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Hey guys i have a question-

Is it weird to want a new name (im ftm) despite the fact I have a gender neutral name that’s actually more masculine than feminine???

Edit: thanks for the support y’all- the reason I asked this is cuz I came out to my dad (sorta on accident) and he’s like ‘oh uh you want a new name? But I named you after a guy and your name swings both ways???’- it sorta made me question my name again-

But nonetheless he’s supportive of me and doesn’t mind me being his son :]

I feel the need to clarify that penetration doesn’t just mean sex, not that OP was implying that, just cause that’s what I immediately thought.

It can also mean using tampons, which I can’t do because of this, and I just found out I have pcos.

Lease take care of yourselves lovelies!!!!

I wonder how many ppl with vaginas deal with vaginal atrophy without being on HRT but don't know and were given shitty little dismissals or incorrect diagnoses from their doctors

Bc I learned what it was from trans men and knew that's what I was dealing with, had a doctor check and say "oh yeah" and put me on oral estrogen which fucked me up, the correct treatment is vaginal estrogen cream or suppositories

IF YOU HAVE PCOS OR ANY OTHER HORMONE BASED DX and you have a vagina and penetration HURTS, please ask your doctor about vaginal atrophy. This is not something I was ever told about with any of my diagnoses but it's affected me since puberty. I use cream now a couple times a week and penetration doesn't hurt anymore and I don't struggle with dryness. This is a common symptom of having higher T in your body whether it's natural or due to HRT. This does not only affect post menopausal people or trans people on HRT.

Also atrophy can become bad enough that you deal with chronic pain constantly without penetration. Pain anywhere isn't normal and pain in your vagina at all is certainly abnormal.

Ok so I have updated what I identify with

All of the above minus androgyne.

I have come to terms with being a demiboy

I also identify with the sub labels

- cupioromantic (meaning I don’t feel romantic attraction but crave a romantic relationship)

-bellusexual (being asexual but still being interested in certain sexual/physically intimate actions without feeling the actual sexual attraction)

Ummm hi? My name is Sonny (pronounced sunny) and I use all pronouns with a preference of they/them.

And uh these are the flags I associate with

- ace

- aro

- non-binary

- androgyne

- trans

- aroace

Howdy from your local demi boy, enby, he/they. I am your parent and you are safe here.

since the old version of this post was flagged for 'adult content'...

reblog this post if your account is a trans safe space or owned by a trans person!

along with that, reblog if your account is a trans non-binary spectrum safe space or owned by someone on the trans enby spectrum!

All about me thingy

I look quite masc today + I like my hair so i am quite pleased

having a british voice would make me so dysphoric

fuck tits.

trans masc and wlw solidarity

This is literally it. I feel that now I can sing and sing songs that I have always wanted too as well and for my voice to sound like me.

i am SO sick of the fearmongering around T and how it will affect your singing voice. i have been singing since i was a kid. i mean i have been singing as long as i could talk, i was once in an all girls choir, i was the youngest person in my churches choir when i was, like, 8. i never had much confidence in my voice because i sounded like a girl, which led me to singing less, which led me to sounding worse. before i started T i was SO worried that it would ruin my beautiful feminine singing voice.

but the difference is like night and day. i sound SO much better than i did pre-T. i can sing without hating myself. i sound like a man and i can sing

and yea maybe i’m no longer and 8 year old soprano. but i can sing and listen to myself and not want to die and isn’t that fucking wonderful?

Transmasc Joy headcanons part two because fuck it I say so.

- The team had a general consensus of "Oh wait what okay this is what we're doing now"

- Joy first started questioning his gender at a pretty young age but buried those thoughts until he joined the team.

- Said thoughts reappeared when Dallas pat him on the back after a heist and said "Good job, boys." Joy went to his van after the heist to relax and had a moment of "mmm boy :)"

- Joy had been super nervous to come out. The team pretty much saw him as "the hacker girl" so he didnt know how/if he could change their perception. And of course he was scared that he was gonna be kicked out.

- He told Bain first. He had heard Bain make jokes about his own transition in the past so he felt comfortable. He asked Bain to tell Dallas for him, as he was extremely nervous.

- Dallas was super supportive but tried to keep it hushed until Joy was comfy telling the whole team. He knows how sometimes people wanna keep their identity secret.

- He had sat down with Joy one day after a heist and just went "Okay how do I help you feel more comfortable at the Safehouse and with our team?"

- The nickname Dadlas was not dropped after this instance. In fact, Dallas could swear he hears it more often now.

- Naturally, Chains, Wolf, and Hox were the next to learn. Dallas got them all in a room and walked in with Joy like a parent bringing his kid to a board meeting.

- Joy was hella nervous cause these are some. Pretty scary guys.

- Wolf and Hoxton didn't know how to react, they knew Bain was also trans but they didn't really remember that often.

