26/12/2021

i be like “damn i got a lot of shit to do” and then go lay down for 17 hours

2 days into work experience and oml, reality slaps you hard. i never knew having a 9-5 job was this tiring.

october onslaught (obstacles and others)

01:01 - Friday 28th October that title does not make sense but i spent a good however many minutes scrolling through synonyms on thesaurus.com to come up with it and i refuse to waste those efforts.

so sixth form turned up a notch in the past month, it's been flashing by really quick, i'm unorganised and flustered by every little thing - not to mention how thrown off i am by not only the sheer amount of work, but how much i have to try and catch up on due to sick days. now that i don't partake in anything other than school (as i've dropped my religious studies), i find myself growing really restless. i'm considering getting a job? but i'd have to make a cv and figure out how to make a bank account and tons of other things before even considering applying. idk i feel kinda dumb for not knowing these things already. it's half term holiday! well, almost the end seeing as i have the weekend and then have to go back to school. i plan on somehow plowing through all of the work i've missed (particularly sociology) and being fully up to speed by friday. wish me luck! i'll probably be doing tons of school posts to motivate me so i'll see you soon. until next time! ~Amimi

messing up every relationship with another human being i have out of self hatred check

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

the rain slips from stone unto my skin, while the musk of coffee trails behind each step, as the old books in my cotton bag are kissed by the rain themselves.

ig: rosenaufsuden

rediscovering my love of french and wanting to pick it up again, i used to hate it in school but now i realise how the structure of school and exams just ironically kills of the feeling of wanting to learn. please interact and tell me your fav methods of learning languages? or just your experiences with learning french in general?

july (juvenile jollification)

Sunday 6th August 1:35am writing this a bit late because im in a bit of a slump.

starting off the month with a bang, i went a bit of an adventure during homestudy (not very studyblr of me) and ventured off to birmingham with my bestfriend! it was sooo cool, we didn't explore everything, just bullring and the station, as well as the highstreet? i think its called (im really tired, forgive the lackluster writing). the highlight of the day was definitely trying wingstop, we each picked a flavour, lemon pepper and spicy korean bbq with cajun fries and... oh. my. g o d. i can understand the craze because it's been a month and my cravings have not stopped. lets just say the many many many runs to kfc and other fast food places can no longer satisfy my hunger. i bought a ton of clothes for the upcoming school year too! multiple ruched tops in brown, cream and pink, a long pink midi skirt, a brown mockneck sweater and a beige one too! oh and a cable knit pink cardigan (if you can't tell i like pink lolol) school ended on the 17th? i think it was, which is the wrap up of year 12. as far as the last day of school can go, i think mine was really good! they set up a bouncy castle, sumo wrestling and more in the school gym and it was so fun! i hadn't intended on actually using or trying anything but i ended up being spontaneous. i can gladly say that i crushed my opponent in sumo wrestling 3-0 so fear me. i grabbed oodles with two of my friends, which btw if you haven't tried. you NEED to. its to die for. udon noodles reign supreme. since the holiday started i haven't done much, mainly watching shows and movies like 25 21, and the second season of the summer i turned pretty - yi jin and jeremiah 4 lyfe. i promise the 7 days 7 movies series will be out soon! til next time! Amimi

may (miserable, not magical)

taysway ftw eng lit exam tommorow i haven't posted at all recently due to exams but i'll be back to it right after exam season is over (which means after june D; ) i thought i'd just hop on here and have a quick monthly diarypost which is actually just a dump of my thoughts for tommorow so my exam board is eduqas and they are the Hecate of all exam boards tommorow i'm doing two 1 hour papers - one on Macbeth and one on Lord of the Flies the topics (themes/ characters) i'm revising are: Macbeth Lady Macbeth Ambition Kingship Appearance vs Reality (i have given up completely on macduff but maybe i'll attempt banquo)

Ralph Simon Jack Piggy (brief on Roger) Savagery vs Civilisation the aim right now is just a 6 - then i'll resit it and do better in november next academic year wish me luck because i need it badly - Amimi

god it's 4am, but you know when you're about to give up on something and you give one last shot and it turns out pretty good? well yeah :)

i love and hate having a crush, idk why my heart feels heavy. like im not that good at speaking to people irl but i'm crazy over text, but with him i'm so nervous i can't even do that? its a different kind of torture - and then the few times everything goes well though i'm super happy but then also scared to death of saying something wrong so i pretend to fall asleep or be busy or something like that. it's weird how i feel like i'm barely hanging on to composure and he's nonchalant and uncaring