SPN Hiatus Creations | Week Eleven | Female Characters

‘Victor Alvarez Guapisimo’

bonus:

I read an interpretation of the Confession Scene™ that said Cas thinks he’s saving Dean but Dean thinks he’s killing Cas and I haven’t slept well since

midnights is evermore’s burnt out older sister and no one can convince me otherwise

#pridemonth2019 → claire novak ↳ It’s my life. I get all the votes.

I LOVE Kathryn Newton

Jensen actually managed to make destiel x76 times more tragic when he said that Dean didn't believe Cas could feel romantic love because angels aren't wired that way.

I mean.

Can you imagine season 4/5 Dean realizing he's attracted to a "monster"? That not only is Castiel not human, but also a man. How much John would have hated that and how many sleepless nights have Dean spent thinking about it?

Then he starts caring more and more about Cas,m until one day Dean realizes that it isn't just attraction or friendship that he's feeling. But how could it be anything else but unrequited? Angel don't feel that way, can't feel that way.

And Cas keeps dying and every time it feels like a part of Dean dies too, except it never comes back, even when Cas does.

Dean spends years burying his feelings, believing that it could never be shared or acted on, that Cas will never be able to love him back in the same way. Yet unable to seek a relationship with anyone else because he doesn't want anyone else. If all Cas can give him is friendship and devotion, Dean will take it. He'll take anything as long as Cas stays by his side (except he never really does, does he?)

Then Cas confesses and Dean is shocked, left gaping and unable to find words because he never believed he would get to talk about this. He has so many things to say and all those words are stuck in his throat. There are just so many of them that he's chocking on it all, unable to get anything out except Cas' name. And then he realizes it's his last chance to say them. That even if Cas loves him back, Dean will never get another chance to say it, to live it.

Cas throws him to the side and that's it, it's over, Cas is disappearing before his very eyes and he still doesn't know that he's loved, that he was always loved. Dean's mouth is opened all along around the words he can't bring himself to say, that he's hidden for so long that he can't find them fast enough.

Cas is gone and Dean's words turn into sobs.

Harry: Allie

Harry: Allie!

Harry: AllIE!!

Harry: ALLIE!!!!!!!

Allie: What!?!?

Harry: we still on for the Area 51 raid?

“Anything is possible.”