- I'd like to think Chains grew up in a household where he was taught "No matter what, you respect people if they respect you."

- So he was the first to speak up.

- "Alright, cool. Is there a new name you want us to use for you?"

- After the conversation, Wolf pulled Joy aside and went "Okay listen Hox and I fully support you we've just never been in this situation before so we don't know what to do."

- The garage gang learned next. Joy always felt comfy around Sydney, she just had the air of "do no harm but take no shit" so Joy felt at home around her.

- Rust was a little confused, but once Joy said "It just means I'm a guy now." He went "Oh okay." And went back to work.

- Houston immediately registered Joy as a little brother figured instead of a little sister and told him "If theres anything you need help with, let me know, we'll figure it out."

- Jiro and Jacket found out on accident.

- Jiro had been waiting for Joy outside his van and overheard a convo Joy was having with Bain about being scared to fully transition due to his circumstances.

- Jiro had done some research on the phrases he heard Joy use and just went "Wait is Joy not telling me something??" So thats when he had the aforementioned sit-down with Joy (see Trans Joy previous post)

- He was scared Joy would end up like Kento, but in a way he was sort of thankful. He considered Joy sort of a second chance, and he wasn't gonna lose this kid.

- Jacket found out when Dallas tasked him with finding Joy right before a heist.

- Joy had often stayed in his van purely because its where he felt the most comfortable (Also He's used to living out of his car but thats a set of headcanons for a different time)

- Jacket had opened the van and saw Joy in a pair of jeans and his binder, having just woken up and was still getting ready for the day.

- He kinda just shut the door but later Jacket gave him a thumbs up and hasnt been hostile so thats a win in Joy's book.

- Headcanon that Wick has an impeccable gaydar so he just knew.

-"I'm trans." "I fucking knew it."

- Sangres offered to throw a party when Joy came out to him.

- Joy had a moment of "Oh God how am I gonna pay for health insurance??" Because until now he never really needed it.

- Duke found him in his van worrying and he just sighed and went "Joy. We rob banks. Money isn't exactly an issue." "Oh shit yeah you're right."

- Hoxton and Clover physically dragged Joy out to go get better-fitting suits.

- Bain starts sending transtape to the Safehouse regularly because he doesn't want Joy wearing a binder during a heist.

- Joy programs his mask to display the trans colours during the month of June

- The gang doesn't go all out for Pride Month due to a lot of them being somewhat nervous to, but during June, if you look close enough, you can see that the masks of the Payday gang look a little more colourful (thanks to Sydney).

Also, random hc: Bain does his injections on his stomach and Joy does his on his thighs.

rambles

sometimes I think about how I used to hate the trans flag

it's an odd one, that hate. at the time it was mainly because I wanted to pass, be seen as cis, and not have anyone ask anything

I swore to myself college would be different, and that there noone would know I was trans.

thank fuck I didn't. thank hell I went to that pride event, met this and that person, was honest about what was going on, mentioned binding to this person, laughed about queer complexity with friends I would never have met otherwise, was open about my identity at every goddamn hands turn.

if you see this and you hate the flag, I get it. I really really do. I hope someday you love it too. It's gaudy and different and beautiful and hopeful.

also, we are everywhere. we are everywhere and people know about us and support us. the most unlikely places and most unassuming people will turn around and say they know someone who is trans too

this world is so geared against us. I know I am lucky. but if you know that you can, it's beautiful and mortifying and terrible and freeing to be seen and loved.

Low-key wanna start my own fansly....anyone wanna see a switch bottom trans-guy and his very lovely DTW (Domme Trans wife)

Love to be a toy for tgirls

Love to be a toy for tgirls who make me dominate and play with another tboy for her pleasure. Like live porn for her to direct and get off too.

Damn I need a lil tboy toy, it makes my wife happy

Unrelated to the Din Djarin post but omg last night was so good

Picture this, 2am and have been horny all day, my Domme Trans wife (DTW) saunters into the bedroom with an evil look on her face.

Was made to fuck my poor abused hole and rub my thick T-cock for an hour, all whiny and sweaty and begging for her to touch me as she rubs her gcock just out of my reach

Only when I've exhausted myself came three times and overstimulated my tight, wet hole. Did she finally touch me.

Pinned me down by my chubby boy thighs for what felt like hours as she pounded me. Didn't fall asleep until 4am and even then was woken up by her moaning as she pounded me in the morning again.

Let's just say my tight boy pussy is all used, abused and oozing thick girl cum, what a dream of a life I have being a free use toy for my DTW.

While I'm her favourite toy, she wants to expand her collection, I wonder who she'll make me play with next 😫😫♥️♥️🔥♥️♥️

My dominant trans wife just bought a Din Djarin helmet with a working torch and LEDs inside for *fun*

Boys, I'm living my nerdy mask-kink dream, I totally win at life.

