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Is it an autistic thing to get really attached to people and want to be their friend even if they don’t really like you

I was thinking about one time I was really annoyed that someone kept talking to me and confused because I didn’t know them but they were probably nd and Infodumping, but it was about my special interest at the time so idk why I would have been annoyed

Then I remembered I was talking to someone I really wanted to be my friend, and I started thinking about how sometimes I’ll really want someone to be my friend and resent it when other people want to talk to me when I’m trying to talk to that person

Is that an autistic thing or am I just really weird?

This could be related to your autism, mainly because we can struggle with understanding the correct pathway to friendship.

This can lead to several erroneous thought patterns, including:

Anyone who is nice to me is a friend

Anyone who I deem a friend is a friend

Taking over a game/conversation etc is how I make them my friend

They are not allowed other friends or should not include them when they're with me

And many other bad thought patterns that come from logical thinking of how we think friendship should work. This nuanced dance around is not logical, so is ignored or bypassed.

Unfortunately, this can lead to us being labelled weird, bossy, rude, freak, r* word, and being ostracized before the ability to form a friendship can even occur.

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I think people need to learn that managing tasks on our own is a task in itself

"Put it in a diary" thats a task

"Use this app!" thats a task

"Make a list" thats also a task

Its why we start great with it but then stop after a while

What it's like to have conversations with someone who has Autism Spectrum Disorder and/or ADHD

(Spoken from my own experience)

I was diagnosed with ADHD when I was a kid, and ASD a few weeks ago.

I didn't have many friends because I was seen as annoying when I'd talk about my soexial intrests.

I try to control myself when I talk about something I'm incredibly interested in, but sometimes I do go too far.

I'd suggest letting an autistic person "talk it out" until they retire a subject. But from my experience I don't know when to quit.

So please when you would like to get an autistic person to retire a subject, DO NOT YELL AT THEM!

Spoken from personal experience, I was talking very intensely about a special intrest to a friend and without realizing it started yelling.

This friend decided to yell at me back, not in a mean way but to try to get me to be quitet.

I forget that other people have different opinions and that it's weird to get so passionate about certain topics.

That person yelling at me broke my self confidence and I immediately shut up and retracted from talking completely.

I knew if I started talking again I would start crying so I just didn't talk at all.

Sometimes it really feels like I'm an alien trying to understand when someone gets tired of me.

Is there anyone who gets what im saying?

I feel really alone.

Falling Through Dreams.

lain (june 2023)