“Blue” by yours truly 🥹🫶🏼
*pokes head out*
Okay, so does anyone remember the basically Avatar the Last Airbender renaissance? Where everyone started getting back into it, and there was even a playlist of AtLA musical numbers?
Yeah, Balance helped me get through my thesis when I was near-on breaking down. It gave me sanity for much longer than I would have had without it.
So. Since then, the creator has dropped at least three bangers, Top of my School, Price of Perfection, and Saving Face. They are Great. She's auditioned for Canada's Got Talent and actually made it to the stage (I auditioned for AGT twice and got nowhere close, so the fact that she got that far is astounding and pretty cool).
Now, she's making a short musical film. As per the introduction of their fundraising page:
Hello! We are a team of student filmmakers from Cornell University studying film production, media studies, and performing and media arts. We are currently fundraising for Cornell University film project Silence. Written and directed by award-winning student filmmaker Katherine Lynn-Rose, Silence is a short film that explores familial love, connection, and culture through the lens of a musical film. As a team of BIPOC filmmakers, we hold a deep appreciation for narratives that authentically reflect our lives, experiences, and cultures, and it is our aspiration to bring such stories to light.
Anyways. Fundraising. She needs funds to get there, and they're aiming for 2k. So far, they've got $450.
If you can't donate, can you at least spread this? Absolutely zero shame (cause I think she'd hate that anyways). I just think she's really skilled and think it'd be cool if she and her team gets to make a film. I'd like to see how they communicate their vision.
Anyways, here's the link. Bye!
I stare at you as the fight begins once again
It’s the same thing over and over, almost like it will never end
Why am I the subject of your anger when I am not causing it
When we can fight the good fight, and both never lose
Your phone screen lights up, texts from him causing us both to cringe
You say “I am so over him”, but you told me that when you lost your cool
I watch you fade, little by little, knowing he’s to blame
But how can I stop you when you are like a moth to a flame
I know it isn’t fault, it’s just part of his twisted game
But I wish you would wake up, and realize that you aren’t the same
Your fire dwindles, his hand closing in around it
Can’t you just see for yourself that you need to take aim
Fire the gun and take back your own name
It seems a star has lost its light
How can you see out of those glossed over eyes?
Can you tell me how we got here?
Fighting over some douche who can’t even see over his own meat
I miss you so, so please don’t let him take you away from everyone who loves you so
No, this isn’t your fault, but please just see that there is better for you
Even if your curse yourself and call yourself names
You can’t stand looking at yourself in the mirror, so you let others break it
You catch fire when you’re most confident but you let yourself be extinguished
Just understand that the face looking back in the mirror is the only face you will ever have
So don’t let others change it for you
This probably goes back to your childhood
How your mother would do the same
That doesn’t mean you have to repeat the behavior and let yourself feel vain
Seeing you for you will be the best medicine
And help fix your ailing brain
It seems a star has lost its light
How can you see out of those glossed over eyes?
Can you tell me how we got here?
Fighting over some douche who can’t even see over his own meat
I miss you so, so please don’t let him take you away from everyone who loves you so
I’ve seen you stop this, over and over
And everytime you say it’s the last you go back to him
I believe in you so just let me know
No, this show will never be over
Thats pretty good for just a silly song about vampires
I caught your eyes following a light seeping through somewhere behind me.
A velvatine dream, a skeleton scene, violent dinning, stay the night in Reanne.
Your hair tucked politely behind your ear; A single strand falls and it all turns clear. Within a black fog, a shallow song.
I'll always be your dog.
...
Teeth sharp, striving for a taste. Never have you ever, but I'm not losing faith. A saccharine case, a motive displaced. I see Dhalias sprouting instead of your face.
Midsummer- rotting away with the others.
Fangs against your skin, I restrain myself so I won't be alone. I admire you too much, yet you're scared of my touch.
Murderous urge; shadows taking turns.
Oh how lovely it would be to meet you when the sun begins to rise. Too bad I'll burn.
...
I caught your eye, staring into the night.
Slipping into some narrow hall, shadows fly away.
A fever dream, a polaroid scene. Black and white shades unto the night. Somehow the graveyard feels so bright.
Creatures crawl out from their slumber.
Stake lobotomy, sacrifice another. I see flowers fill the tunnel.
...
Midsommer- rotting away with the others.
Fangs against your skin, you're the only thing that matters.
I think you love too much, yet you're scared of me.
Wouldn't it be grand if we, if I could see.
I want to meet you when the sky begins to turn.
Quite a shame. It's too bad I'll burn.
I love villain songs
I’ll be your supervillain I’ll be your bad guy If that’s what helps you sleep at night
Put the blame on me I’ll be your enemy The cause of all your pain and misery
And you’ll tell everybody I turned my back on you But we all know that’s just not true It’s far more complicated This ain’t black and white And I’m drawing a line in the sand tonight
Guilt is your weapon so I’m putting up a shield Won’t apologize for how that makes you feel Listen Here
oh oh oh alice oh oh oh alice oh oh oh oh alice oh oh oh alice oh
youre running 'round in circles chasing imaginary light oh alice who can you trust dear who can you trust
the caterpillar's misleading the cat cant make a choice the hatter invites you for a bite and the red queen she just might
oh who can you trust be careful not to lose your head your starting to go mad tryin' to understand who can you trust
oh alice who can you trust when this wonderful world is crying glass tears who can you trust
Youre going 'round in circles chasing imaginary light oh alice who can you trust
This false hope is no good your wonderful worlds cryin' glass tears who can you trust
youre losing your mind youre going mad trying to understand who can you trust can you even trust yourself who can you trust
the caterpillar's misleading the cheshire's not being clear the hatter invites you for a bite and the red queen she just might who can you trust
alice oh alice dear who can you trust can you even trust yourself oh who can you trust
who can you who can you who can you trust?
I’ve made myself small
Answered every call
Now here are we
Backs against the wall
I was once/am a yes, a people pleaser
“Helping” others I was more than eager
Agreed to everything to my demise
Now all I know I must criticize
I didn’t learn through all the pain
The emotional rollercoasters, the crushing shame,
That me myself I’m way too unselfish
Nothing I have, is anything I own.
I keep the peace that’s all I’m good for,
I can’t explain what I need or what I’m here for
Smile for everyone, and reach out my hands
But in the end, I’m always alone again.
Why do I bother, why can’t I live?
When every choice I make gets twisted to shit?
I drop all my cares, I’m like a stone to a river, living my life only to be disturbed by others.
My own emotions are at the wheel, yet they are held at gun point at every waking moment, smiling and staying quiet out of fear of being a disappointment.
When will it be my turn? Who controls the fight or flight? I’ll stay here, under the water, until the surface is in sight.
I’ve put myself last, just like everyone else.
How am I to know, when I don’t even know myself?
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