i saw all the stars tonight. dozens of miles away from harsh city light. i can only dream to be as beautiful as them.
i was not given everything i asked for as a child. and that made me a good person as an adult.
years. years have been taken off of my life today. the fear invoked in me shall linger for the rest of my days.
i look forward to the darkness and the quiet. even though i am scared of it, that is the only time i feel something.
i could recognize your darkness a million miles away.
i think the prophecy is wrong. there is no way the universe would torture me this humorously.
may is here and i swear yesterday was only january 7th.
i miss you when i wake up, i miss you when im washing my hair, i miss you while i make breakfast, i miss you on the drive to work, i miss you while my boss drones on and on, i miss you while the birds chirp at lunch, i miss you when i get home, i miss you when i shower, i miss you when im in bed because you’re supposed to be there. but you’re not anymore.
i am angry all the time.
i never knew the concept of forgiveness would be so hard to grasp. but now i know that i can hold a grudge like a child. and in that melodrama i am proud.