Despair - Blog Posts

Laughter feels good for about 3 seconds.

Then melancholy quickly plummets into despair and longing.

Must ignore

Must push back

d o n t t h i n k a b o u t i t

i was too lazy to give this poor man his jacket and pants, but it turned out pretty cool, what do you think ?

Has me

Liking breasts remained my personality trait throughout my life?

I’ve really gotta change things.

I’m gonna be more mature.

I have the victorious strategy for you chuds, but it requires complete muttization in society to extreme, we’re negative el monstro race. Everyone has to be mutt to horrible degree but especially potent indian genes need to increadr and african genes. The only way to win, is indeed to destroy aryan dream. I am sorry but this is the way, my brother.

I have Monokuma plushie, since you’ve mentioned Despair.

@dorenarox

Earlier I had a thought. Which is always a bad thing!

There was something in my past that made me feel very much betrayed and confused, and years later I got to hear how it didn't even matter to someone else who was also involved in this.

Which led me to wonder if I would be different if humans hadn't ruined me.

Sometimes I sit in public staring off into the void thinking about my transphobic father

Other times, usually immediately after, I see shit like this and start laughing so hard I attract unwanted stares in the coffee shop:

It’s all about balance

So I found out my old fan insta account got hacked and apparently, I used my old secondary school gamil account which has since been deleted. NOT ONLY THAT, but I deleted my recovery gmail account (my main gmail) some time ago and I didn't think this through. so now my recovery gmail has since been permanently deleted with no way of recovery.

oh, and did I mention I NEVER did add a recovery phone number too wow yes so cool

I miss that account..it was one of my best memories in secondary school 😭😭😭 when I actually liked doing what I wanna do. My Picsart ahh edits :(

He wondered if you could be exhausted without knowing it, if hope could be lost not all at once but could slip away gradually, day by day, and vanish before you ever realized.

The Bane chronicles, Cassandra Clare

‘Despair’

there is SOMETHING about getting the chance to look into the future - and all you see is your most favourite person ever, all hopeless, living somewhere in a run down motel, dirty and alone. Without you around.......

What could have even happened?

Why did this even happen??????

Julio's journal entry 15

The "Greed Despair"

"Envy Despair" could refer to a psychological state of feeling both envy and despair, which is characterized by a combination of the two emotional states. Envy is the desire for something that someone else has, while despair is a feeling of hopelessness and helplessness. When someone experiences these two emotions simultaneously, it can result in feelings of envy and despair.

Here are some possible signs that someone may be experiencing "envy despair":

1. Feeling jealous of others: Someone experiencing "envy despair" may feel envious of others who have things that they lack, such as a successful career, a good relationship, or material possessions.

2. Depression: "Envy despair" can lead to depression, which is a serious medical condition characterized by feelings of sadness, hopelessness, and worthlessness.

3. Lack of motivation: Someone experiencing "envy despair" may struggle with motivation and find it difficult to see the positive side of things. This can result in a sense of helplessness and hopelessness.

4. Feeling inadequate: "Envy despair" can lead to feelings of inadequacy, as someone may feel that they will never be able to achieve what others have. This can manifest as a lack of confidence and self-esteem.

It's important to note that "envy despair" can be a complex and debilitating combination of emotions. If you or someone you know is experiencing these feelings, it may be beneficial to seek out professional help from a therapist or counselor to work through the underlying causes and develop coping strategies.

Moira overwatch

Mouth sucks but who cares

They shut down tiktok... they did it... wtf

just finished princess tutu. in a deep state of depression and heartache. no one talk to me unless it’s about how fakir and duck actually lived a very happy life as two humans in love

Running With Scissors - Daniel Andersson

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Sonnet Macabre by Theodore Wratislaw

I love you for the grief that lurks within

Your languid spirit, and because you wear

Corruption with a vague and childish air,

And with your beauty know the depths of sin;

Because shame cuts and holds you like a gin,

And virtue dies in you slain by despair,

Since evil has you tangled in its snare

And triumphs on the soul good cannot win.

I love you since you know remorse and tears,

And in your troubled loveliness appears

The spot of ancient crimes that writhe and hiss:

I love you for your hands that calm and bless,

The perfume of your sad and slow caress,

The avid poison of your subtle kiss.

What am I even supposed to do now? Cry???

Ive been doing reblog #s wrong this WHOLE TIME

for those of you who dont know me hi hello im Alo and I am not familiar with tumblr yet so BARE WITH ME

Wip

Depths Of Mind part 5 coming soon!

NOOOOOOO I WON BUT AT WHAT COST!!! MY BOOBOOBEAR NOOOOOOO

HI BOOBOOBEAR HEHEHEEHEEE :]!!!!!

HI BUTTERCUP 💜

consider me attacked, especially by this font you used 😵‍💫

Despair

The ground will shatter, the heavens will bleed,

in darkness and ruin, despair takes the lead.

No dawn will follow, no sun to arise,

only silence remains beneath empty skies.

by Weltenasche.

Thinking About Sin

I'm a big fan of combining the Orthodox eight deadly thoughts with the Catholic seven deadly sins: splitting sloth back into despair (tristitia) and apathy (acedia) [though I like to call this one sloth still], keeping envy, but ditching vainglory.

SLOTH and DESPAIR

While the end result of laziness and despair are effectively the same from the sinner side (you don't do things), the means of temptation are the exact opposite.

Contemplate what a being, say a demon, would be that invites you into sloth: a maid, the latest techno-fad, an overly doting parent. Someone who says, "Let me take care of that," which eventually mutates into a nasty little brain-imp whispering, "Let someone else take care of it." This obviously overlaps with several of the other sins.

Contrast despair, who is here to F*** YOU UP. It is here to break you with a never-ending torrent of misfortune, a constant parade of life kicking you in the teeth. This could also have the exact opposite effect, spurring someone into wrath.

The overlapping area would be someone claiming to protect you from the big scary world, but sloth says "Just don't look," while despair grabs you with both hand and slams your face into the worst of it. "Look at it! Look at this s***!"

In short, despair is clear counterpart to wrath (and both lead toward violence), but apathy/laziness feels disconnected from it and has more in common with pride and envy.

ENVY the Serpent's Glare

The sin of envy sits at the intersection of pride, wrath, and greed. This position, I feel, warrants its inclusion as a designation of category of sin; it's so common, that it seems more than just the sum of its parts, but a natural point. It's like the color green: once viewed as merely shades of blue, but it seems so obvious now that it never should have been. Some even claim envy is the deadliest of the sins, beating out even pride.

PRIDE, VAINGLORY, and VANITY the Devil's Three Heads

Vainglory and vanity just seem like archaic ideas; subdivisions of a theme that were rightfully reorganized. Boasting and self-obsession hardly feel out of place being dubbed pride and the means of temptation would be the same: just someone who's adhered their lips to your rear.

Having them separate seems as absurd to me as splitting gluttony into different sins. Though, I'm not a religious person, so my thoughts here are more narrative (fantasy writing, that is to say) than moral.

Tit for tat.

Rising for rising.

13x04: where am I? What is this place?

Immediately after 15x18: I know this place. I made my choice. I saved Dean.

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Cas promised he wouldn’t look back, but he tried to imagine Dean behind him. Reaching a hand to his shoulder, Cas placed a mark like he did to Dean. It would remind him of why he came. Maybe it would feel like Dean was here with him in this place, even in the smallest way.

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