Do You Like Boxes? (I've Been Watching Big Cat Videos And A Lot Of Them Like Boxes. Big Cats Really Are

when people draw atsushi with a phone they always give him an iphone or just a phone with a touchscreen and it hurts my heart so much. we have to stop ignoring his little flip phone. he doesn't need social media either we have to keep him as chronically offline as possible. atsushi doesn't know what discourse is. if you showed him a meme he'd stare at it for a bit and go "i don't get it" while handing the phone back to you. when he sat in front of an agency laptop for the first time he holds his head in his hands because he doesn't know what the hell to do

End Of The Famine

Dazai & Atsushi mutual hurt/comfort fic just… just because. Now back to working on commissions…

Rating: T Words: 5,100 Warnings: pretty extensive discussion of abuse.

End Of The Famine

The concept of sleeping through the night is as foreign to Atsushi as that of countries he’s never visited. The nightmares only came after he left the orphanage, but even then, he slept bit by bit, waking up at every footstep he heard, every rattling of a chain. Atsushi has never fallen asleep at sunset and woken up at sunrise. Fear used to keep awake; the absence of it now knots so tightly in his stomach that the difference is infinitesimal.

Atsushi learned as a child to wake up silently. He does so now, choked out of air, his fist already pressed against his mouth so that no sound will escape. He glances to his side, where Kyouka sleeps like the dead, and turns his back on her. Only then does he breathe.

Only then does he cry.

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Atsushi?

Headcanon A:  realistic

He keeps a notebook about all his new experiences living in Yokohama, but rather than focusing on the fighting and bad things, it’s mostly filled with recipes for different foods and drawings of random things he’s seen.

Headcanon B: while it may not be realistic it is hilarious

Since tigers can’t purr, when Atsushi is in his tiger form, he chuffs, and he makes this noise a lot in his sleep in his human form as well when he’s having a good dream.

Headcanon C: heart-crushing and awful, but fun to inflict on friends

Despite all his efforts, he will probably always have days where he feels like he’s useless, and days where he can’t stop thinking negatively.

Headcanon D: unrealistic, but I will disregard canon about it because I reject canon reality and substitute my own.

As a small child, Atsushi only turned into a tiger cub when he transformed.

YESSSS to the"feel strongly, that's what you do when you want to experience the past". atsushi's hallucinations mentioned by fake dazai YAY next month has to be about atsushi's ptsd PLSSS (also, AWWW atsushi's expressions when he's overwhelmed😭 i want to hug him)

finally got my act together and contributed to the atsushi big cat instincts agenda. more to come after finals!!!

almost the 27th. almost time for red in tooth & claw to update. the hype is real.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE BOYS EVER 💕

Did some whiteboard doodles wIth the gang