Bucky Barnes X Avenger!reader - Blog Posts

YES THE FUCK IT IS BABY!!!!!!

get ready for me to be insufferable again. i’d say and for me to be back in my bucky phase, but i never left 😄

miss you

pairing: bucky barnes x fem!avenger!reader

summary: you hated it. you hated the 21st century. you hated how different everything was. you hated how different your life was. you missed the brooklyn apartment you shared with him. you missed your life with him and how happy it made you. now you didn't know how to act around each other. you didn't know what to say but you'd had enough. you missed him

warnings: one use of y/n, slight angst and fluff <3

wc: 729

You had good days and bad days. This week had been filled with bad days. You stayed in your room, the only person you allowed in was your brother. He was your only comfort. Everything was different. Everyone - even Natasha and Tony - were terrified of you. I mean, you did make it very difficult for people to get to know you. Opening up was something you didn't want to do. You were still trying to remember who you were. Hydra had taken your past away from you just like they had done with Bucky.

Bucky Barnes. Bucky your brother's best friend. Bucky the boy you had a crush on since you were little. Bucky the man who told you he loved you on your 20th birthday in 1939. Bucky the man you loved more than anything. Bucky the man you no longer know how to talk to. Bucky the man you still love deeply but don't know how to act around.

You missed him. You were sick of him avoiding you. You were sick of avoiding him. Steve had mentioned that he hates it too. He hates not knowing what to say or how to act. He misses you.

In the '40s, on your bad days, you'd go straight to Bucky. He was the only person you wanted to be around. That hadn't changed. The only person you wanted was him. You felt that now, alone in your room, more than ever.

With a sigh, you got up and moved to leave your room, not caring that you were only in a black tank top, no bra and red and black flannel pyjama bottoms. You walked through the living room where the avengers sat. It was Peter's movie night. He'd been talking about it for weeks. He was so excited. "Miss Rogers!" The teenager beamed. "Are you--"

"No" You answered blankly as you passed, walking barefoot down the hall towards his room. Peter's faltered a little as you walked away. "She's had a bad week. Don't take it personally. She's been like that with me for days." Steve reassured him with a sigh, watching his sister leave.

You didn't stop when you reached his door. You just pushed it open. He was sitting on his bed reading. You still got butterflies when he looked up at you. "What are you doing?" Bucky asked, slightly startled as he put his book down beside him.

"I don't know what to say to you or how to act around you but I miss you. I know that. I hate everyone but you. It's always been that way. I still can't remember everything but I can remember that. I hate everyone but you and Steve. I hate everyone but you" You ranted. Bucky opened his mouth to say something but you didn't let him. "I love you, James. That hasn't changed."

It was silent as you moved towards his bed and got in beside him. He said nothing as you pulled the duvet over your head the same way you used to. It's the only way you could sleep. He sat and stared at where you laid, processing everything you had just said. A small smile tugged at his lips as he laid down beside you.

"Doll" He whispered, unsure of if you'd fallen asleep. Slowly, you took the duvet from your face and turned to look at him. Tears filled your eyes when you saw his smile. He was smiling at you in the same way he used to. He was smiling at you in the loving way that was meant only for you. It was Bucky. Your Bucky.

You smiled back as he pulled you into him. You wrapped your arms tightly around him as if he were going to disappear. "I've missed you" He whispered against your hair. "I love you, Y/n. That hasn't changed"