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so let me get this straight…

allison hargreeves is almost murdered by her brother, and loses her ability to speak, also losing her connection to her powers. she is then ripped away from her child and sent back in time to the 1960’s, as a black woman, as the world is literally ending.

she then spends YEARS in a time where she experiences outright, violent racism at every turn. she experiences unimaginable trauma. she meets a man who is an activist and a dreamer, and she falls in love. she builds a life for herself in this time. she still doesn’t have her daughter, but she has something to hold onto.

and then, just as suddenly as before, she is ripped away from her husband and her life and thrown back into the future. but this time, she goes willingly, because Claire is in the future, and she loves her daughter too much to abandon her.

but… Claire isn’t there anymore. in fact, Claire never even existed at all. so now she has lost Claire and Raymond. she left her husband to be with a child that doesn’t even exist in this world. and so she spends all season being THE ONLY ONE of her siblings who actively tries to find a way back to their own timeline.

Diego gets a son, and basically ignores him for the first half of that story. Viktor gets Harlan back, his surrogate son. Luther finds new love with someone who is not allison, and essentially abandons the family for her at the start, and then actively chooses to go to Sloane over Allison when Allison was clearly in a time of need, even going so far as to throw Raymond and Claire in her face. Ben is different and a complete asshole. Klaus spends all season with their dad. and Five has just given up entirely. Allison lost everything, literally everything, and has to watch while her family moves on, doesn’t care, and finds new things to love while she just… floats. aimless. lost. utterly alone. all while she is still fighting breathlessly to get even one single piece of it all back. all while still dealing with the horrific trauma of what happened in the 60’s on top of it all. and then she finds out that Viktor found the cause of Claire’s lack of existence and hid it from her and to the whole family?!

so of course she snaps!! because no one, not one single person in her family, will help her. they’re all lying to her, too preoccupied with their own shit to pay attention to her desperate pleas. not one person actively seems to give a shit that she lost her child after leaving her husband behind solely to be with said child. so she makes a deal with the devil, because if no one else will help her, her desperation is too much to bear. her loss is unfathomable and there is a single solitary shred of hope that she may get something back.

she didn’t know he was gonna kill luther or klaus, she didn’t know his plan was going to end up killing all the siblings. all she knew was that not one of her siblings was going to help her, no matter how clear her desperation had become, no matter how obvious her mental breakdown was. but Reginald was going to help her, so she sided with the only option that gave her a fighting chance.

… but somehow she is now an irredeemable villain. got it.

allison hargreeves made mistakes. what she did to luther is absolutely inexcusable. she lashed out, she made a deal with the wrong man. but allison hargreeves was a devastated, desperate, broken woman who had nothing left of herself to give. so when everyone she loved in the world was either gone or turning their back on her, she did what she had to do to get her child back.

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my favorite thing about tua is that every single sibling thinks they’re the family disappointment

I love how unintimidated Klaus is by his most objectively intimidating siblings. he's just like. Five? The time-traveling 50 year old assassin? Just a baby boy. I'm gonna pretend he's my son and deck him. Oh vanya? Nearly two-time apocalypse starter? excuse you that's vanny and she's my fucking adorable sister. I'm gonna kiss her on the top of her little head and call her vanny fuck you

dean: is it just me or-

sam: no

dean: but you-

sam: if you tell me about how pretty cas is ONE MORE TIME i swear i will leave you on the side of the road

dean:

sam:

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Destiel ► 8.07

Jensen actually managed to make destiel x76 times more tragic when he said that Dean didn't believe Cas could feel romantic love because angels aren't wired that way.

I mean.

Can you imagine season 4/5 Dean realizing he's attracted to a "monster"? That not only is Castiel not human, but also a man. How much John would have hated that and how many sleepless nights have Dean spent thinking about it?

Then he starts caring more and more about Cas,m until one day Dean realizes that it isn't just attraction or friendship that he's feeling. But how could it be anything else but unrequited? Angel don't feel that way, can't feel that way.

And Cas keeps dying and every time it feels like a part of Dean dies too, except it never comes back, even when Cas does.

Dean spends years burying his feelings, believing that it could never be shared or acted on, that Cas will never be able to love him back in the same way. Yet unable to seek a relationship with anyone else because he doesn't want anyone else. If all Cas can give him is friendship and devotion, Dean will take it. He'll take anything as long as Cas stays by his side (except he never really does, does he?)

Then Cas confesses and Dean is shocked, left gaping and unable to find words because he never believed he would get to talk about this. He has so many things to say and all those words are stuck in his throat. There are just so many of them that he's chocking on it all, unable to get anything out except Cas' name. And then he realizes it's his last chance to say them. That even if Cas loves him back, Dean will never get another chance to say it, to live it.

Cas throws him to the side and that's it, it's over, Cas is disappearing before his very eyes and he still doesn't know that he's loved, that he was always loved. Dean's mouth is opened all along around the words he can't bring himself to say, that he's hidden for so long that he can't find them fast enough.

Cas is gone and Dean's words turn into sobs.