Rediscovering My Love Of French And Wanting To Pick It Up Again, I Used To Hate It In School But Now

— Ocean Vuong, Because It’s Summer

july (juvenile jollification)

Sunday 6th August 1:35am writing this a bit late because im in a bit of a slump.

starting off the month with a bang, i went a bit of an adventure during homestudy (not very studyblr of me) and ventured off to birmingham with my bestfriend! it was sooo cool, we didn't explore everything, just bullring and the station, as well as the highstreet? i think its called (im really tired, forgive the lackluster writing). the highlight of the day was definitely trying wingstop, we each picked a flavour, lemon pepper and spicy korean bbq with cajun fries and... oh. my. g o d. i can understand the craze because it's been a month and my cravings have not stopped. lets just say the many many many runs to kfc and other fast food places can no longer satisfy my hunger. i bought a ton of clothes for the upcoming school year too! multiple ruched tops in brown, cream and pink, a long pink midi skirt, a brown mockneck sweater and a beige one too! oh and a cable knit pink cardigan (if you can't tell i like pink lolol) school ended on the 17th? i think it was, which is the wrap up of year 12. as far as the last day of school can go, i think mine was really good! they set up a bouncy castle, sumo wrestling and more in the school gym and it was so fun! i hadn't intended on actually using or trying anything but i ended up being spontaneous. i can gladly say that i crushed my opponent in sumo wrestling 3-0 so fear me. i grabbed oodles with two of my friends, which btw if you haven't tried. you NEED to. its to die for. udon noodles reign supreme. since the holiday started i haven't done much, mainly watching shows and movies like 25 21, and the second season of the summer i turned pretty - yi jin and jeremiah 4 lyfe. i promise the 7 days 7 movies series will be out soon! til next time! Amimi

it's 00:04 and i'm 17.

manga lashes !!!!

Ay, my heart is not beating Ay 심장이 뛰지 않는대 When I listen to music anymore 더는 음악을 들을 때 Tryna pull up It seems time has stopped 시간이 멈춘 듯해 Oh that would be my first death I been always afraid of If this can't make me cry 이게 나를 더 못 울린다면 If you can’t make my heart tremble more 내 가슴을 더 떨리게 못 한다면 Maybe I'll die once like this 어쩜 이렇게 한 번 죽겠지 아마 But what if that moment's right now, right now Only the sound of a slow heart in my ears, bump bump bump 귓가엔 느린 심장 소리만 bump bump bump Even if I want to escape, jump into that mouth, jump jump jump 벗어날래도 그 입속으로 jump jump jump I can't reach any song 어떤 노래도 와닿지 못해 Screaming a silent sound 소리 없는 소릴 질러 (these lyrics speak to me so much, and the video is so underappreciated, like can we gush about the artistry?) *no pictures or media is mine unless stated otherwise*

hey quick note, so the device I usually use for most of my school work and work related stuff has had a new smoothwall extension installed blocking almost everything I can think of from, socials to movies, including tumblr (currently typing on my really horrible phone) so things are gonna be on hold for a while. its created a ton of problems not only for personal use (as its my main device since this phone is barely usable) but for schoolwork especially media where watching TV shows and movies, and looking at games is my schoolwork. until this issue is fixed I'm afraid I won't be posting, I don't know if this will be fixed in a week or months from now but I'll try and get back to you soon -Amina

coming back from ncs (week one) [pt 2]

in case you haven't read pt 1 i hate that i cant post it at once. but carrying on! thursday was definitely the most interesting, watersports was the main event, canoeing and rafting, i almost drowned (i'll get back to that) . so first off we went rafting and just waded around the quarry while also panicking and failing to row away from our other demonic friends, got soaked after having water flicked at us and then row back to shore. everyone was screaming and it was terrifying but amazing. we were getting ambushed and had more water flicked at us as we got onto the canoes, there was a conga line with all 200 people in the marquee and big talent show where i sat next to who im calling bracelet boy (i realised how much i actually liked him after he snapped my glowstick bracelet and my cheeks burst into flame) , i made my first moves towards bracelet boy and accidentally accumulated a squad of wingmen including my ATL.

i probably could've written a whole post about thursday night by itself. i snuck out with two of my best wingmen and we went stargazing and listened to music in the night, i had nettle stings all over my legs and our cameras couldn't pick up the stars but i wouldn't change a thing. we were tucked away in the corner of the campsite in the dark and whenever we saw a flashlight we turned everything off and lied down in the grass while trying not to laugh. at one point we thought we saw boys sneak out of the tents and went to go check which was such an adrenaline rush, upon approaching we heard the voice of a stern staff member and started running, a flashlight quickly approaching and i tripped and grazed my knee but kept running which we laughed about as soon as we got into one of the tents. it was the most exhilarating thing i have ever done.

friday i talked to bracelet boy more and packed away, socialised, play games and made more friends, we took group pictures and i got bracelets insta (i'm screaming internally i've never liked someone so much). he's adorable (is that the right word to describe someone twice your height?) and said our final goodbyes as we got ready to go.

i would do anything to go back. it felt like something out of a dream.

there's so many things that i probably missed but i'll likely come back and edit this post later that's all for now! ~ Amimi

[ Mon, 1st August - 20:27] [ i think i lost the glowstick bracelet :( but i plan on making him a bracelet for when i confess ]

the universe knew I'd be too powerful if I had the capacity to carry on conversations

if quarantine doesn’t end soon i’m gonna do something illegal

the rain and the empty streets and silence makes me want to sneak out at night with my black scarf covering my nose and mouth and break into an vintage bookshop and just sit there and read til dawn then leave with precious manuscripts handwritten by the author (preferably jk rowling and harry potter) 

thoughts while watching euphoria (pt 2)

23:22 - 22 Jan 2022

SPOILERS

- kats a shitty friend, like come on girl, you can literally hear maddy crying and you blow her off so you can give snakebite guy (who you’ve met like once before) head?

-fuck

nate

jacobs

(further explanation isn’t necessary)

- also another thing i noticed is in nates little monologue about traits he likes in women, he strays away from anything masculine - forcing himself away from anything that could pertain to his sexuality

- the parallels between nate and his dad are disturbing as fuckk

, the scene where he met jules as tyler gave me chills, like when he stuck his finger in her mouth??LITERALLY the same words and tone. meeting maddy at the motel too.chills.

- zendaya is amazing, like so so amazing

- to clarify about the unrealistic portrayal of teenagers, i am not referring to the drug culture, i mean the way they talk, dress in school, kat is a fucking camgirl and in highschool. yes, drug culture is prevalent among teenagers almost everywhere and euphoria puts it centre stage, if i had one thing to comment about it though, fez is a bit too caring to be rue’s dealer, letting her into his house, paying for the fentanyl..so on so on. -  want to see more of lexi, her position as cassies sister and rues childhood friend makes her very interesting. we’ve just started ep 5 bitchhhh, its almost midnight though, so post tmrw. ~Amimi