The Way Many Self-proclaimed Disability Activists On Twitter Automatically And Without Even Thinking

chat ur favorite sigma has been on that grind recently.. heh.. i have not had ttime to do. Anything. dies.

more vent below the cut, see warnings

The passive suicidal ideation that comes with having a physical disability is hard. I'm sure I'm not the only person who feels this way. I grew up with an ever-increasing pain tolerance due to my condition to the point where ripping nails from my nailbeds became Just One of My Habits, because it hurt less than my condition, and having my nailbed be deformed anyways before that habit formed certainly didn't help. I was the kid who always tried in sports, even if I was never athletic. I was the kid who got an A's, even when going to school was exhausting and painful and, to be honest, I was and still am really convinced that my inherent worth is attributed to what work I can produce. In all the jobs I've worked, I've done what I could, even if it wasn't...Enough. In moment like these, where my head is clouded with exhaustion and I lay in bed, in too much pain to do anything but tap my achey and tingly fingers on a keyboard as every movement sends sharp stinging pain up and down my entire arm region and drips down into my torso, and I have to get all my work done, but I can't. Think. I can't. Move. I feel like I'm an old cat, just waiting to die, except I'm a young adult human being who just wants the pain to be over. It'll never be over. This isn't to say I'm actively suicidal. I'm not- At least not anymore. Just living in a body that is in agony all the time gets hard. Really hard. And I start to wonder and think about how good I would feel if I could just slip into a sleep and not have to wake up to the pain, and the exhaustion, and the lack of limb functionality, and the fainting, and the falling, and the humiliation, and the shame- And I sometimes wish I could die, before everyone realizes how much of a disappointment I am because of this. I can't work up to the same par as everybody else can, even though I manage to get everything done up to a very good quality, it take some about 4x longer to do it compared to an able-bodied person. oinfdgionfdnndndnnnfvfn

Alr no one is gonna talk about this so i guess i will, even if i really do not want to bring this sort of topic onto my account.

Long long ass post so (i’m a Proshipper AND ANTI-radqueer. rant ahead)

As a proshipper who has been harmed by "pro-c radqueers" (and questioned joining the community for a while for reasons i will also discuss later on) It is extremely difficult for me to interact with fellow Anti-rqs (blogs or just people) because of the idea that all proshippers are also rq.

I am not here to start discourse, Just to spread the word around that while we may disagree on shipping and fiction, please know that many proshippers do not want any of the true harm that rqs push onto others!! The proship community has been here far far longer than them, we have unfortunately had to deal with becoming their scapegoat over time and i would love for others to recognize that anti-rq proshippers exist, But interacting with the community makes it feel as though one can "only be on [the actual irl danger] side if you're into [fictional characters doing something i do not like] thing" , it makes it very easy for some proshippers to fall into the trap, !!!!Radqueers depend on others’ exclusionism to take advantage and bring others into their community!!!!!

Yes, many Rqs are proshippers, but proshippers are not all inherently rq!!! Kind of like a squares and rectangles situation.

all these young, 'conservative-in-a-progressive-hat' antis spewing garden-variety death threats over pixels is sending me, lmao.

actively hating on someone who ships something different than you? doxxing and stalking? trying to make others conform?

sorry bro/sis, having a " toddler in the sandbox/i said i get to decide others' morality and trauma responses " moment is cringe asf.

oh, and --- let us know when you've got better comebacks.

The death of creativity lives strong within many antis, in their choices, creations, and threats.

yknow qhat i love seeing? people with the "scary" or "mean" or "evil" disorders getting silly with it. thats definitely destigmatizing it /srs

like, if audhd people get to joke around about their disorders, not always treat it with an absurd amount of weight, so does everyone else. i love you aspd people who make jokes about your disorder, you deserve to do that without being called an edgy teen. i love you npd people make memes about it. i love you scary people who get to destigmatize your disorders by laughing.

you're immune from ALL reblog bait now

shota so gnc they think hes a loli.. i repeat...

For my fellow proselfshippers who have been victims of abuse:

💜 Your F/O believes you. They're there whenever you need someone to confide on and they know how much those experiences have hurt and changed you. They'll always be your biggest supporter and caretaker

⭐ Your F/O doesn't judge your triggers or boundaries. They'll always do everything in their power to make your life as comfortable and safe as possible. They want their presence to be an entirely safe and loving space for you

💜 Your F/O will do everything in their power to take good care of you. They'll make sure to keep an eye on you and bring you some water or food when you haven't had any in a while. They'll ask you to help them out with something if they notice you're starting to overthinking or if you just need to keep your hands busy

⭐ Your F/O knows your trauma doesn't make you broken or lesser than. They'll never see you as weak for everything you've survived and pushed through, even if it has changed how your mind functions, they know you're a strong and brave person!

💜 Your F/O will always choose you. No matter who was behind the hurtful things/actions you've had to deal with, you will always be their love and their priority. Any ties to the folks who've wronged you are immediately gone, like they never existed in the first place, that way you and your F/O will go through your healing journey peacefully

⭐ Your F/O supports you and your coping mechanisms. Of course, they won't let things get to the point where you're hurting or neglecting yourself... However, they'll always cheer you on when you show them the things that make you smile, no matter how small or "silly" you may think it is

💜 Your F/O knows it wasn't your fault. They're happy to remind you that you did the best you could in the situation you were in, and that they're proud of you for surviving it. They'll never hold such hurtful things against you or use it as a way to make you upset. They care about you more than they could ever put into words

⭐ Your F/O loves you. They're proud of everything you accomplish every single day; from getting out of bed to tackling a project you've been scared to face, all of it is important and meaningful in its own way! You can always count on them, through every step of the way

selfshippers who have chronic pain!

imagine your doting f/o(s) taking care of you during a flare up! giving you your meds, helping you brush your hair, making sure you have everything you need before settling in with you.

if you want a distraction from the pain, they'll tell you about their day, make small talk, put on your favorite tv show, whatever you want!

they'll make dinner for you (or order something if they can't cook), soothe you through your pain, cuddling and rocking you back and forth, letting you cry into their shirt, etc.

just.. doting f/os comforting you <333