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He left

He did exactly he said he will never do. He left too. He told me he is tired of me constantly crying and being 'filmy'. I asked him to leave he did and he blamed me for that he said that he is leaving because I told him to. What the fuck could I do? He was tried of me.

“Teach me how to feel this skin without wanting to tear it from my bones.”

- Skin and Bones

I just want to be beautiful

Reblog if your SICK of these things:

FAT thighs

FAT stomach

FAT arms

FAT face

FAT hands

FAT calves

FAT knees

FAT hips

FAT EVERYTHING. 

I just want to be skinny…

Torn between slicing myself to death and getting better.

So you’re confused because I took it personally? Bitch yeah I took it personally. I stayed, I was always there, I was your best friend. And you just threw me to the curb when someone better came along? Yeah I took it personally, because I never would’ve done that to you.

✨this✨

Relatable

Honestly sometimes I miss what the self harm tag on tumblr used to be. It was always my way of keeping myself from cutting. Looking at pictures of self harm injuries somehow took that urge away.

My brain needs to shut up shut up shut up. I want to smash it until it stops

Stop guilt tripping the suicidal

People need to stop guilt tripping suicidal people. We feel enough guilt from our brain telling us what pieces of shit we are. Guilting us by saying we’re going to cause heart ache to those around us is unproductive. Instead of wanting me to stay alive due to your selfish reasons try and help me stay alive for myself. Just like cancer is part of the body attacking itself mental illness is the brain attacking the body and most of us who are suicidal or end up going through with it didn’t do so willingly. We lost a battle with our own brain. Please be kind and careful when talking to suicidal people like we try and be kind and careful to not hurt you with our feelings. We don’t want to hurt others. We are fighting within ourselves whether to release ourselves from such horrible pain or continue trotting on for the sake of others. We try our hardest. We’re not all successful. And while it’s heartbreaking when someone loses a battle to depression it isn’t their will or desire to hurt others. It’s this yearning to finally find inner peace, and it’s the body’s way of obtaining it.