old clothes you don't wear anymore, or share them with your friends and family!

11. Instead of throwing away old clothes, mend them or use them for scrap material! Here are a few tutorials for how to fix clothing!

12. Plant flowers that attract bees and butterflies!

13. Shop small and secondhand when possible! Most small busineses are better with managing waste than larger corporations.

14. Repurpose! There are tons of ways you can repurpose stuff you'd otherwise throw out! Google "recycled crafts" for some cool examples! I personally do a lot of scrap booking which saves some smaller items, and I reuse containers to keep stuff organized! One of my favourite examples is how you can use boiling water to soften the very bottom of a candle, melt it, and make a new candle!

15. Carpool! You and a friend have the same classes? Go to school together! Your friend needs something from a store close to your destination? Drop them off on the way! You'll end up saving on gas money and collectively using less fuel!

Reason to Live #7255

 Listening to Type O Negative, especially ’October Rust’ album. It’s been 25 years since its release. 🍁🖤💚 – Guest Submission

(Please don’t add negative comments to these posts.)

whoever said your 20's is for re-discovering your middle school obsessions was so right. All my songwriting now uses crypids and folklore as metaphors. 12 year old me would be so proud.

Oh to be a jellyfish. Eternal. Head empty. Only float.

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I'm in love with a person who doesn't exist

short story by navalon.

I am in love with a person who doesn’t exist. 

I fall for you over and over in everyone I meet. A constant search for you. If they hurt me it’s okay, it’s for you. 

I’m never alone. You are the smell of my bedsheets. You’re the low rumble of the air conditioner that sings me to sleep. You color the world blue after sunset and wrap me in the fog as an embrace. You’re the blanket I kicked off in my sleep, and the goosebumps on my skin without it.

I’ll fall for you in a person again soon.

I’ll break my own heart again soon.

I’ll never escape you. You’re everywhere, whispering in my ear to fall in love again. To have a medium, a person, a vessel, to give all of this to. I bleed you and breathe you. It’s for you. There is so much love in me I have to give it away,

or else i don’t exist.

Without you the cold floor is just wood and everything I’ve gone through was for nothing. Who am I without the reassurance you’re proud? Who am I if not enough? 

who are you?

You are someone new every few months, but always the same. You’re among the dust on my dresser, giving me an excuse not to touch it. Whoever I’m in love with will always stay the sidewalk covered in slush the day after a storm. I’ll tell my friends not to splash me on the way to school, and they’ll cover me in you with a smile.

i am not waterproof.

No matter how hard I scrub there is no use. I’ve absorbed you. You’ve absorbed me. Consume me already. Eat me whole! All I’ve ever done was for you. Am I good? Am I worth your time? Don’t leave me. Do not leave me? 

I’ll write your name until my fingers bruise and I’ll scream it ‘till my voice gives out. Then I’ll whisper bird noises to the ones who understand. I’d do anything, for I am you. You’ll visit me in dreams and the dorm dryers. Tell me not to give up. Face me.

tell me to give up.

tell me it will all be over soon.

tell me this cycle ends.

I feel you when I dig my nails into the palm of my hand. The marks spell your name. The scars spell mine. Touch me again, this time not through the stove top. Let me feel you without a knife, let me see you with sober eyes.

let us kiss without bruises.

hug me with no bullets.

Exist.

I need you to exist.