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i accidently deleted my long ask... [dead.]

i'll try again. short version: does cross deal with gender-related dysphoria? considering he grew up being forced into a certain role, which is atypical for monsters, and the fact that it was once mentioned (as an offhand comment meant as an example) in a post about monster gender expression that cross may have to lean harder into masculine representation if he wants to be gendered correctly at first sight... well, i imagine it means a lot to him to have something that was denied to him for so long, and i figure those two are correlated.

i also get the feeling he's an overall rigid guy, reflected in the way his ocd manifests, so i imagine that might very well be part a of it, as well. does he not allow himself certain things out of fear he'll be misgendered? is he overall comfortable with himself? does he ever feel like he has to overcompensate?

i tip my hat. have a nice day!

short answer: YES, jesus christ, cross has a LOT of dysphoria xD

(unrelated but i am SO flattered that you remembered that detail!)

you're right on the money though, yeah. one of cross' biggest obsessions is his self-image, and a lot of that stems from dysphoria because his dad (the source of most of this) was very much the "woman belong in the kitchen supporting real men (me)" type. the funny thing is that cross' overcompensation might not always register to us because it's all based on his understandings of human culture, which in turn comes from his father's understandings of it — it's very much a game of chinese telephone, where things have been translated nearly into meaninglessness based only on second-hand observation. that is to say: most humans would only see a monster mimicking "human culture" with info clearly from movies and books, and since monsters are naturally extremely social, that isn't really seen as weird.

the most immediate (and comical) example that comes to mind: when it comes to alcohol, cross will ONLY drink beer.

does he LIKE beer? no; he thinks it tastes like rotten bread. he only drinks it because humans (specifically the kind of english-speaking cultures his father took inspiration from) say it's masculine, and he doesn't want cute guys and gals at the bar to see him drinking some fruity cocktail and come talking to him like he's a woman. he also doesn't tell anyone he bakes, to such an extent that it takes multiple years of knowing him (or a really, really bad sleep schedule) to finally catch him doing it. he used to wear a headscarf as a kid (because his dad insisted and he was too young to realize why), and he actually DID like how that looked on him, but the second he realized it made people see him Wrong he burned it and never touched another one.

(the second, admittedly sadder example: cross is bisexual, but he never dates anyone, and only ever flirts with women. he's heard and seen that humans see gay men as lesser feminine, and he's not secure enough in his own self image to risk it. god FUCKING forbid anyone finds out he wants to bottom; he would literally rather die.)

this is actually one of the many reasons that tension develops between him and abaddon; abaddon threatens everything he knows in (many) more ways than one, but the fact that they're an extremely secure trans guy on top of that is just spit on his fucking ice cream.

was watching steven universe episodes with my brother and sometimes in scenes between steven and pearl the show really captures the feeling of being 10 and realizing your mom is insane

I’ve discovered my new favorite gimmick account on twitter lmao

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hello, there. welcome. show some ID, please.

you can call me 80 or 8.

- my name is not "eighty."

- if you must use pronouns for me, use it/its or they/them.

this account will contain mature content. everything should be properly tagged. if something's missing, let me know. proceed on my land at your own discretion.

this is mainly a UTMV (Undertale Multiverse) blog ✧･*+. the purpose is to share art, ideas, and to interact with people who share the same interests as me. but, overall, i do what i want here.

here's a few frequent tags i use:

#art : any art i didn't make

#utmv : anything regarding undertale AUs, aka the multiverse

#80s reblogs : stuff i've reblogged

#80s art : any art i've made

#others' utmv cooking : other people's (undertale) multiverses. usually world-building, concepts, relationships...

#80s utmv cooking : my own (ut) multiverse and various ideas

#80+x operations : conversations i've had with people over posts or asks

IT STILL HIS BDAY BECAUSE I SAID SO

*i say as they drag me into an asylum

Art collab ft CripoJC (twitter

okay cool. now draw them kissing

i hope i understood correctly who to draw kissing

i really like what you're doing with your own characters and general utmv interpertations. you seem to be having a lot of fun; it's inspiring. also, i love your designs for the kids + how you draw skeletons, it's awesome :x) my favorite is goth. (i'm a tall goth believer)

I thought it would be funny to force Tourist to be a babysitter as punishment for his ✨prank crimes against the multiverse✨, so I found the offspring wiki (yes, that is a thing) and decided which children he’s stuck with. I did take some liberties with some designs, like combining Palette’s first and updated design (just because I felt like it) and giving Goth Doc Martens. And made PJ a leash kid.

For personal amusement, Tourist refuses to use their names so:

Palette is Captain Hat

Goth is Emo

Crescent is Croissant

Paperjam is Pajamas (original,he knows)

And Blueprint is Bluey because you’ll never guess how much Bluey he’s watched.

Only Palette actually likes his nickname, but that’s because his is actually cool.

ranking the best things I have heard surgeons say mid-surgery:

1. "Five second rule!" while scrubbed, after dropping a sterile scalpel on the floor (no they did NOT pick it up again but I swear everyone's buttholes puckered)

2. (spoken during the closing of a particularly long and difficult case) "Nurse - my tunes." :heavy metal starts blasting:

3. Gently to a fretful patient, pre-anaesthesia: "It's going to be okay. I promise, I've dealt with worse." As soon as the patient is unconscious: "This is literally the worst thing I've ever seen."

4. [okay this one was a med student] "Wowwww, that's so gross!!" Reg: "Please remember that [patient] is awake for this procedure." Student to patient: "Oh my god. I am so sorry, that was really unprofessional - " Patient, cheerfully, also engrossed with what's happening inside them on the screen: "Nah - it's, like, super gross, right?"

5. [another procedure where the patient couldn't be put under GA] Patient: *starts singing country roads midway through the procedure* Surgeon: *shrugs and joins in with surprisingly good harmony*

i just wanted to quickly say — things are still pretty tight right now with my bf's little brother staying with him, so while i wouldn't necessarily say i'm in an emergency, if you can afford to toss a couple of dollars my way for groceries/toiletries it would be a huge help qwq

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