I’ve made myself small
Answered every call
Now here are we
Backs against the wall
I was once/am a yes, a people pleaser
“Helping” others I was more than eager
Agreed to everything to my demise
Now all I know I must criticize
I didn’t learn through all the pain
The emotional rollercoasters, the crushing shame,
That me myself I’m way too unselfish
Nothing I have, is anything I own.
I keep the peace that’s all I’m good for,
I can’t explain what I need or what I’m here for
Smile for everyone, and reach out my hands
But in the end, I’m always alone again.
Why do I bother, why can’t I live?
When every choice I make gets twisted to shit?
I drop all my cares, I’m like a stone to a river, living my life only to be disturbed by others.
My own emotions are at the wheel, yet they are held at gun point at every waking moment, smiling and staying quiet out of fear of being a disappointment.
When will it be my turn? Who controls the fight or flight? I’ll stay here, under the water, until the surface is in sight.
I’ve put myself last, just like everyone else.
How am I to know, when I don’t even know myself?
I made a little something something for one of my favourite Batman villains!
❤
So I jumped on that "Jolene's Response" trend and I made it gay. Is this something any of you would be interested in hearing?
Dolly, Dolly, Dolly, Dolly
Believe me when I say I don't want your man
Dolly, Dolly, Dolly, Dolly
Stealing him has never been my plan
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I cannot compete with you
I was just something shiny and new
But you deserve better than that man
He was going to throw you away
All he wanted to do was play
But I'd much rather be with you
Dolly
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You're the one I really want
And I really think that we could taunt
That pathetic excuse of a man
Dolly
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I know what he means to you
But think about what he's put you through
Is he really worth it in the end
Dolly
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Dolly, Dolly, Dolly, Dolly
Believe me when I say I don't want your man
Dolly, Dolly, Dolly, Dolly
Stealing him has never been my plan
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Your love for him has made you blind
But I really hope that you can find
What really makes you happy
Dolly
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I'm glad you had this talk with me
I understand, but don't you see
The last thing I wanna do is hurt you
Dolly
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Dolly, Dolly, Dolly, Dolly
Believe me when I say I don't want your man
Dolly, Dolly, Dolly, Dolly
Stealing him has never been my plan
Dolly, Dolly
Pocahontas - Colors of the wind
Beauty and the Beast - Bonjour
Beauty and the Beast - Tale as old as time
Beauty and the Beast - Something there
Beauty and the Beast - Happy ending
Lion King - The cycle of life
The little mermaid - Part of your world
Oliver and Co - Why should I worry
Oliver and Co - good company
The sword in the stone - Higitus figitus
The book of the jungle - bare necessities
The rescue aid society theme
The rescuers - Someone's waiting for you
Treasure planet - I'm still here
Frozen - In summer
Frozen - Love is an open door
Alice in Wonderland - Painting the roses red
Tangled - I see the light
Toy Story - You've got a friend in me I know it's a Pixar
Feel free to add 🍁
I like the second verse
I’ll come to you on a lavender breeze
Just close your eyes and you’ll see
When I’m holding you we are clean
And this is more than a dream
I’ll keep stacking up my two cents
Against the bills and the rent
So you can live in more than my head
I can’t wait to see you again
For now we’ll phone
When we should be sleeping
Hold onto hope
That this is the real thing
Oh, you’re my everything.
Yeah, I may have blood on my hands
I may be a broken man
Maybe I don’t know where I stand
But I’m finding home again
Please just let me rest
On the left side of your bed
Yeah, rinse the red from my hands
I love you without end
Oh, for now we’ll phone
When we should be sleeping
Hold onto hope
That this is the real thing
Oh, you’re my everything.
I’ll keep stacking up my two cents
Against the bills and the rent
So you can live in more than my head
I can’t wait to see you again
Please just let me rest
On the left side of your chest
Yeah, rinse the red from my hands
I love you without end
-Sweet Dreams on a Lavender Breeze-
Original lyrics BL
Okay so I am actually kind of pissed abt this one. Usually cancellations I’m chill with but like this show was one of my favorites. Thanks a lot Netflix
GUIDE TO THE MINDSET GLOW UP 🎀
♡ | positive mindset
easier said than done, but it has such a huge impact in our life. we as humans tend to always think negatively of everything, resulting us to give up. but what if it will work out? what we think constantly reflects in our reality and actions. why do we have to always blame ourselves for everything, why do we have to be anxious over little things, why do we have to always think of the worst when we can just flip the words, meaning, love and believe in ourselves.
- ways to have a positive mindset
the bus theory - when u see the bus that you missed u don’t actually run after it, right? you just wait for another one, knowing that it 100% will be here. think of your opportunities/relationships etc that you’ve "lost" as this bus.
the universe/god never says no; it either says yes , not yet or I have something better for you.
practice self-care, be gentle to yourself. you are waking up and always trying and it’s enough.
the moments you thought that are the "worst" are only moments now, and you’re still here. Be proud of yourself for that
a little rain doesnt have to ruin the parade
practice meditation. clean mind = better mood
journal journal journal (I’m going to make a post of journal benefits soon)
this absolutely doesn’t mean that you always have to be positive about everyone and everything. If you feel sad or feel like crying let it all out. if you feel drained allow yourself to sit all day and watch shows. it’s all about accepting yourself and not "I’m such a failure I did nothing today" instead "it’s okay, I have tomorrow where I can try again".
