SINCE AIB S3 HAS BEEN OFFICIAL FOR ABOUT 2 YEARS NOW...

The term 'ship' is too vague. I don't think they should date i think they should be fucking regularly. I don't think they should date i think they should yearn for eachother endlessly but never have it be requited. I don't think they should date i think they should kiss one night and never talk about it again. I don't think they should date i think they should hate eachother so much that it turns into bottled up lust. I don't think they should date i think one of them should have a one-sided crush on the other. I don't think they should date i think they should have a situationship that ruins their lives. I don't think they should date i think they should stab eachother

“Such human desires this silver color embodies. Symbol of death.”

toru nishikawa (½) ✦ the gun (2018)

”hatters death wasn’t that bad” yeah is death wasn’t bad it’s the fact that aguni realized his gun wasn’t even loaded and sobbed his name while hugging his dead body. THAT was bad

poetry or whatever about being the token gay

cw for slurs and mentions of religion + sexuality

chishiya, arisu, and niragi - their effects on me as someone who experienced severe depression

chishiya’s little confession to arisu always fucking gets me. call me selfish little shit all you want but i relate to him, niragi, and arisu so much. that realization and my connection to these three led to the alteration of my brain chemistry that literally ended up saving me from committing suicide.

because he was actually so fucking real i don’t care what you guys say. i lived so much of my life depressed wondering what the fuck was wrong with me (being autistic and having emotionally abusive & neglectful parents did NOT help with this), and hearing him talk about being small-minded and jealous and being always afraid just hit home. i was so jealous of everyone around me who just hit every little thing in life like it was a home run because when you become depressed at 8 and it doesn’t go away for a LONG time you start to be so fucking pissed about people who celebrate their every move. i pitied it but in reality i was just jealous because they all had that little life in them, that HUMANITY that i never experienced.

niragis whole character hit home like crazy for me. because of my inability to fit in with others i was bullied a lot by my classmates and picked on for what felt like no reason at all. i was, of course, jealous (which i refused to admit) and it drove me insane. i started to become the person i never wanted to be because the hatred drove me so fucking crazy i started to think i either had something seriously wrong with me or they made something seriously wrong with me and either way i was going to revel in it because there would be no fixing for someone like me. niragi hit extremely hard for me during this time, call me psychopath or whatever the fuck but i seriously related so much. he was just like me and it was comforting because even though he was so terrible it made me feel less alone.

finally, ep 8 of s2 when it was flashing back to his father asking him what his purpose in life was with that DEPRESSING ASS SONG in the background while he sobbed saying he doesn’t deserve to live broke me. that was the last fucking straw. all my selfishness and jealousy and anger and HATRED for everyone else just crumbled down on me and i didn’t want to live anymore because i felt like a selfish waste of space. it hurt and it hurt BAD. it was like somebody just took a knife, stabbed me straight in the heart a twisted a full 360.

these were very relatable characters for me, and i know i seem like an asshole for it, i don’t care. thats what real mental illness and effects of neglect / bullying / discouragement / everything looks like. they genuinely make me sob every time i see them because they’re actually me i see them and suddenly im that same scared little boy again. to this day those fireworks are STILL my favorite thing in the world and they mean everything to me. that was the scene that convinced me not to do it.

WHICH ONE WOULD YOU GUYS LIKE MORE ?

please let me know !!! im leaning more towards the second option but i wanna know your guys opinion !

hey

happy valentine’s day !

Hope you’re still taking asks, got a few questions :3

Any extremelyyyy unpopular takes on aib?

If you were able to change one thing about aib(Netflix or manga your choice) what would you change?

What is your opinion on S3, do you have any theories?

Your FAVORITE moment or scene?

Do you have top 3 fav ships, if so what are they?

Of course !! I’m always open to asks ! :3 - Extremely unpopular take : I think you can like Niragi and hate Shibuki. When people talk about the SA characters they ALWAYS nitpick about this and it’s like oh my god shut up dude their whole character doesn’t rely on 1-2 things they did. “They’re basically the same bc they both SA’D” no they’re not tell me you watched the show without paying attention to the characters without telling me :sob: - One thing I would change about the Netflix adap. : Take out the unnecessary SA scene between Heiya and Arisu. That was so weird of them to just throw in and I think it really ruined Heiya for a lot of people. - My opinion on S3 : I think they’re going to partially follow RETRY. Considering how employed Arisu looks I’m going to assume this is somewhere in the future and judging by hearing Ann’s voice in the trailer we WILL be seeing the other mains (ones from the king of spades battle + niragi and chish). Though, it’s really hard to tell what’s going on considering the photo of Arisu and Usagi in their borderland outfits and some random dude in a wheelchair looking at the HUGE joker card. It leaves many questions unanswered and I might make a separate post about debunking it :) - FAVORITE moment or scene : For a lighthearted one, I think my favorite scene is probably from the manga, when Arisu asks Niragi why he shot Chishiya and he said “Should I have hugged him instead??” For a more serious one, probably Chishiya’s little speech to Arisu after getting shot. It hit hard in both the manga AND live action, but it was really interesting either way :3 - Top 3 fav ships : Nirashiya, Arisagi, and probably Kuiann or Kuzumira (or whatever its called) in that order ! AAA THANK YOU FOR THESE LOVELY ASKS !!! They were so fun to answer :))

sorry ive been gone for so long lol

ove been gone a while and it will probably be an even longer while. it turns out liking people when u have axnious attachment is REALLY bad and now i spend most of my evenings practicing piano or etching his name into a red candle and praying over it like my life depends on it i also recently discovered good weed as after my terrible experience of snooping through the freezer for my dads homemade shit during an anxiety attack scarred me. that strawberry shem hit MAD dawg omg i was metling away lolololololol maybe ill write smthn abt it. everything always turns into smthn i write bc i refuse to get hurt for nothing. all damage is good in my hands bc sometimes the assault is good and sometimes the insane urge to high is good and sometimes the abuse is good and sometimes the irrestable eye gleam that boy gives me at our concert as if he didnt js blck me is good bc i can turn it into art. and speaking of art center marimba got butt dumped on me so now im losing even more freedom from pressure in my arts and i wont even have my big brother there to help me throhg it bc hes gradiating. and big sister cam is graduating and jammy is go bue bye aghhhhhhh its all so sad yk sometimes i like purposelu let myself get hurt or i pirposelu hurt myself emotionally so i can write better. my best work comes when im sad bc i can onlu write sad things well bc how the fuck am i suppsied to write abt sunshine and rainbows and loving relationships when my ever so shitty eyesight is blacking out so everything looks dark and the only rainbows i see are when im saying i hate fags as i write poetry abt my unreauited love for this boy abd theres no loving relationshios cb the last relationship i got FUCKED but its ok bc the dmaga eis good gys i am making art from ut u already saw the shit i did back in february i write ffrom experience so my work is accurate. terribke things arent visualized in my work they are experuenced and thrown onto the page like it will be my last. ad then ppl tell mei should get hep and i should go ti the pyschward like hahaha so funny even if i wanted to i couldnt bc my parents dgaf im literally js a kid. im co28 i should be worring abt like my grades (whch i do) and like playinf valorant or whatever teen boys do. but nof this is mu life but eah my bad for being gone gangalang see yall idk when i js wanted to update my life everythign is great