Will update when both me and the helmet have been well and truly used and tested ;)

My dominant trans wife of 7 years had enough of my attitude yesterday, pinning me down on my stomach with a vibe under us so that every time she thrusted into me with her thick girl cock my poor abused lil Tcock was pressing and rubbing against it.

I don't know what's gotten into her lately, yesterday she was overstimulating and abusing my poor T-cock, today she's making me ride the bus home without underwear so she'll have easier access to abuse me as soon as I get home...

Ah woe is me to have a hot trans wife who abuses and uses my body daily.

(Side note: These are the texts I received while writing this post, I'm not sure if I'm more nervous or excited)

Many such cases

(Based off a meme that I can't find anymore but like FTM edition)

[ID: a drawn meme featuring a transition timeline. The first picture is of a pre-transition trans man who has long-ish hair and dead green eyes. The caption above says "Saddest, most dead inside girl you've ever seen" and that same trans man much further along in his transition who has eyes with spark, is very muscular, and has short hair. The caption above him reads "Absolute giga-chad of a man. An actual statue of david in real life." /END ID]

It's by Loren Cameron, a trans man, and is filled with photography (some nsfw just so you know, 18+.)

Link under the cut.

I read all of it in like 30 minutes max.

Has some kinda outdated language, but it was published 1996 so that's kinda expected lol.

It's free to read on the internet archive (god bless the internet archive, couldn't find it anywhere else!)

Internet Archive

Body Alchemy: Transsexual Portraits : Cameron, Loren : Free Download, Borrow, and Streaming : Internet Archive

Body Alchemy: Transsexual Portraits is a 1996 book collecting photographs and writing of Loren Cameron. It documents the process of transiti

Diary entry #17

Vent I guess

Ed warning and dysphoria and sh

I wish I could be normal about my weight. I'm overweight. If I looked like a guy then I think I could forgive it but I don't and know my curves are more visible everyday and I want to die!! /hj on that last part

The universe is cruel in the way that I can't lose weight unless I eat like triple digits (calorie wise) every day because I binge so fucking much. So I don't fit in normal or even ed communities online because I'm like that.

Nothing I have ever done has ever fixed my binging problem. I think it's a medicine side effect thing but my grandparents don't want me to change them. I don't know why.

When I was in my active ed phase I wanted to shrink to the point where my chest would become small enough to be male passing. That was the main reason. I know I wouldn't pass as male bc of my voice but I just wanted some control over my stupid life.

I feel like a hamster on a wheel, going nowhere. I can't go on T in my house because i would be quickly caught, so I have to move out but moving out is hard. I just want to be a guy and I don't understand why it's a problem.

I wish that there was a way to make my grandparents understand that this dysphoria will kill me one way or another. But I think they've already made their mind, there's nothing I can say. I could try to cut my breasts off and they would just think I'm more mentally ill and send me to the ward.

I could kill myself and they wouldn't wonder why for a second, they would think "oh she was just mentally ill." They don't listen to me and don't want to. I think me killing myself would be a better ending for them than me being trans and thriving, although they'd never admit it.

They aren't even bad people, they have a lot of flaws and this is one of them. A really, really bad flaw, but they really think being trans is evil.

Just ruminating here I guess

What the fuck is wrong with people. Personally I believe this is how those transmed trans guys are made; by excluding them because they are men. Not excusing them, I'm just saying this is how they are formed.

Sometimes I worry about going down that path, but I have a firm belief in "do whatever you want forever." I am staunchly anti transmed; it just excludes people and is kinda dumb in ways I don't have time to get into.

I hope to pass as a man, I just want to be some guy basically. I plan on getting top and bottom surgery, and going on T probably for the rest of my life. But I refuse to become either a transmed or a person who excludes trans men who pass really well.

Sorry this was really a ramble, hope I made sense. OP i hope you're doing alright today.

tried to vent in a trans space about how, as a trans man who’s been on T for a long time (over 7 years now), i have noticed that the more i pass as a man, the less welcomed i am in queer spaces unless i go out of my way to feminize myself. and how that sucks! and it’s isolating!!! and it feels horrible to see ppl who used to like you and be close to you drift further and further the more masculine (& therefore more comfortable in urself) u become…

only to get ppl replying to me and saying “well if you dressed more fem then ppl wouldn’t be intimidated by you. you signed up for this”

i’m sorry but i didnt sign up for social isolation when i transitioned, i signed up for gender euphoria and comfort in myself and my life. and i had hoped that the ppl in my life would be able to see how much joy that brings me and continue to love me.

Hey there! I’m here from the whole reddit disaster.

Lemme introduce myself: my name is August, I’m trans and go by he/him/it, I’m autistic, and I’m very cool

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I will talk about trans stuff and my special interests mostly. Thanks for reading, have a nice day!