i’ve sworn for years we’re connected. because every time you come i can sense it. see it in the dark, hear it a million miles away. not only love swirls between us; raw want drags us back together over and over again.
i feel my innocence slip away like a peaceful afternoon after a dreadful week.
we were so close yet so so far. like december and january are.
pure bliss is a high i never want to be sober of. i feel on top of the earth my feet have always been glued to. this must be that freedom the wanderers speak of.
i believe i was a brilliant poet lifetimes ago. but now the words fall from my lips all wrong.
i live for the in between with you. your possessive hand on my hip when we go out. your glances across a crowded room. when you bring me flowers on random tuesdays.
as the dust settles, all i see is a mutilated version of who i used to be.
when you come home and hold me, my anger and rage is soothed, and i am not a mad woman, but i am your happy wife.
my biggest dreams couldn’t match the life we’re going to build together.
i love my found family with every fiber of my being. they know the hues and textures of my soul, just as i know their’s.
my brothers are the only people on the planet i would dare to call mine.