I Want You To Hold Me Together While I Tear Myself Apart

The way they loved❤️‍🩹

I know your actions came from a place of hurt, but that doesn’t excuse them. I don’t hate you for that, but how could you treat someone you love like that?

You look at me and I feel the sun tracing my lips. You’re selfless and kind. Everything you say holds meaning. You love me and you make me feel loved. So many bad experiences led me to you and every experience was worth it to be able to hold you and love you to the best of my ability. I love you.

I wish I wasn’t stupid.

I can’t do math, my writing is shit, I can’t pay attention, I can’t sing, I can’t dance, I’m not confident, I’m not pretty.

I’m watching all my friends get ahead of me. They excel in all their subjects so easily. I’m struggling to get passing grades.

I know I’m smart, I just wish I wasn’t the only one aware.

I’m smart enough to understand the look they give me when I ask stupid questions. I’m smart enough to understand why they act like they don’t know me in the hallways.

I just wish I had something to show for myself so I wouldn’t be so overlooked. I just wish I wasn’t stupid enough to believe everyone that doubts me.

I just wish I wasn’t so so stupid.

I love growing up with my friends; I looked at a good friend this morning and realized how much she’s grown since we met. I guess I’ve grown too.

I hate that there’s a stranger that walks around with my secrets.

Never again will someone make me feel the way you did.

Never again will someone know me the way you did.

wanting everything and wanting nothing

Bbg

I carry the weight of my parents mistakes.

It’s so heavy, I just want to make you proud.

My love is faithful. If I love you now, I’ll love you forever.