Wrote This In An Ice Cream Shop

Neil Josten coded

From Hayden’s Instagram

I just know that the dudes who make those "girls get 500 compliments a day vs. guy gets one compliment once and cherishes it for the rest of his life" memes put zero effort into their appearance. Like what exactly do you expect people to say? Wow nice plain ill-fitting hoodie, goes great with your basic-ass blue jeans and nondescript haircut. Got some real cool Grey Man vibes going on, you could seamlessly blend into any crowd ever without being seen at all.

Like nobody has any obligation to look any certain way, but you can't expect to be praised for doing something you're not even trying to do. I dress like I got tarred and feathered in a Tim Burton film costume department discard scrap pile, and someone saying they like my style is a biweekly occurrence.

If this is just a demo then I cannot wait to see how she refines it.

the dialogue at 1.15 is stunning. i love her unreleased stuff so much.

you read stuff on wattpad for shit and giggles where most of the fics there are reader-inserted ones written in 1st person pov where y/n is a barely legal white girl with blonde hair and blue “orbs” who’s so smol and fragile that she’s dependent entirely on this morally questionable guy who’s killing people for a living but for some reason happens to have a soft spot for her.

you read real actual literature on archive of our own where it’s two middle aged men, who are each other’s sworn enemies, with tragic past, trauma and strong homoerotic tension. and while they’ve made each other bleed, killed each other’s friends and loved ones out of jealousy / possessiveness, lied and betrayed and manipulated, the rawness, depth, complexity and slow burn will keep you up all night, haunt you during your day and possibly change your life forever. and also the sex isn’t just smut. the sex is poetry that puts Shakespeare to shame

When you're attractive (physical, sense of humor, personality, etc) and autistic, it's very hard to get people to take your struggles seriously.

You're frequently alone because you have no idea how to initiate a conversation, read signs of interest, figure out when it's okay to approach someone, etc. You take wild guesses that cause many people to think there's something wrong with you. Sometimes your wild guesses work, but only temporarily. You're right back to being alone shortly after.

You complain about how hard it is to get people to like you.

Then, every once in a while, someone who finds you attractive approaches you and flirts with you. You play along. To anyone who witnesses that, it seems like you have no trouble getting people to like you. They may even be jealous of you. But because you don't know how to continue the interaction beyond just playing along, it doesn't last long. Or you try to continue the interaction without knowing how to do it the right way and your clinginess turns them off.

The next time you complain, they use that one time you were approached as evidence that you're just being negative. But it's not something you can duplicate. It happened out of your control. You can't just wait around for it to happen again. Sure, it probably will happen again eventually, but it could be months before it happens again, and you don't want zero social interaction for months.

i like working at plant store. sometimes you ring up someone and there's a slug on their plant and so you're like "Oh haha you've got a friend there let me get that for you" and you put the slug on your hand for safekeeping but then its really busy and you dont have time to take the slug outside before the next customer in line so you just have a slug chilling on your hand for 15 minutes. really makes you feel at peace with nature. also it means sometimes i get to say my favorite line which is "would you like this free slug with your purchase"

hehehehhe

(credits to whoever took the photos)

i’ve finally found a good archive!! be ready for rares 😉