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Hello, this is to my followers, those who visit my page and/or have requested.
I want to start off with an apology before I go into details. I’m sorry to those who have waited for their requests (a letter, imagine, etc.). I know it’s been going on for at least the past two years now. Where I have been on and off on here and I don’t think that’s fair to anyone.
When I started this account, I was in a pretty good place mentally and physically. Despite the pandemic I was keeping myself busy and was ready to start writing and finally was confident enough to share my work.
But then life kinda threw me a curve ball and some things happened not long after. (Perfect timing right) I’ve been constantly pushing down emotions and feelings that rose up from these situations. And every time I thought it was getting better something else happened.
This is the reason for my inconsistency. I would just steer clear from any social media for awhile. The stress of everything and the guilt (from falling behind on my writing) made me just want to isolate myself for a time. But isolating myself, my feelings, and trying to ignore everything obviously didn’t help.
Lately I haven’t been feeling great physically. I usually don’t when I’m stressed and it affects me in different ways. And I finally broke down yesterday and today. And I decided I cannot keep dealing with it in this way. I wanna work on it. I don’t want these bad habits to stay and I miss feeling like myself. I miss being me. I don’t know if that makes sense.
I let a lot of it build up to the point where I would explode at random times. How I Stay Sane: My Mental Hygiene Routine (A video on YouTube made by Elizabeth Filips) puts it perfectly into words how it feels.
I’m not going to stop this account. I have written things that I want to post. I’m just reworking on my confidence. I’ve decided not to write new requests for awhile. I’m going to work on the ones that I have, before this post. People may still request but please understand that it will take me awhile to finish the ones I already have. And when they are finished and I’m ready to “open up shop” again to more, than I will begin those as well.
I also want to say thank you to the lovely people that have been so kind on here. Everyone that requests has just been so nice and I appreciate your patience. I really really do. And just anyone who has left kind messages and has followed my account. You are amazing.
Once again I apologize to those who have waited so long. I should have addressed this long ago.
Thank you, and I hope you all have a wonderful day/evening.
I’ll see you soon ya crazies💚