Please Pity Me, For I'm Dependent On Your Love. Please Look At Me Like I'm Nothing More Than A Sorrowful

It’s dumb and toxic and not okay at all but I want to be 19 again in a friend group of fucked up people who encouraged eachothers destructive behaviors. I miss someone telling me not to eat, sharing low calorie recipes and reminding eachother what we were working towards.

I miss that bond. Of giving somebody else control. Having somebody who controlled my eating and helped me pick outfits and what to do with my hair.

me

(so mad i can’t see straight) Yeah i just don’t think chat gpt is a good classroom tool

not that anyone would fucking care if i blocked them lol

if the cage is open why am i still trapped.

loving me is like watering a dead flower

i miss you. fuck you for making me miss you. fuck you for doing that i hope youre fucking rotting and miserable.