Overestimating How Much You Mean To Someone Really Fucks You In The Head

Staying clean is lame i want to relapse every single day.

I am splitting so hard that I'd happily kill the person I am splitting on 💕

Luckily for them, they're a stranger on the internet.

im doing it again. i can feel it.

i'm much too excited anytime i get a notification. and then hit with a disappointment so intense that it's crippling when i realize it's not you.

i'm starting to think that the void in my chest of wanting to be understood is never going to be actually properly filled in. just sort of painted over in an attempt to conceal the big gaping wound of a hole in the wall like how landlords do to shitty apartments.

i don't know why i choose to spend my time here. waiting for others who aren't waiting for me. hoping that in every stranger i meet, there is someone who will really get me and understand the things that go on inside my brain.

so how do i earn money while rotting in bed?

I wanna kms fr.

Whenever I get horny nowadays I just start hitting my head with my fist over and over

Are any of my emotions actually valid…? They all seem so unreasonable. I cant tell apart my genuine reaction from my mood disorder

Might fuck around and develop a parasocial one sided relationship with one of my new mutuals because we dont talk and I shake like a scared chihuahua when I try to talk to them, it's all in my head

Tell you what, being constantly misunderstood your whoooole life really makes it hard not to just be the awful, angry person they already assume you are.

"playing with my toys" and the toys are concepts

part of my masculine charm is that i'm completely insane