Jihyun Kim - Blog Posts

I think not nearly enough people comprehend just how messed up Rika's and V's relationships truly was, actually. It is so easy to get hyperfocused on the big climax of their toxic obsession: the cult, the physical violence, and the secrets. But, like... You ever actually sit down and think about the sheer fact that V looked at Rika: a hurt, traumatized girl, terrified of being her true self, desperate for love she didn't even have a clear idea of in her own mind, safe for some very vague feeling she deemed to be 'love', and... He saw beauty in it. He was never malicious about it, nor did he even realize it fully, not until MC came into his life and pushed him into reevaluating his own worth as well as his views on what love truly is. But, at the time, he saw all that hidden pain and trauma in her, and he saw beauty in it. He was intrigued by it. It fascinated him. He desired to transform it into something even more stunning with his own two hands, analogous to an artist fixing his next big masterpiece. And she was his masterpiece. One he would paint and bend and mold into something he knew he wanted to achieve. It wasn't even a want, it was a craving. Not really knowing that he was just so racked with guilt and self-hatred after his mother's death, that he was merely trying to prove himself to no one but his own troubled and scared mind. To prove to himself that he could be an artist, and that he really could love like the sun. That he could save someone this time around, instead of losing them. Because, truth is, he could never be an artist, not in the way his soul truly longed for.

Rika was both his muse and his creation at the same time.

That's why he never encouraged her to get the help she desperately needed if she didn't want to do it herself. That's why he never got involved in any extreme ways until it became far too difficult for him to handle. That's why he told her time and time again that she was beautiful and perfect just the way she is, even when she herself would doubt and be deeply disturbed by his eager willingness to sink into the deepest of lows for her.

In a way, neither of them truly knew each other. It's a fact that they cared for each other at one point in time. But they didn't see each other as equal individuals to grow and change alongside. For Rika, V was her sun she adored and loathed all the same. He was not a person, he was just an anchor that kept her steady and a cruel reminder of all she could never be. For V, Rika was his canvas to pour his locked away feelings onto. She was not a person, she was a living proof of his ability to create and love in a way he desperately craved.

And in the end, that destroyed and scarred both of them. Not only them, but also many completely innocent individuals who were caught in the crossfire.

What a big, complicated, and horrible mess these two are.

MYSTIC MESSENGER

V Jihyun Kim

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707 Luciel/Saeyoung

Don’t cry, I’m here. — Saeyoung x fem! reader

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Yoosung Kim

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Jumin Han

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Jaehee Kang

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‘Unknown’ Saeran/Ray

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Hyun ‘Zen’ Ryu

Zen x reader (gn) — First kiss.

(A/N) : Sorry, will not be writing for Rika. I’m not too familiar with her character.

Vanderwood's design is complete! (Mixed! Messenger AU)

a bit of Yoosung!

HERE THEY ARE!

Pixel art Saeransssss (Perhaps the pictures may be blurry at first glance, but when you open the picture, everything will change very much! ❤️)

HCs for when MC finds out that V is afraid of spiders? (Just a personal HC of mine but I hope it’s mundane enough to roll with)

Thanks for requesting, Anon!! And don’t worry, your request is fine! 

-V was alone…

-You were out running errands. 

-He was sitting in the living room going through his photos deciding which ones to sell and which ones to keep around for himself..

-He picked up a photo.

-What he saw horrified him.

-There was a spider on top of the photo of the blue sky… 

-It was rapidly approaching his fingers.. 

-He shrieked. 

-Yes…

-Shreiked.. 

-His scream was super girly btw

-At this point, you were just outside the door..

-You heard him. 

-You thought something terrible had happened. 

-You rushed into the living room to see V standing on a chair visibly terrified.

-”V, What’s wrong?” You asked. 

-”He pointed to the floor.

-”THERE’S A SPIDER”

-You rolled your eyes and grabbed a tissue squishing the bug.

-”There, it’s dead, relax.”

-He breathed a sigh of relief before returning to what he was doing.

yo! it’s currently 3am where i’m at but i just wanted to ask if you could do an rfa + minor trio (or just vandy idrc) with an mc who has tourettes? i’ve never seen anyone do it :( thx !

Thank you for requesting, Anon!! I don’t really know how I feel about this since I don’t know much about tourettes… I don’t want to offend anyone by writing something wrong or anything… but I’ll do it anyway..  I also had to do a bit of reading to get a general idea of what happens…. I really hope this isn’t offensive to anyone!!!

Yoosung

-The first time you had a tic in front of him, you swore.

-He was shocked.

-You hadn’t ever sworn before

-”MC, Is something wrong?” he asked, timidly.

-You shook your head.

-”I have tourettes, I can’t control it.” 

-He didn’t know what that meant, so you explained it to him

-After your explanation, he understood. 

-He never ever judged you for it!!

Zen

-The first time you had a tic in front of him, you slapped your thigh a few times

-He didn’t know what was going on

-”Mc, Don’t do that, you’ll hurt yourself” He said, assuming you were trying to hurt yourself. 

-Once you had regained control you explained.

-”I have tourettes, I can’t control it” 

-He understood immediately

-He didn’t judge you for it.

Jumin

-The first time you had a tic in front of him, you made a vulgar gesture.

