Why Do My Parents Have To Love Food So Much

Safe foods

I wanna vomit, I hate my lower stomach.

I'm not saying that ppl who are naturally skinny don't have their own struggles, but you can't convince me that you don't have it easier than ppl with slower metabolisms.

My restricting guidelines

If fasting isn't really your thing but look for advice/tips with dealing with your £d, this is your post.

For reference, I usually aim to eat around 1K cals in a day, because then I can still function. While the urge is there, I try not to give in and get worse. I'm not really strict with myself and eat just about whatever, as long as I stay under my calorie limit.

Breakfast

I usually don't have breakfast (I'm not really a morning person and I don't feel hungry), but if I do, I try to go as low call as possible or make it nutritious. A safe meal is usually a fried egg and half an avocado.

Lunch

If I had breakfast, I tend to skip lunch. If I didn't and I'm having a break between my classes, I like to have tomato soup, or a sandwich. If I'm still home, I decide between something light/nutritious (like the eggs and avocado) or something bigger.

Dinner

This is usually my biggest meal of the day, of around 600 cals. Obv the lower the better, but I look at how much I already ate that day. If I didn't have too many calories and also moved, I feel like I earned a bigger dinner and don't feel as self concious. I usually just calculate at how many cals there is in the food and how many I allow myself to still eat that day.

15 hours into a fast, omw to 24 >:)

The fact that I spent my teens eating instead of starving is killing me

Rants w Arcane | pt. 2

I know this isn't my usual content, my I just wanted to get it off my chest. Maybe it brings some comfort to ppl in similar situations.

My education is very important to me. My main form of validation is academic, and while I wasn't a top student in high school, I was happy I graduated and found it a flex that I finished high school in a different country, in a different language. Now I'm an university that ranks top worldwide. I knew it wouldn't be easy, but I had failed all my exams in january. Looking back, my study methods were just really not right and that's why I didn't do well. It obviously took a toll on how I viewed myself. Thus, the past semester, I've been in a constant toxic cycle of putting particularly high expecations of what I should do/what I should achieve by overworking myself, attending all my classes and student society (already 9 hours in a day) and studying an extra 4 hours in between and working out whenever I could. On top of that, I had fueled my £d as much as I could, pushing myself to get worse.

Dealing with the pressure of school, an £d, a relationship and going home every weekend where my relationship with my parents isn't the best obviously took its toll on me. After about 4 to 5 months of that, it seems like my brain finally is giving up. My anxiety is getting bad again and I might need meds again, if I don't get better. I don't want to bother people with it, but it is also something I cannot just keep hidden. I hope that things will get better soon and I should take better care of myself.

For anyone else in a similar situation, know you're not alone and you deserve to take care of yourself. It's ok to step on your pride and do things that'll help you feel better.

Although I ate more today, I feel like I'm doing a good job managing my cravings.

Like yeah, I ate, but I felt less the need to f.e. have a dessert or eat food. Maybe fasting isn't for me necessarily, but if I keep controlling my cravings, I think I'll do well.

i didn't really like fasting and found it a bother in the beginning, but the more I practiced, found what worked for me n what made it easier, the more progress that I made and the more addicting it got.

If done right, I can get to a fast of 16 to 18 hours with no issue, even 24 with a little push. Once doing 24h fasts become as easy as the 16 to 18 hours one, I'll try to push for maybe 30 hours or so.

About me

Measurements

SW: 106kg

CW: 99kg

GW: 50kg

UGW: 45kg

Who am I?

Hi! I'm feather-wannabe :) I'm a 20 y/o uni student who struggles with an £d. My previous blog got deleted, so here am I. It lowk sucked cuz I got to around 1.2K followers and some mutuals (whose users I forgot ): ) but I'm sure that I'll make some new friends on here.

I post things here that I'm thinking of and it is not meant to have a negative influence on younger people. As you've seen others mention, please block instead of report. If you want to be mutuals/friends, I'm definitely down for that!

I love memes, writing, artist like Crystal Castles, Pastel Ghost and Billie Eilish and gaming! Welcome to my blog :)