HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

guess who's back, back again

update: kinda late but oh well, exam was alr but not as good as i wanted - at first i was really distraught but then i reminded myself of those supposed literature nerds who write Scrooge/Marley fanfics on ao3 and how failing literature meant i was definitely not one of them :D

English teachers, You either did something incredibly right or incredibly wrong when teaching A Christmas Carol in GCSE English because there is 34 works under the tag Jacob Marley/Ebenezer Scrooge on ao3. A few of them are tagged with references to GCSEs.

work experience (9-5, feeling alive)

this post has been a bit delayed, i've been so tired i've just been lounging around this past week since its half term holidays (which by the way, we came back from christmas around jan 5? the half term should not be this short). writing this post to get my brain working as i actually put thought into what im doing/writing lolol. so i did my one week of mandatory work experience in a law firm, the initial information sheet i'd been given had described my role more like being a receptionist? i ended up doing all sorts of things though. i imagined the building i was going to work at as being really big and formal but when i went there it turned out to be a medium-sized office with its entrance quite tucked away around the back of a big building. on my first day of work, i ended up wandering around for half an hour being lost and i walked into like 5 different wrong law firms that would tell me the general direction which i would follow and still be lost. that day there ended up not being much for me to do, other than try to read up on basic knowledge. i got walked to the magistrate's court for the last 2 hours of the day and made notes, it didn't seem like much though, mostly because i didn't understand too much of what was going on. my second day was more eventful! my supervisor was on police station duty that day but he didn't get called for any cases. i mainly attended court that day and observed 5 cases which were very cool!! i would love to tell you all about that but because many of them are still ongoing it would interfere with them and so i am sworn to the utmost secrecy. i also got to read real case files and was asked to say what i thought, guilty or not guilty and to argue my side oh! did you know that the magistrates court is open to public? anyone can come and sit in the back as observe as long as it's not a youth case. this post is getting long so head on down to pt 2!!

tips for year 10

since i’ve finished year ten and am just starting year 11, i thought i’d offer some advice for those of you starting year 10:

1. make your notes as you go along - it’s so much easier to revise effectively when you’ve already made resources, instead of wasting revision time making notes. this also means that you have notes ready when you go into year 11.

2. ask questions - when you have a question, write it down and ask your teacher next lesson. not only does this make sure that you know the content while you’re learning it, it helps you become more involved in your subjects and shows your teacher that you’re willing to take initiative and learn for yourself.

3. use revision resources - i would recommend getting revision guides (e.g. the cgp books) in year 10 and using them to guide your revision throughout the year. if you don’t want to write on the books until year 11 then you can use a separate notebook to answer the questions. 

4. REVISE FOR YOUR EXAMS - i cannot emphasise the importance of this enough. if revise and work for exams in year 10 then you’ll have already started learning the content that you’ll need to know in year 11. this means that you don’t have to revise as intensely for year 11 mocks and eventually your acutal gcses.

5. if you regret your options, switch while you can - some schools may not do this, but in my school we have a four week grace period at the start of year 10 where we can try out our option choices and change them if we want to. if you have a few lessons and find out that one of your subjects actually isn’t for you, see what you can do about switching to something you find easier/more fun/more interesting. i find that enjoying a subject will motivate me to work hard at it, so it’s super important to be studying things you enjoy.

6. concentrate in lessons - it may seem that as your gcses are in a year, you don’t need to work hard or concentrate in your lessons, but please don’t be the person who has to learn everything in year 11. it’s likely that you won’t revisit your year 10 topics in depth in year 11, so concentrate and learn them while the teacher is teaching you.

7. seek help if you need it - year 10 can be a pretty stressful time, what with a new course, new teachers, new classes and a bigger workload. if you feel like you need help, be it with academic problems, physical health or mental health, please please please ask for help. there is absolutely no shame in asking someone to help you, and it will honestly make everything easier.

8. enjoy yourself - i know this is a generic thing that everyone says, but enjoying yourself and having fun is really important. join clubs, hang out with friends, make the most of having more privileges within school without the stress of gcse exams. as well as a place of learning, school should also be somewhere you can make lasting friendships, memories and have loads of fun. 

i hope that these have helped some of you, and good luck to everyone starting year 10, you’ll smash it! xx

this. i can't tell whether its bad or whether i hate myself

I feel like my arts been looking worse than usual

this is my 169th post and i was fittingly just sent what seemed to be some blurred out male genitalia ( i didn't click to reveal dw ) from some crypto account with no posts, i mean you're on theme? but fuck you dude. fuck you.

i considered completely scrapping 7 days 7 movies after the first post completely flopped, but i figured that since i haven't really cared about notes on any of my other series of posts i should really do something with the brief drafts? so, give me some time to catch up on my current work and i'll be sure to post the rest of the series all at once!?!?!

2 days into work experience and oml, reality slaps you hard. i never knew having a 9-5 job was this tiring.

twas the night before aqa sociology and ocr media paper 1 and your former study obsessed girl had given up on life

movies (for when you want to cry)

believe it or not, my blog was supposed to be all about movies and film (thus the name filminah, innovative i know) i don't know if i enjoy torturing myself or what but here are some movies that made me cry. when marnie was there (anime 2014) - follows teen anna sasaki through a journey of self exploration that takes place due to a mysterious girl she meets named marnie. now, this is definitely not the best ghibli film ever, a little awkward at times especially in the dub but yonebayashi hiromasa does not know how to make a bad movie. the twist was kinda expected but it's ghibli and it's so damn charming you can't help but get attached to anna and marnie and feel everything the way they do. i want to eat your pancreas (anime 2018) - the title is weird, i know. an introverted boy, haruki finds out the secret of his very popular, bubbly polar-opposite-of-him classmate named sakura. she is affected with a severe pancreatic disease. the way they build the connection between the main two characters is so so good to watch, fulfilling what you know will happen in the most unexpected way and showing the aftermath of the movies major events. a silent voice (anime 2016)- this was the first movie i ever found sad enough to make me cry actual tears. ishida shoyo bullied a nishimiya shouko in middle school. shouko is deaf. now a highschooler, after being unable to commit s**c*d* he finds himself becoming friends with shouko, helping her get better and maybe himself along the way. imo this film is one of the best representations of a lead with struggling mental health and they show that incredibly well in both visuals and dialogue, kyoto animation always impresses with their work and the sound work is impeccably done with the way they establish an atmosphere or put you in a characters shoes, embodying them. link to pt 2 (to be added)