Xxsadist0nexx - Not Bad, Just The Worst ;)

Yeepp

Anyone else feel like they’re just procrastinating their suicide

nobody fucking cares about me and i don't know what i'm holding on for

Yeah bro, I'm totally good! My heart just hurts, like all the time, ya know?

Torn between slicing myself to death and getting better.

This.

Everybody thinks I’m so happy.

And I’m like : « Ok, but I won’t show you my arms and my thighs. You won’t see me crying the whole night and fall asleep at 4am. Neither when I can’t breathe because of my anxiety. Neither when I go to the toilets to cry. Neither when I have a binge eating episode. Or when I throw up in the toilets. Neither when I put a fake smile on my face when I have to meet people. Neither when I wake up and think about dying. You will never see this part of me. »

(':

“No one has realized how unhappy I am…they haven’t noticed the dark inside my eyes”

- the suicide effect

I relapsed a few days back. I've been crying for weeks I can't take it anymore. It's so damn hard. It's like I'm in peices and a shredder is shredding them.

I hit an artery and that shit was apparently crazy I just woke up, but I can't move my left hand or fingers and need surgery I guess that's what I get.