-What was worse, was, you were at dinner with Jumin’s father.

-”MC, Don’t do that in front of my father!” Jumin scolded, not realizing that you couldn’t do anything about it. 

-”I’m sorry, I have tourettes” you said, looking away, embarrassed

-Jumin’s eyes widened.

-”I didn’t realize, I’m so sorry for scolding you, MC.” He said.

-If anyone ever made a mean comment about your tourettes, he’d be the first one to defend you.

Jaehee

-The first time you had a tic in front of her, you made a loud “Uh” sound.

-This caught her off guard. 

-She was working when you had done that. 

-She understood what it was caused by though. 

-She knew some of the signs and kind of knew beforehand.

-She picked up her scattered papers and pretended like nothing happened.

-She would never judge you for anything you couldn’t control!

Seven

-The first time you had a tic in front of him, you were having a conversation, when you suddenly yelled.

-He didn’t understand why until you told him.

-He did research about it too!!

-And of course he would try to joke around with you about it to lighten the mood! 

-If you didn’t like it, he’d stop, 

-He didn’t judge you even a little bit for it.

Saeran

-The first time you had a tic in front of him, you swore.

-He wasn’t bothered by the swear 

-But he was bothered that you did it in front of Savior.

-”HOW DARE YOU SPEAK TO SAVIOR THAT WAY!!”

-He wouldn’t listen to you no matter what you said...

-He judged you for it... 

(I’m so sorry if you like Saeran or were offended by that)

V

-The first time you had a tic in front of him, you suddenly started jumping.

-He was confused.

-”MC, Why are you jumping?” He asked calmly.

-You regained control then replied.

-”It’s a tic, sorry.. I have touretttes” 

-He understood completely and was honestly kind of interested in what happened.

-it didn’t change his love for you though!!

Vanderwood

-The first time you had a tic in front of him, you were having a normal conversation, when you repeated yourself a few times.

-”MC, You don’t have to repeat yourself, I heard you” He snapped.

-You looked down, embarrassed. 

-”I have tourette syndrome, I can’t control it, sorry” 

-He felt guilty. that he snapped at you and gave you a hug.

-”It’s okay, MC, I understand.” He said.

-If anyone were to say anything demeaning about your tics, he would probably kill them…He would defend you whenever you needed it!

RFA + Minor Trio As Songs

I just wanted to do this for fun I don’t know why... lol oh and btw these are mostly rock since that’s all I ever listen to XD... 

Yoosung

-Kryptonite (3 Doors Down)

Jumin Han

-I do it all the time (IDKHBTFM)

Jaehee

Loud (fuck it) (Motionless In White)

Zen

-Eros And Apollo (Studio Killers)

Seven

-Error (GARNiDELiA)

(ENG COVER)

...and... I’ll include a second one..

-Moonlight Densetsu.... I can totally see this dude cosplaying as Sailor Moon or something

V

-Warhol (Palaye Royale) (that one is kind of weak tbh... lol) 

Saeran

-The Devil Within (Digital Daggers)

Vanderwood

-Spies (Coldplay)

Bonus... (you might hate me for this one lol)

Rika

-MANTRA (Bring Me the Horizon) 

In honor of V’s after ending release, have some wedding photos because I’m a sap and I love weddings.

Edit: whoops I woke in the dead of night and realized I forgot the ring

Requests are open lmao

Mysme, mlqc, or tot related :)

Edit: I think I forgot to mention it's art requests 👁👄👁

I think some of u thought it was writing requests and I'm so sry. I'll try to draw what's possible from them tho.

Happy birthday to my boy V!🎉🎉

Have I told anyone just how much I love this bean?😳

Ok so we don't talk enough about jihyun's beauty and that makes me mad :(

So here have this jihyun for today :D

Unpopular opinion: drawing on phone is a lot easier :)

A friend and I have an RP in which Jumin and V went to a zoo as kids with V's mom, and a camel spit on Jumin.

God guess who's finally done

Sorry this took me a while I'm still getting used to digital art :')

Poor baby juju getting spitted on

Have these cute babies I adopted

They having fun 🥺💞

Also idk I was so bored so I made this sksksksks I wanna draw a lot of things about their childhood

PLZ GIVE ME IDEAS

Day thirty one/ halloween

I have nothing to say honestly 👁👄👁

(22/11/2020)

Day twenty eight/ bad ending

I literally know nothing about this propmt

I haven't even played this part yet

Well, V's death is painful for me so it's a bad ending

(28/10/2020)

Day twenty six/ genderbent

Did the jumin one 7 months ago :)

They both look weird lol

(26/10/2020)

Day twenty two/ forgive

Is this what they meant?

Lmao idk I haven't played that part yet

Anyways, juju forgives v uwu

(22/10/2020)

Day twenty one/ v x mc/dance

So yeah as I told you, many messy sketches :)

I will try drawing a better one if I have time qwq

(21/10/2020)

Day twenty/ games

Lmao someone has probably done this before

Welp, here ya go

(20/10/2020)

Day eighteen/ injury

Welp I think they should've switches places?

Or not lmao

Anyways this is a very messy sketch :)

(18/10/2020)

Day five/ Jumin's birthday

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUJU 🥳💜

I love so much qwq

V Edit

Part two of my Mystic Edit series. || Click for better quality.