Staying Clean Is Lame I Want To Relapse Every Single Day.

Dr Ignoreitandhopeitgoesaway does make some good points

i think the worst thing about abled people is that even if you explain your perspective as a disabled person, dismantle common ableist narratives, correct misinformation and do all that work. they're still liable to backslide at any point. "but it's inevitable that most people are going to think or say [ableist thing]." their constant exposure to ableism isn't mitigated by having a disabled person to give a fuck about because they're ultimately not affected themselves. and it's hard being the only one in the room aware of the constant, relentless barrage of ableism that exists as a backdrop for our society. so they want to justify it to you. "yes i know this hurts you but you have to admit most people aren't going to accommodate this". they want you, the disabled person, to absolve them of whatever common ableist thing they want to do. maybe it's saying the r slur or being dismissive about someone masking when sick. maybe it's about benefits and what they really think about it. whatever it is, they're always so unreliable. all the effort you put in to change their mind can be undone that quickly it's like why did you even bother to pretend to care in the first place

I hate that there's no way to be disabled that people will accept.

If you show joy, or acceptance in your disability, you're not really disabled and no one will take you seriously when you do complain and well it can't be that bad and oh I'm sure you're used to it.

But if you're miserable then you're whiny and annoying and people hate that it's "all you talk about" and its always ugh you're always tired and can we please stop talking about this it's making me depressed and oh I'd kill myself if that happen to me.

If you're happy you have everything figured out and don't need help anyway but if you're miserable you're a whiny bitch that can't just suck it up. There's no winning

Might fuck around and develop a parasocial one sided relationship with one of my new mutuals because we dont talk and I shake like a scared chihuahua when I try to talk to them, it's all in my head

mutuals i hope you find someone who never gets tired of you

saw a quote that said

"when little girls can't fix their fathers they will spend the rest of their lives trying to fix their lovers" IM SICK TO MY MF STOMACH

"read 2 hours ago" okay what if i just block you and you never hear from me again instead

Something awfully weird happened to me a long time ago

if the cage is open why am i still trapped.