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•★ I feel like the worst girlfriend on earth. Why do I always have to do everything wrong? Can't I just be a good girlfriend? Also I feel very disgusting today. I hate myself for eating so much... I don't know what to do. Maybe another fast will make me feel better or sth ★•

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•★ I want to listen to someone new. I'm looking for something similar to Mitski/ Alex g/ Lana Del Rey. I need music that will be melancholic in a good way, something that I can get attached to/ relate to. Any suggestions? ★•

•★ My mom gave me some of her old jelewery. It's silver, but I mostly wear gold. Do you think I should put it on tomorrow?? ★•

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•★ b0dy check the day after I binged ★•

•★ I went shopping with my mom today and it was very stressful for me. She doesn't know about my $h scars and I was trying on short sleeves today. The scars on my arm were shown. I was praying for her not to notice and she fortunately didn't but I was extremely stressed. Thank god everything was fine ★•

•★ So I tried to throw up today again but after 20 minutes I only got rid of like 1/5 of that I ate. My family will make sure I eat during weekend but I thought that maybe I could throw up after every meal. Unfortunately it's not so easy... ★•

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•★ First 24 hours. I'm going for more ★•