February 3, 2025

may 12, 2025

i scream. i scream so loud. i scream so that my ears are ringing and my jaw hurts. i scream so that tears well up in my sad eyes. i scream my life away. for no one to hear a thing.

november 15, 2024

i only feel love from my older friends. only they know how to handle the deep sadness that comes along with me.

november 29, 2024

despite how hard i’ve wished and prayed you weren’t the one. you are. and i know i can never love you how you want me to.

you were my best friend and now you won’t even speak to me

before we walk into the banquet, i straighten his bow tie and when he looks at me his smile is pure sunshine 

i can only dream that common people will understand my complicated metaphors

february 4, 2025

i was born with half a soul. the other half is nestled in your chest.

april 29, 2025

i’ll pray to little orange bottles or stuffy waiting rooms if it meant you would just get better.

yesterday i read the notes on a life

that had just barely counted as one lived

the girl was far too tainted to be a wife

but she was a girl with much love to give

she talked like a true contrarian

eternally antithetical girl 

then her opinions flew with the herons

to a much kinder and comforting world

with time her smile faded into the gray

and she went aimlessly through the motions 

she joined other wretched souls yesterday

her eulogy murmured by the ocean

i suppose she always hung by a thread

i would’ve hung onto each word she said

november 20, 2024

i am so terribly sad. someone must be watching the movie of my life for a good cry.