i’ve only ever seen a man as temporary. but with you, i can see my entire life fall perfectly into place.
my brothers are the only people on the planet i would dare to call mine.
i miss you like orpheus misses eurydice.
i do believe it would have been easier to have you ripped from me. because you’re still here, but i’m watching you undo the threads at a snails pace.
”how did you fall in love with him?”
“a hundred days of longing.”
i wish that when i saw you for the first time, i would’ve run as fast as i could.
i am only consumed with my sadness when i am alone. this week my schedule is filled to the brim to avoid mere minutes alone with my mind.
i’ll pray to little orange bottles or stuffy waiting rooms if it meant you would just get better.
i have nothing to say anymore.
i miss you when i wake up, i miss you when im washing my hair, i miss you while i make breakfast, i miss you on the drive to work, i miss you while my boss drones on and on, i miss you while the birds chirp at lunch, i miss you when i get home, i miss you when i shower, i miss you when im in bed because you’re supposed to be there. but you’re not anymore.