Spectrespeaks - 🥀

why do i have to be happy for you. im not.

well okay that's not entirely true. im happy that you're happy. i'll always be grateful for your happiness. but jesus fucking christ why why why WHY can't i have the same things you have and why can't you just be mine.

oh well. that's what drugs are for.

torture myself or torture myself? tough choice

Why rot in bed if I could be rotting six meters underground?!?!?

anyway

touch starved but for physical violence

Might fuck around and develop a parasocial one sided relationship with one of my new mutuals because we dont talk and I shake like a scared chihuahua when I try to talk to them, it's all in my head

unfortunately i DID take what you said to heart and now i’m sobbing and debating on whether i should kill you or kill myself

I off myself in my head for at least 567 times in a day.