I Just Wanted To Quickly Say — Things Are Still Pretty Tight Right Now With My Bf's Little Brother

ITS PRIDE MONTH GUYS!!! :DDD

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Happy pride gays- I mean guys ^^

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ranking the best things I have heard surgeons say mid-surgery:

1. "Five second rule!" while scrubbed, after dropping a sterile scalpel on the floor (no they did NOT pick it up again but I swear everyone's buttholes puckered)

2. (spoken during the closing of a particularly long and difficult case) "Nurse - my tunes." :heavy metal starts blasting:

3. Gently to a fretful patient, pre-anaesthesia: "It's going to be okay. I promise, I've dealt with worse." As soon as the patient is unconscious: "This is literally the worst thing I've ever seen."

4. [okay this one was a med student] "Wowwww, that's so gross!!" Reg: "Please remember that [patient] is awake for this procedure." Student to patient: "Oh my god. I am so sorry, that was really unprofessional - " Patient, cheerfully, also engrossed with what's happening inside them on the screen: "Nah - it's, like, super gross, right?"

5. [another procedure where the patient couldn't be put under GA] Patient: *starts singing country roads midway through the procedure* Surgeon: *shrugs and joins in with surprisingly good harmony*

i've followed back :x) this is also motivating me, lol. a lot. really. in fact, i'm ripping my shirt off and yelling at the top of my lungs as i power up.

i'm very busy as of now, so there may not be anything for a while... but, if you ever wanna chat, feel free to message me. pleasure to make your mutual! also, honored to be the first ask.

hello. i saw your tags which byrdblood reblogged. this feels so silly, oh my god.

i hope this isn't too forward, i just wanted to say that i'm working on my own multiverse interpertation and noticed we had a similar ideas with the research logs. they do say great minds think alike. i think our approaches are a little different (i can't tell since i have nothing to compare to yet, but i'm focused on specific things), but what you said sounds really cool. that's actually the point of this ask. all i wanted to say is, i would also be interested in seeing you realise your ideas, whenever that would happen. research logs are delicious.

that's all. have a nice day. :x)

AHHH THANK YOU SO MUCH! This is really motivating to hear and I'm glad you think it's cool :')

It's also neat to hear that I'm not the only one going down the research logs route! just followed you and i can't wait to see what you've got in store! i'd love to hear more, but if you want to keep some stuff secret, that's ok too. i love a good mystery :)

Sorry if this is an annoying question, but I think I remember you saying that abbadon was a trans-man? (Or trans-masc?) If so, does this ever come up, or is it just a fun fact for the audience to know?

abaddon is a trans man, yes! i believe that miiiiiiight be in his carrd bio, but i don't wanna go look at said bio until i have the energy to do whatever revamping i deem necessary, so i'm not sure at the moment.

specifically, the name for abaddon's identity would be "agender male". some people would describe the experience as being "mostly agender, a little male", but for abaddon it's more like... "male, but not that way". if asked about their own gender, of course, they would just say male — for them, gender is just another social construct they don't really understand or care for, but they do know the impact it has on how people perceive them, and further ostracization would be very detrimental to their goals. they don't even tell people their pronouns, usually; they just don't correct "he" or "they" when they come up xD

i'd say that abaddon's transness doesn't come up suuuuper often in the story, or at least it's not planned to? (besides some drama with cross down the line, that is, and maybe some discussion with killer.) i could see it being mentioned during any sex scenes, not just because "hey i might not have the genitals you're expecting" is an appropriate thing to bring up to someone you want to bang, but because abaddon, being an asexual trans man, has some pretty significant vaginal atrophy that he's absolutely uninterested in getting treated — which of course means that vaginal penetration isn't really possible for him.

...and for reference on that last note, because i don't see people talking about this a lot with transmasc characters: vaginal atrophy isn't something you necessarily need to get treated, provided your personal symptoms don't bother you. (which they probably won't if you don't plan on having sex or masturbating vaginally.) vaginal atrophy just means that your vagina isn't getting "enough" estrogen (something that also happens to post-menopausal people) and therefore kind of shrivels up into "do not disturb" mode, which involves being smaller, dryer, and more easily irritated. of course, everyone's body is unique so the symptoms of vaginal atrophy can be more uncomfortable to some people than others, in which case it's pretty easy to treat with some topical estrogen cream — but since i've seen "atrophic vaginitis" thrown around a bit as a scary buzzword by people who undoubtedly confuse "atrophy" with "necrosis", i thought i'd take a second to clarify.

if you're asking this because you're worried about transphobia against abaddon being a significant plot point, though, don't worry. most of TAU's cast are monsters, and monsters in TAU barely understand what transness is, let alone have a negative opinion on it. the exception to this is probably just X!Gaster, but at this moment i'm not even sure if he'll show up in TAU by any other way than passing mentions xD

i've made quite a bit of progress, so i wanted to celebrate by recreating one of my favorite shots from sourapplestudios qwq

original vid here

happy pride lol

(shout-out to @andreabandrea for the idea <3)

which level of [FRY AN EGG ON YOUR PC] is your favorite

Hai!! Hope everything is alright ^^

So I was thinking about their designs again and (if I recall correctly) you mentioned awhile ago you wanted to change some things with their refs, so I’m curious what you would add or change to their designs?

ahh, i forgot to follow up on that!

mostly i was just unhappy with killer's outfit(s), horror's general shapes (looked a little too fanon for me), and the specifics of abaddon's palette. those are all things i corrected on their 3D models xD

there's still a lot to do — i need to figure out how to animate/switch between textures to finish killer (mostly for his tears and makeup), and i obviously haven't rigged everyone yet (nor do i know how to get their faces set up in a more natural "default" expression; i know there's a way to set up a library of faces, but idk how yet xD), but as for the color schemes and details of the outfits i think i've fixed them!

i also still need to do all the props... i did abaddon's phone and polearm just as a test, though, and i think they turned out cool:

might still need to adjust some things; i think the polearm needs to realistically be a bit longer, and i'd also like abaddon's soul to actually be able to show "levels" of fullness as they absorb mana. i think i know how i could approach that, but i'd like to know more about textures first so i don't do things some unnecessarily hard way xDD

killer also has more outfits cuz he's a lil fashionista:

rn i'm not sure about the "earrings", but once i can figure out the textures and finish up the details with his face, i think it'll tie together nicely!

idk; like i said, there's still a lot to do, but it's been nice to work on something that isn't work related. it's cool seeing them slowly come together uwu

This pain will end one day, and I believe in that. We are going through great hardships, but hope has always been in my heart. The freedom for Palestine is now closer than ever🥹🇵🇸

from the comments

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