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FUCKKKK he wants to be with crowley so desperately but REALLY BELIEVES HE CAN CHANGE HEAVEN BURSTS INTO TEARS FALLS TO THE GROUND ROLLS AROUND
There's something about the way Aziraphale starts to wrap his arms around Crowley- how he touches his shoulders and back- about how he just so clearly didn't want to let Crowley go, but was too afraid to commit to the kiss fully because six thousand years of awkward pining and a romance literally forbidden by Heaven/Hell will do that to you. And then when the kiss ends Aziraphale can't help but sob a little because he knows what choice he made and is making and he knows he chose not to be with Crowley, not the other way around.
He knows that when the kiss ends and Crowley takes a step back that it's over- that they are over. He made a choice and I think he knows he made the wrong one, even if he can't admit it yet. The way he so clearly wanted to hold onto Crowley but didn't- the way he hesitated- says so much.
I am an empty husk of a man.