♡ | discipline > motivation
motivation comes and go, but discipline is forever. you are scared and not trying? It’s okay, do it while being scared. count to 3 and start doing something, take action. just DONT sit around. have a plan and don’t try to do everything all at once, or you will be easily drained . everyday do something better for 1% and you’ll see how just in a short while this 1% will be 100%.
a very good episode of mimi’s :
♡ | kindness to yourself is kindness to everyone
treat yourself with love and respect before others. everyone in this world is a human and I do not wish for you or them to spread hate. we all have bad days and this is exactly why we should so self-care or reach out to someone, but never blame anyone for anything.
you don’t owe anyone anything, but kindness and respect.
what you give is what you receive.
respect is not earned, disrespect is.
♡ | no one knows you better than you do
no you are not horrible for the mistakes that you’ve made. do you know what makes you horrible? not acknowledging them. if you wronged someone, apologize. even if it’s too late and the relationship is lost, I’m so proud of you for realizing your mistake and trying to do better. learn AND improve. accept yourself for all the pluses and minuses. you’re a crybaby? good because I’m too, and it’s absolutely okay. In fact, I think vulnerability is very powerful. you are human and you don’t have to be perfect. thrive for being better not perfection. do not listen to rumors or someone thinking that you are a bad person. you in fact know that you are not and it’s all that matters. why do you care if you are enemy in their story , they aren’t heroes in yours either.
insecurity is loud, confidence is quiet.
♡ | boundaries
to stay away from toxic people you have to have boundaries. I think the most common type here is "people pleasing" so here’s my post to help you to stop being one.
when someone does something that makes you uncomfortable, please let them know about it. you don’t have to tolerate this behavior. your own peace is the most important thing ever.
if they still repeat their actions then well … it’s time to say goodbye.
if you think that you will "lose" everything by setting boundaries please go back to the top and read the "ways to have a positive mindset" :)
watch youtubers, listen to podcasts etc to connect with people like you and improve your mindset alongside with boundaries.
here’s my list of my favs, but you can find waaaay more on tumblr
♡ | confidence
be confident, trust yourself, and never let anybody put you down. If anybody puts you down, it’s because they’re jealous. – Adriana Lima
do not compare yourself with ANYONE. the person you are looking at and saying "I wish I was her" might be doing the same. compare yourself with YOUR dream girl that you have in your head. your only competition is you.
after boundaries, positive mindset, discipline, naturally comes the confidence. loving yourself and staying true to yourself is what confidence exactly is.
no fake it till you make it, no difficult words, just you . take it easy.
♡ | tip: body language and fitness
this is more on the physical side but I advice you to learn a little bit about body language. It helps you to appear confident and attractive. my "go to’s" are entering the room with high head and good posture, never sitting on your phone (as in checking the weather app awkwardly etc not when someone calls or texts u) when coming to an unknown place.
fitness helps to relieve stress and clear out your mind when you don’t want to meditate. and by fitness I don’t mean intense workouts, a 5 minute workout that you enjoy is enough. also walking 10.000 steps a day also counts as fitness to have a healthy and balanced life.
I , for example, have a playlist with different workouts and I do each on of them on different days, whenever I feel like choosing one. sometimes I don’t even work out I just walk 7-10K steps :)
— the end ♡
in conclusion I just want to say ITS OKAY ITS OKAY ITS OKAY. You are fine. You are enough. Make mistakes, be sad, improve, be disappointed, try, love, learn, thrive. The purpose of this post is for you to understand that DONT exist , LIVE. Because life is worth living for. You were, are, will be okay.
*pokes head out*
Okay, so does anyone remember the basically Avatar the Last Airbender renaissance? Where everyone started getting back into it, and there was even a playlist of AtLA musical numbers?
Yeah, Balance helped me get through my thesis when I was near-on breaking down. It gave me sanity for much longer than I would have had without it.
So. Since then, the creator has dropped at least three bangers, Top of my School, Price of Perfection, and Saving Face. They are Great. She's auditioned for Canada's Got Talent and actually made it to the stage (I auditioned for AGT twice and got nowhere close, so the fact that she got that far is astounding and pretty cool).
Now, she's making a short musical film. As per the introduction of their fundraising page:
Hello! We are a team of student filmmakers from Cornell University studying film production, media studies, and performing and media arts. We are currently fundraising for Cornell University film project Silence. Written and directed by award-winning student filmmaker Katherine Lynn-Rose, Silence is a short film that explores familial love, connection, and culture through the lens of a musical film. As a team of BIPOC filmmakers, we hold a deep appreciation for narratives that authentically reflect our lives, experiences, and cultures, and it is our aspiration to bring such stories to light.
Anyways. Fundraising. She needs funds to get there, and they're aiming for 2k. So far, they've got $450.
If you can't donate, can you at least spread this? Absolutely zero shame (cause I think she'd hate that anyways). I just think she's really skilled and think it'd be cool if she and her team gets to make a film. I'd like to see how they communicate their vision.
Anyways, here's the link. Bye!
Love that horror movies have the most iconic musicals. It’s so sad I can’t see Scream’d in person I am LAMENTING
I love villain songs
I’ll be your supervillain I’ll be your bad guy If that’s what helps you sleep at night
Put the blame on me I’ll be your enemy The cause of all your pain and misery
And you’ll tell everybody I turned my back on you But we all know that’s just not true It’s far more complicated This ain’t black and white And I’m drawing a line in the sand tonight
Guilt is your weapon so I’m putting up a shield Won’t apologize for how that makes you feel Listen Here
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